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Deep breath...

jlworden710jlworden710 member
edited November 2013 in Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss
Hello ladies, I'm coming to you guys from May '14... This morning I experienced bleeding right before my 10wk appointment... I immediately panicked but tried to keep my cool. While sitting in the waiting room I started fighting back tears... I just had THAT feeling. After crying to the nurse then to the doctor they tried to find a heartbeat... Unsuccessful. Tried an abdominal ultrasound... Unsuccessful. At that point I started to prepare myself of the inevitable... The internal ultrasound revealed an empty sac that measured 7.5 weeks. Worst part is, I was alone as hubby was at work...

I'm heartbroken, emotional, exhausted and now struggling to understand. I know there's nothing that could have been done different, but it doesn't make it easier.

But now I need to take a deep breath and take my next steps which I have no idea what they are.

(Pardon my ticker... I'm on mobile and haven't had a chance to change it yet...)

BFP: 9/21/13 | EDD:5/31/14 | MC confirmed:11/6/13 | D&C:11/12/13
BFP: 1/14/14 | EDD: 9/21/14 | MC confirmed: 2/3/14 | D&C: 2/4/14
DX 3/18/14 (Complete) Septate Uterus | Resection 4/22/14
BFP: 8/5/14 | EDD: 4/19/15
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  • peggels24peggels24 member
    jlworden710 I am so very very sorry.  I wish I had the words to make it all better.
    BFP #1 09/26/2013 EDD 06/04/2013 MMC 11/01/2013
    BFP #2 05/15/2014 EDD 01/24/2015

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  • MrsG80inTNMrsG80inTN member
    I'm so sorry.  I wish you didn't find yourself here.  Praying that you find comfort in this crazy situation.

    Me 35 / DH 36
    TTC since 09/2009
    Hashimoto's diagnosis 11/2011 / Endometriosis removal surgery 04/2013
    Other diagnosis: 1 mutation - PAI-1 gene
    BFP#1 9/27/2013  /  EDD 6/4/14  /  MC 10/17/2013
    BFP#2 3/4/14  /  EDD 11/13/14  /  CP
    BFP#3 6/7/14  / EDD 2/16/15  /  CP
    BFP #4 11/7/2014 / EDD 7/17/15  /  CP
    Current  Plan: Waiting to change RE... Appt on 1/16
    RXs: Metformin, Levothyroxin, Baby Aspirin, CoQ10, Vitamin D, Folic Acid, Pre-natal. Progesterone post O.

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  • Tkparry16Tkparry16 member
    I'm so sorry for your loss, there is really nothing anyone can say or do that will make you feel better, but just know it was not anything you could have done!!! Good luck to you and I hope you can find peace!!
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  • jbartsyjbartsy member
    I'm so sorry for your loss, I remember you from May14 because we had the same due date :(  Our little bean stopped growing at 7w6d and I started bleeding and m/ced last week, so I can definitely relate to what you're feeling. I don't have much advice since it's still so raw for me as well, but just try to take care of yourself as much as possible through this. *hugs*
    BFP#1: 9/21/13  EDD: 5/31/14 m/mc @ 7w6d on 10/27/13
    BFP#2: 10/4/14  EDD: 6/7/15  DD born 6/4/15💕
    BFP#3: 12/24/19 EDD: 9/6/20
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  • libby+natelibby+nate member
    I'm so sorry for you loss. You won't get over it but you WILL get through it. You are in my thoughts. I hate that you had to be alone for the appointment. (((Hugs)))
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  • jlworden710jlworden710 member
    Thank you ladies for the words of encouragement. It's so nice to be able to relate with someone! At this point I'm torn with waiting it out or opting for a d&c... I just want to be done and move forward, but I know there are risks... Just a hard choice to make.

    BFP: 9/21/13 | EDD:5/31/14 | MC confirmed:11/6/13 | D&C:11/12/13
    BFP: 1/14/14 | EDD: 9/21/14 | MC confirmed: 2/3/14 | D&C: 2/4/14
    DX 3/18/14 (Complete) Septate Uterus | Resection 4/22/14
    BFP: 8/5/14 | EDD: 4/19/15
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  • masterofallcheesemasterofallcheese member
    another may 2014 here...i am so so sorry to see you here. and i cant imagine what it was like to be alone at that appointment. i hope this board can be of some help to you

    Missed M/C natural cycle 10/2013

    DX PCOS 3/2014

    2 cycles Clomid 50 mg + Ovidrel + TI

    1 cycle Clomid 50 mg + TI - no response stair-stepped to Clomid 75 mg + Ovidrel + TI

    1 cycle Clomid 50 mg + Ovidrel + IUI

    1 cycle Letrozole 7.5 mg + 150 mg Follistim + Ovidrel + TI

    1 cycle Letrozole 7.5 mg + 150 mg Folistim + Ovidrel + IUI

    1 cycle Letrozole 7.5 mg + 150 mg Follistim  - no response, repeated Letrozole 7.5 mg + 150 mg Follistim + Ovidrel + IUI = success! 12/2014

    Beta 1 - 15 dpiui, 324, Beta 2 - 17 dpiui 750. Twins!!

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  • lynseyadamsonlynseyadamson member
    Another may 14er here too. I'm so sorry for your loss, sending you hugs and thoughts xx

    Kieran born 21.1.10

    Angel baby 1 lost 18.6.13

    Angel baby 2 lost 30.10.13


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  • Jessy336Jessy336 member
    another May 2014er here too...I am so sorry for your loss.  I wish I had more words to say to you, but it's so raw here too.  I just had my d&c yesterday, and today I am home by myself feeling so sad.  The whole experience sucks, but know that you are not alone.  Sending lots of hugs your way...

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    BFP#2 12/8/2014  ||  EDD 8/19/2015 || please be our RAINBOW
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  • co baby1co baby1 member
    I was a May 14er that never intro'ed, I had a bad feeling from the beginning. I am so sorry you found yourself here, it's an awful place to be but the support from everyone here is amazing!

    I also went to the dr alone, I was 11 weeks and thought everything was fine. I felt totally different, like you, when I got there. I will say the follow up ultrasound was heartbreaking, I sobbed through the entire thing. I was so glad my DH was there! ((Hugs))
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  • alm288alm288 member
    I'm very sorry for your loss :( I was also a May 14 groupie. It's a rough process for anyone to go through. Give yourself some time to digest everything that's happening. It will get easier with time. Big hugs!
    TTC: Since July 2013
    BFP #1: EDD 05/27/2014 (D&C 10/17/2014)
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  • jlworden710jlworden710 member
    edited November 2013
    Today had been much easier... For now. My d&c is scheduled for Tuesday so I'm hoping everything goes well and I can start the healing process emotionally and physically.

    You have all been so encouraging and uplifting the last 24 hrs and I'm so grateful.

    edited for my ridiculous spelling

    BFP: 9/21/13 | EDD:5/31/14 | MC confirmed:11/6/13 | D&C:11/12/13
    BFP: 1/14/14 | EDD: 9/21/14 | MC confirmed: 2/3/14 | D&C: 2/4/14
    DX 3/18/14 (Complete) Septate Uterus | Resection 4/22/14
    BFP: 8/5/14 | EDD: 4/19/15
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