Well Trinity's first birthday is 15 days away. I tell you it is so hard to think that I missed all of that with Sydney. I am not sure how I will be the day of her party but I know that people expect me to be just over it since I have her and that just isn't the case. She is and will never be a replacement for our Sydney. They are two different babies. I don't understand how people who haven't lost a baby can think it is okay to move on after losing a baby. How do they expect you to move on when your heart will always be missing a piece that went to heaven when my baby girl died. I know it has been 2 years but the hurt and sadness is still there maybe not every single moment but it is there. Just a little random post sorry it was just on my mind.
Hugs!!
Heather
Re: "Rainbow mentioned" first birthday
Brooke Elizabeth born Feb 17, 2013 grew wings May 9, 2013 @ 11 weeks & 4 days old from SIDS
TTC since 2008
Dh:34, no issues. Me:31, Endo, slightly hypothyroid, deformed ovary, paracentric inversion.
4 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone +TI cycles= all BFN
Lap in 2012 to remove large unresolving cyst discovered endo and double lobed ovary.
6 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone IUI cycles= All BFN,
1st IVF w/ICSI- June '13 Antagonist: Gonal-F, Menopur, Ganirelix, HcG, Estradiol, Crinone= 7 retrieved, 4 mature, 1 unfertilized, 2 abnormally fertilized, 1 normally fertilized. 2DT of only embryo and our miracle BFP.
Our beloved baby boy was born sleeping Oct. 13, 2013 due to pROM/IC/Uterine infection.
2nd IVF w/ICSI- Feb. '14 EPP/lupron/antagonist: Estrace, lupron, HGH, Gonal-F, Menopur, HcG, PIO, lovenox, doxy/dex.=21 retrieved, 16 mature, 15 fertilized!! 5dt of 1 blast/ 6 frozen. BFP! Beta 1 9dp5dt:83.9 Beta 2: 11dp5dt: 145.2 Beta 3 14dp5dt: 497 Please be our sticky rainbow baby!
I can't believe she's going to be one! Seems like just yesterday you were letting us know she was here! I can only imagine how difficult of a day it's going to be. To be happy and sad all at the same time. I hate that people think we should just be over it or forget. All that matters to me is that we won't forget and the people who mean something to me won't either.
{{HUGS}}
In memory of Corbin Scott 10/28/11-12/3/11. Heaven got another angel the night you left this world behind Heaven got a little better the day it took you away from me Missing you tonight, see you again sometime For now I'll close my eyes and dream of heaven tonight I'll love you forever I'll like you for always Now and Forever My baby you'll be
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Gosh - Trinity is almost 1? Wow! I remember when DS turned 4 last year [his first birthday after losing Devon], and I cried my eyes out that morning. I had never imagined that I would celebrate any more of DS' birthdays without his little brother, and the realization was a hard one to swallow. No one else really understood why I was upset, so I didn't say anything...it's so hard, though, to hit such important milestones with a piece of your family missing. Thinking of all of you as you near your sweet rainbow's big birthday. **hugs**
Oh and PS- I cannot believe she is 1 almost!!!! Where the heck is time going?