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Sophie and Gabriel are home now.

diamante1181diamante1181 member
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We finally got the call from the funeral home that Sophie and Gabriel were ready to be picked up. Of course dh and I left right away to go get them. And although it was heartbreaking, I am not broken. I could carry their beautiful little urns by their picture, and place them lovingly on either side. We lit their candles, cried for a few minutes, and let them be. I can't say I feel peaceful, as much as relieved that they are with us now and not some strangers. They are home with their family. It hurts but I know they are in a better place. They will never have to feel the pain of loss or broken hearts. I hope that I can hope again. 
On 10/23/13 Baby Sophie and Baby Gabriel born at 21+5 weeks. They grew wings and flew away from us. May God bless them always. We love you beans!
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  • kz's_girlygirlkz's_girlygirl member
    Sending you love and peace today. I'm glad your precious babies are home where they belong. <3
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    So happy you're babies are home where they belong.  You're in my thoughts and prayers today.

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  • CRUN2012CRUN2012 member
    Its good to hear that your babies are home...I hope you find peace soon ♡
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  • irons633irons633 member
    Wrapping you and your hubby in a big virtual hug today and the days to come!!
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  • mingaling2mingaling2 member
    I am glad they are home with you. Sending you love.

     
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    *** LO ticker *** So glad they're home. Thinking of you and your hubby today.
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  • schulme2schulme2 member
    I'm so glad they're home! Sending prayers for the four of you!
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  • VyD81VyD81 member
    edited November 2013
    Glad they are home with you and your hubby


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  • diamante1181diamante1181 member
    I'm happy they're home, too. I was okay for a little bit, but I guess I am having a delayed reaction. Last night I had a breakdown and told my husband what I horrible mother I am, etc. Today I am still struggling. Their urns are beautiful and our little shelf for them is lovely, with all their things and a lit candle. It just literally squeezes my heart to look at it, and to remember everything. If I could have held out till yesterday, I would have been admitted and had the steroid shots administered for Gabriel, and at least he would have had a chance to come home another way. I have been stripped of the happiness I had, and now I'm just a shell of the person I was. I'll never be the same.
    On 10/23/13 Baby Sophie and Baby Gabriel born at 21+5 weeks. They grew wings and flew away from us. May God bless them always. We love you beans!
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    Phoebe Jaslene born at 19w3d. We love you beba! Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers



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  • weddedwifeweddedwife member
    I know I'm not the same. The pain is not as overwhelming as it was in the beginning though. It comes and goes. I know that seems impossible for many of you right now.

    It took 9 DAYS for my son to be cremated and his ashes to be ready. That wait was agony. Picking him up from the funeral home was the one of the worst days of my life, right up there with losing him and leaving the hospital without my baby. The grief was just crushing.

    Bringing him home that way was so surreal. It's not supposed to be like that. I still can't believe it really happened to us, to him.

    Huge hugs.
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