August 2013 Moms

Updates and an AW post

BabyE143BabyE143 member
edited November 2013 in August 2013 Moms
Well I got through it. I thought it was going to be one of the hardest days of my life but it wasn't. The day after her funeral was. The day of her showing/ funeral I didn't have much time to think. That Monday morning I had to go to a wig place to put on my mom because she had lost a lot of hair. Since we were having a showing (something we weren't sure we'd do, depending on how she would look) and my mom was always big on her hair it was something I had to do. She passed on a Saturday so the wig place was closed. So I got up early Monday morning and went with my mil to pick out a wig. Took it home and she cut it while it was on me (my mil is a hairdresser). When I got to the funeral home I had no time to think I had to get this wig on her (don't worry the funeral director did it). She looked good, better than when she passed but not quite like my "mom". The funeral was beautiful. So many people showed up, she was loved. I needed to say something during it and got emotional of course. I needed people to hear of what an amazing mom she was, my best friend.

The next day I was unprepared for. We started packing her things up in her apartment and I went through her old Facebook posts. The dam broke. I forgot how sick she was and just missed my beautiful mom.

But then I remembered that she wasn't suffering anymore and I collected myself. I know this is what the next year will look like.

On a positive note my husband is on his way home! I pick him up tonight. I can't wait to hug him and just have him hold me. I need it. He also passed all of his exams! Which is huge because he's dyslexic and has always struggled with school work/ tests and this was validation for him.

Fun story: He went to dinner with a couple friends he met while there, one of the guys' name was Caleb. Caleb was worried about the probation period for the railroad because he has to go to Hollywood for 4 days in December. My husband asked what for and Calen said because he was on Survivor!! He has to go to the finale! My husband and I watch the show every week. He said he knew Caleb looked familiar he just couldn't place where he saw him before. Caleb is Colton's boyfriend off of Blood vs Water haha! Crazy!!

My mil also wanted to do my hair as a surprise for my hubby for when he gets home. And also to help take my mind off of things but she didn't come right out and say it. They say some people cope with loss/ change by changing their hair, guess that applies to me. So here's a pic (there's no baby in my arms so I feel even more AWish). But I so appreciate the relationship I have with her. She's been a shoulder to cry on and an ear to listen. She also lost her mother to cancer so she's been with me every step of the way. I am so thankful for her.

You know what they say; Go big or go home.
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***Disclaimer: My hair does not always look like this. I went all out for my hubby. I will have to post a pic when it's greasy with yesterday's curls still in it. That's what I look like on the reg. lol

 Had our precious baby girl, Little Miss E, on August 14, 2013  143 → I.love.you.
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Re: Updates and an AW post

  • You're so beautiful.  I lost my mom 10 years ago, so I know how difficult it is.  Lots and lots of hugs to you:)

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  • You look fantastic! I'm glad you're seeing the positive and that you have a great support system. We're always here for you... Thinking about you!
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  • you are beautiful! 
    You are so strong. I can't imagine what you've been through with all of it, but I bet its been quite  whirlwind. I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and [in the pic anyway] you look as if you are handling things quite well. Hang in there, girly, and just keep remembering all of the wonderful time you spent with an amazing woman!
    So much love and hugs sent your way!
  • @Sascha3 I'm sorry for your loss, 10 years doesn't make it any easier. I know that now.

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  • sfeebs13 said:

    you are beautiful! 

    You are so strong. I can't imagine what you've been through with all of it, but I bet its been quite  whirlwind. I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and [in the pic anyway] you look as if you are handling things quite well. Hang in there, girly, and just keep remembering all of the wonderful time you spent with an amazing woman!
    So much love and hugs sent your way!
    It depends on the day. Today was good, I get to see my husband :) Thank you for the T & Ps! <3

    @V&amp;G thank you for the thoughts, I really do have amazing people surrounding me

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  • Oh, you gorgeous, gorgeous girl. I am so sorry for your loss. You're right that it doesn't get easier, but it does get... Well... Duller. And the way you're looking at it is exactly right - she's not suffering anymore.

    I have a cookie butter jar with your name on it, too. Thinking of you.
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  • You look sooo fab! I'm so sorry about your mom!stay strong, it will get easier!hugs x
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  • Definitely still sending prayers to you during this healing period. I'm so happy you will have your H to help and be there for you.

    You are one hot momma and that hair is amazing :)
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  • You look amazing! And so strong. Will continue to pray for you.
    The Mrs.
  • So sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what you're going through.

    I have to say, you look amazing having just had a baby and your hair looks fantastic! You're a gorgeous woman with a wonderful heart.
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  • You look amazing!  I love the hair!  I'm so happy that you will have your DH with you soon for some more support.
  • Thinking of you. So glad you have such a great relationship with your mil, especially during this rough time. Dh lost his dad a couple weeks before DS was born. Although you never stop missing your loved one, it gets slightly "easier" to deal with every day that passes, especially with a good support system. And just remember your lo has a guardian angel watching over them now. Hugs and many thoughts and prayers.
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  • Your hair...and just you in general look amazing. I'm so sorry for your loss and still sending healing thoughts and prayers your way.
    Your mom was an amazing woman. It shows through you even here on TB. I'm sure she is so proud of who you have become and will be watching over you.
    I lost my dad 22 years ago. Tdmklm is right in that it doesn't get easier...but it does get better. Keep your chin up and remember the good times.
  • At the time I posted of my mom's death I wasn't able to reply to all of your T&Ps but I want you to know I read every single one. I received many texts, cards, comments, from people and the love and support has been overwhelming. Thank you, you have no idea how much I appreciate the support.

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  • Love the hair.

    Sorry for your loss. I really never know what to say in these instances. Please know I'm praying for you and your family.
  • You look gorgeous!! I'm glad your having a good day and your mil has been such a great support. I'm still sending love and prayers your way.
  • 1. You look awesome! There's no way you just had a baby- you look great! Your hair is great, and that was sweet of her to do that for you. You're lucky to have such a great person to lean on.

    2. I am so so so sorry for what you've been through. You're a strong woman!

    Your baby hit the momma lottery ;)
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  • You look so pretty! I'm so sorry about your mom. Enjoy your time with your husband; let him take care of you!
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    You are my angel, my darling,
    my star...and my love will find you,
    wherever you are."
  • You look amazing!!! You mil seems like great support. My dad died from cancer 2 years ago after fighting for almost 1.5 years when they only gave 3 to 6 months. Today was his birthday he would have been 62. I was such a daddy's girl, when my husband was deployed he would drive 10 hours on a drop of a dime if I started getting lonely or if something fell apart in the house. The can't catch your breath crying stops eventually but I still tear up a couple times a week wishing he could be in LO life. It helps me to tell people some great stories about him. So if you ever want to post a random story I'd love to hear it.
  • Sending you some hugs girl. I can't imagine what you must be going through. You look great! Hope you get to enjoy some time with your hubby now.

    BTW, I'm usually mobile and just saw your siggy. Our girls have the same birthday. Yay! I'm sure yours is just as fabulous as my sweet Savannah.
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  • @lettyenglish I got teary eyed reading your reply :( I know the feeling. Life sucks sometimes but then it's incredibly beautiful. I think it'll hit me harder around the holidays. She loved them. One of her statuses was about writing out a list for Thanksgiving dinner, forgetting it, spending $150 at the store but it all being worth it to have her family fat and happy. God, I miss her.

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  • You look gorgeous. Sorry you are going through this.. Glad your being strong and keep your chin up
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  • Your hair looks fantastic. And im glad your hubby is home. And m.still.thinking of you and your loss
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  • I'm so sorry for your loss. Sounds like you have a great support system. I am glad you get to be with your husband too. Enjoy your time together. You look great
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  • You look beautiful! And I'm so, so sorry for your loss! I couldn't imagine what you've been going through and the road ahead, but it sounds like you have a great support system and a positive attitude. T&P for you!
  • I'm so sorry for your loss. You're an incredibly strong, beautiful woman. Take time to grieve and remember all the happy times you had with her.

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  • So sorry for all you have been through. It sounds like you have great support IRL and obviously here as well. I am wishing you many T & P's.
  • You are GORGEOUS!!  I lost my dad to cancer, so I have been where you are....it doesn't get any easier, but it does get better....
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  • I'm so sorry for the loss of your mom. I can't imagine how difficult it must be. On a high note, I love your hair! I wish mine would curl nicely like that. Sending you lots of t&p's.
  • You look amazing! So sorry for your loss and hope you can stay positive through the holidays for her.
  • You are such a strong woman @BabyE143! I know your mom is so proud of you. Heck, I don't even know you but I'm proud of you too with how you're handling this difficult situation. I'm glad your hubby is on his way home! I hope you two enjoy your time together.

    And I think that's very cool about Caleb! I've been watching Survivor too :)
  • You are so pretty! (I mean that in a non creepy internet stranger way)

    I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how tough it is to lose a parent at a young age. You sound like a strong woman. Thoughts and prayers to you and your loved ones during this time. 

     
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