It is 6:31 am on Saturday where I'm at and I cannot sleep.
I started to spot last night and cramp. I thought I would wake up this morning to everything being full blown and nada.
Just slight cramping.
So I'm awake wondering:
1.) how long will this take to start?
And 2.) I'm freaking out. Suddenly I have this fear that it is in my tube and no one will catch it until it's too late because my OB sucks and then I'll have to have a tube removed and we'll never get pregnant again.
so, I can't sleep. And normally I grocery shop on Saturdays and I'm afraid to see a pregnant belly. I'm afraid I will burst into tears because I seem to be doing that at random.
Okay, I'm done. Hopefully just typing this out will let me catch a few mins of sleep before my son wakes up.
Thanks for listening.

Me: 27 DH: 33
Married 6 years
Conceived DS after 4 years of MFI
TTC # 2 (not trying,not preventing ever)
May 2013 - August 2013 Timed Intercourse = BFN
September 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs=BFN
October 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs, and "warming foods" = BFP
Beta #1 19, Beta #2 18 Progesterone 4.6 Miscarried 11/9/13
November 2013 - Benched, waiting for first post-loss AF.
No longer benched per New RE/OB!
Jan. 15 2014 - BFP. HCG 3900 - Ectopic
Jan. 16 2014 Left tube removed and D&C
March 2, 2014 First AF
Re: Can't sleep
I hate when I get all this IF stuff on my mind and I can't sleep - like worrying is going to make it better but that doesn't stop me. I have found writing it out does help get it out of my head so I can get some rest. Hopefully it did help you.
I'm sorry you're struggling with this and wish you the best.
Don't hump it, Love it!
Happily married since Feb 2010, Sweet DD born Oct 2010, 39 years old, blocked tube, low . 09 AMH and high 21 FSH
It's not him, it's me!
September 2013 failed IUI - left blocked tube
November 2013 IVF - premature ovulation converted to IUI
December 2013 "We were <are> on a break!!!" ~ Friends homage
November 2013 protocol: Menopur, Gonal-f RFF Pen 900, Ganirelix 250mcg, baby Asprin, Gonal-f RFF Pen 300, Z Pak, Novarel, Progestrone in Sesame Oil
I just want this to end naturally and soon which seems to be the case.
I think my anxiety is also stemming from the plummeting hormones. Hopefully everything levels out soon.
Me: 27 DH: 33
Conceived DS after 4 years of MFI
TTC # 2 (not trying,not preventing ever)
May 2013 - August 2013 Timed Intercourse = BFN
September 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs=BFN
October 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs, and "warming foods" = BFP
Beta #1 19, Beta #2 18 Progesterone 4.6 Miscarried 11/9/13
November 2013 - Benched, waiting for first post-loss AF.
No longer benched per New RE/OB!
Jan. 15 2014 - BFP. HCG 3900 - Ectopic
Jan. 16 2014 Left tube removed and D&C
March 2, 2014 First AF
"Sedation vacation" love it.
Me: 27 DH: 33
Conceived DS after 4 years of MFI
TTC # 2 (not trying,not preventing ever)
May 2013 - August 2013 Timed Intercourse = BFN
September 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs=BFN
October 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs, and "warming foods" = BFP
Beta #1 19, Beta #2 18 Progesterone 4.6 Miscarried 11/9/13
November 2013 - Benched, waiting for first post-loss AF.
No longer benched per New RE/OB!
Jan. 15 2014 - BFP. HCG 3900 - Ectopic
Jan. 16 2014 Left tube removed and D&C
March 2, 2014 First AF