Faith Friday

schulme2 · November 2013

It's another week!

What has helped you to start making steps in the right direction? Is it a certain prayer? A song? A quote?

What question or thought are you still struggling with?

Do you feel stronger or more broken in your faith now?

diamante1181 · November 2013

schulme2 said:

It's another week! What has helped you to start making steps in the right direction? Only that dh and I are a little better, less hysterical every day. Is it a certain prayer? A song? A quote? A quote that I read on a sympathy card I received, said "Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars". It just reminds me that even though I feel broken, I am stronger for what has happened. What question or thought are you still struggling with? The why. Why we are left empty, while others can be fearless and enjoy their lives, have their babies, etc. Do you feel stronger or more broken in your faith now? A loaded question, because at times I feel that God has to be hearing me and listening. Other times I feel betrayed by Him. Overall, I have not lost the faith, but I am struggling with it.

bunnybun4 · November 2013

***warning: rainbow pregnancy mentioned***

I found out on Wednesday that I am yet again in limbo for my newest pregnancy. (this is my third pregnancy...I have no living children). I was supposed to be a little shy of 6 weeks and there was nothing on the US besides a black spot which may be the beginnings of a sac. My betas look good and have been rising appropriately so my OB said that I am just not as far along as I thought...she is suggesting I am as much as 2 weeks behind. I got a positive HPT at what I thought was 4 weeks 2 days...I can fathom being maybe a week behind but not 2 weeks...and limbo has never ended well for us so it is just so hard to stay positive. I have a FU on Wednesday.

last night DH and I were talking and we were just saying how we didn't even know how to pray about this...we don't even know how to talk to God about this right now. We have pleaded for 2 different babies and tragically lost both of them (obviously the way we lost my daughter was just plain horrific on top of that). I go in and out of understanding God and trusting God and before now I was in a really good place...but now being in limbo I am just kind of back to the place of just not understanding how to pray or trust in this circumstance. The words "God with us" keep running through my head and i just have to keep reminding myself that He cares for me and wants good things for me...it is just so hard when you keep getting bad news.

sorry for the novel...just feeling really lost right now.

schulme2 · November 2013

@marylaurena: I am so sorry you're in limbo again! I pray that this will be a healthy baby for you. One thing that I don't know how but I think it really helped...

I felt like I was always praying and just really not getting through. We talked about the radio station "K Love" in a previous post and I have listened to them for over a year. Last week they were really encouraging people to submit their prayer requests to their ministry team. So, I did so! I went on their website and asked them to pray for my peace and acceptance of everything that happened. I don't know, but they must have way more pull than me. After that, I just have a sense of peace. I was in such a desolate place and couldn't stop crying but I feel... Ok. I'm still sad but there is a peace and feeling that it will be alright. Even if you don't know how or what to pray for, I think you should definitely submit a prayer request to them.

ajsweeton · November 2013

***Siggy Warning***

What has helped you to start making steps in the right direction? Is it a certain prayer? A song? A quote? I mentioned in a previous post that Laura Story's Blessings has been a huge help to me. There's this quote on Pinterest that I reall like too it says "God did not promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, nor sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears and light for the way."

What question or thought are you still struggling with? Sometimes the hardest thing for me to remember is that God is there with me through the bad days and the good. That he tried to prepare me for what happened by urging me to develop a closer relationship with him and people who have been through the same things. I see God's hand in that and it gives me comfort that even though he didn't prevent the loss of Elliott and Ryland that he gave me the means to get through it.

Do you feel stronger or more broken in your faith now? Some days I feel stronger and some days I feel so lost. I think that its part of the grief process. I've talked to my pastor about it and he just urges me to continue to pray and ask God to help me through. I've had to miss church for the last few weeks due to various things, and I know that that contributes to the lost feeling. I'm going to work harder to get myself to church regardless of excuses because I know that I need to be there.

irons633 · November 2013

***sorry responded from IPad***** What has helped you to start making steps in the right direction? Is it a certain prayer? A song? A quote? I have recently made an appointment to speak with a therapist for this loss has me feeling a large load of guilt even though I know it is not my fault that I lost my precious Olivia and her brother last year. But it's hard to understand that when my babies were perfect and it's my body that betrayed them. I have also received the information to go to a support group to help me get thru this grief. One of the quotes that has been helping is, " Don't loose hope when your down to something, because God is up to something." That has truly helped me because I do know that even though I have my dark days I do know that God is working on me to use these losses as a way for me to be there for others who unfortunately have endured this. I do believe it's my testimony for others. " You are MORE than your circumstances. Don't allow them to rule your emotions! God has this! " What question or thought are you still struggling with? The biggest question I have is why did my body fail me again and why does is have to be my life. Why do I have to endure this? Or why does all these women I have connected with have to endure this type of pain? How and will I ever be a mother to living babies and not just a mother to two angel babies? I am trying to be optimistic and know that answers will be made and we will have our miracle but it's hard to keep that optimism when I'm hurting this much. Do you feel stronger or more broken in your faith now? I do feel stronger in my faith only because without it I do not think I would be where I am two weeks after loosing my daughter. I know that I have to keep steadfast in my faith and keep looking towards a brighter day.

irons633 · November 2013

My thoughts and prayers to all of you ladies!! I do pray each day for not just myself but for all of us that our days do get better and that we each get our babies in the future. You ladies have truly helped me not just thru this loss but my previous loss and I know that each of your words of comfort have really helped me. ((Hugs))

stefuge · November 2013

***LO ticker*** What has helped you to start making steps in the right direction? Is it a certain prayer? A song? A quote? Probably a combination of grief counseling, blogging, and prayer. Psalm 139:13-16 is my constant encouragement. What question or thought are you still struggling with? Feeling content. We were content with our little family of 3 and then we got pregnant and I don't understand why since we ended up losing him and now I feel like something, someone, is missing. Do you feel stronger or more broken in your faith now? Definitely stronger. I know Colton's pregnancy was Gods plan, and I trust Him, it's just hard.