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Time to let go

Gator_Bride07Gator_Bride07 member
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I thought I'd be handling the arrival of AF much better this month. I wasn't obsessive about TTC and I had all the PMS symptoms, so it wasn't a surprise. But here I am..another mess. And to top it off, the "top post" on my newsfeed is another pregnancy announcement. I just don't understand!!! We had ZERO issues conceiving DD. My cycle has been regulated by clomid for the past 4 months, we've been trying for 12. Why isn't it happening??? We can't afford to move on to other procedures, but I can't stay on clomid forever. And once I quit, my luteal phase defect will return. I think it's time to hang it up and move on to being a 3-person family. It's painful, but I really don't see any other options.
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  • Jen071407Jen071407 member
    ((Hugs)) It's never easy when af shows her ugly face. Wish I had magical words to make you feel better.

    Two DDs 10/08 and 08/10, no primary IF
    TTC #3 since 10/2011 - dx unexplained/weak ovulation
     3 BFN clomid + TI cycles, 5 BFN clomid/gonal f IUIs, 1 mmc IUI
    2/19/2014 IVF #1 Unexpected low E2 (oversuppressed) -> increased to max doses = 3 or 4 follicles, converting to IUI
    BFFP Saw 1 beautiful heartbeat at 6w6d, follow up u/s at 9w showed mmc. Eff this.
    NTNP 5/2014-9/2014, OPKs and TI 10/2014 - 1/2015. 
    RPL testing all normal, AFC, AMH, and FSH all normal. 
    IVF 1.2 1/22/2014 natural cycle start, AFC 28, 300 gonal f/150menopur. 
    ER 2/3/15 14R 8M 3F w/ICSI Day 5 transfer on 2/8/15 of one "Grade A+" blast and have TWO frosties! 

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  • MommaInNCMommaInNC member
    I'm sorry.  Its devastating to have such a hard time TTC.  I wish you peace in whatever you guys decide.  Big hugs.
    B/G twins born 3.22.11
    TTC #3
    M/C 10.26.13 @ 6w2d
     
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  • AlmostWrightAlmostWright member
    I am so sorry. I also have been thinking about accepting our family of 3 more and more now, and it is really hard to accept :( 

    DS born Jan 2010

    TTC#2 since Nov 2010 with breaks for DH cancer tx (remission!)

    Tube with hydro removed Feb 2013

    BFP 11/11/13 IUI#2 clomid+trigger+prometrium

    Beta #1 14dpIUI=106; Beta #2 16dpIUI=287; Beta #3 20dpIUI=1158

    5w6d 1 hb 109 and 2nd smaller sac; 7w0d 1 hb 125 and confirmed vanishing twin

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  • tachetache member
    I feel you and am going thru the exact same thing right now. My only piece of advice is don't make any major decisions about stopping on day 1 or 2 of AF. I know I'm always super emotional and annoyed those few days. If I give it a few days I usually feel better and more motivated to keep going.
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  • +SouthernMomma++SouthernMomma+ member
    tache said:
    I feel you and am going thru the exact same thing right now. My only piece of advice is don't make any major decisions about stopping on day 1 or 2 of AF. I know I'm always super emotional and annoyed those few days. If I give it a few days I usually feel better and more motivated to keep going.

    This exactly! Im so sorry AF crashed the party, keep your head up honey! You know we are all here for you. It's never easy moving onto another cycle... (BIG HUGSSSSS)
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  • freakyfastfreakyfast member
    (((HUGS))) I am so sorry.



      


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  • kndeckarkndeckar member
    I am sorry :( It is so hard! But there are other med options besides Clomid. I am starting Femara, trigger shot, and progesterone this month. I am shocked at how inexpensive it is going to be! Maybe ask your RE about these? We are in the same financial boat as you, so it's very likely that we won't be doing IUI or IVF if it comes to that. Good luck!
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  • whit0156whit0156 member
    I'm so sorry. Sending hugs your way.
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  • annibesannibes member
    I'm sorry. 2IF is such a frustrating issue. :(
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  • chusumchusum member
    Ugh, this sucks. I'm sorry you are starting a new cycle.

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    Married August 9, 2008
    TTC Since September 2009

    1st   BFP | EDD 10/23/10 | Natural M/C 03/27/10 | 10w 0d
    2nd BFP 06/26/10 | EDD 02/25/11 | Natural  M/C 07/17/10 | 8w 1d
    3rd  BFP 12/17/10 | EDD 08/24/11 | Natural M/C 12/31/10 | 7w 4d
    4th  BFP 06/22/11 | EDD 02/25/12 | M/C D&C on 07/27/11 | 9w4d
    5th  BFP 09/17/11 | DD Paige Lily born 05/16/12
    6th  BFP 08/11/12 | EDD 04/11/13 | CP
    7th  BFP 09/29/13 | EDD 06/04/14 | Natural M/C 10/27/13 | 8w1d
    8th  BFP 12/16/13 | EDD 09/01/14

    DX: Pericentric Inversion of Chromosome 8 & compound heterozygous for MTHFR mutations
    RX: Lovenox/Heparin & Folgard

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  • Gator_Bride07Gator_Bride07 member
    tache said:
    I feel you and am going thru the exact same thing right now. My only piece of advice is don't make any major decisions about stopping on day 1 or 2 of AF. I know I'm always super emotional and annoyed those few days. If I give it a few days I usually feel better and more motivated to keep going.

    Thanks everyone. It took me all day to come back and read your responses. I tried a few times, but I would tear up just thinking about it.
    I think you're right, @tache. CD1 is always so emotionally charged. I'll let my head clear before I decide 100%.
    I appreciate all the support I've gotten from this board. <3
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  • CheesyPeasCheesyPeas member
    I'm so sorry hun.  Hopefully today is a better day.  Sending some ((hugs)) your way.
    November 2010 - 10.5 week loss  o:) 
    October 2011 - DS (7)  <3 
    July 2014 - Stillborn DD (24 weeks)  o:) 
    August 2015 - DD (3)  <3 
    April 2018 - 5 week loss o:) 

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