First off, I found out today that we have nothing to freeze. Our 2 little 'average' embryos leftover from the 2 'good' ones they transferred didn't make it to day 6, which is required by our clinic to freeze. So basically all my eggs are in one basket (the basket being my uterus). That was frustrating enough.
However, I channeled my disappointment into extreme eye rolling today. And bear with me, I'm totally overreacting, but it's easier to mad than sad. I went to see a hypnotherapist (yes, yes, I know it sounds dumb - it was purely for relaxation and anxiety reduction, plus she supposedly specializes in infertility & hypnobirthing). So I had met her before and thought she was kind of a bimbo, but she proved it today. I explained all of the ups and downs we have had with infertility, over 3.5 yrs and the heartache and disappointment, etc. Then I told her that we will get our bloodtest results back next week and that we have a trip planned the next day, just in case - for celebration or consolation.
So blondie goes into this long spiel about how that's exactly like what she recommends to her pregnant clients who are getting antsy about their due dates. She tells them to plan something 'fun' on their due date so they don't get disappointed if they don't deliver on that day. WTF. Yeah, us planning a trip on the day we find out if our thousands of dollars and years of pain have been worth it, just to avoid having a complete emotional breakdown is totally like wondering if your healthy baby will arrive at the exact moment you wanted it to.
I expect comparisons like this from random people, but not people claiming to specialize in IF. Grr.
30 yrs, healthy & TTC since April 2010
DH 32yrs & healthy
*unexplained infertility*
Regularly access alternative medicine to supplement a lack of resources in our geographical area.- Three rounds of clomid (50mg days 3-7) were useless.
- IUI#1 w/clomid & HCG in May 2013, BFN.
- IUI#2 w/clomid & HCG on July 23rd. BFN.
- IUI #3 in August cancelled last minute, due to lab error.
- IVF#1 - Started Gonal F stims October 13 2013 for IUI. Over-responded with too many follicles, so converted to IVF. Retrieval October 29th - got 5 eggs, 4 fertilized. Had 2 perfect little embryos transferred on day 3 (Nov. 1). The remaining 2 didn't survive to freeze. Got our BFN on November 13th 2013.
- IVF#2 - Started stims August 21st. Triggered with Suprefact, started on dostinex due to risk of OHSS. Retrieval September 5th - got 27 eggs! 21 embryos on day 3. Embryos deteriorated quickly. ESet 5day blast on Sept 10. No embryos high enough quality to freeze. BFN came Sept. 22.
Reserved a semi-known proven donor in August .
Waiting for consult/screening and protocols with estimated fresh cycle timing in October
Re: Mini Vent (warning: dumbass mentioned)
M/C-9/12/2010-Unexpected pregnancy
TTC since 11/27/10
BFN every month since that date
No period since 17.
Period on 10/15/2013!!!
IF appointment 11/13/2013...o.O
Prescribed Provera Stop taking it on 11/22/13
AF arrived on 11/27/2013 -(My freakin' anniversary.)
Start 50 mg of Clomid on CD 2-6
I also didn't have any of my 3 remaining embies make it to freeze. I have the best two in my "basket" as well! I find out on Wednesday the outcome. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you and me both!