Yes, for real. My heart has not stopped racing and I feel so sick to my stomach. I now believe what has been said: "it can happen to anyone."
For me, it was a change in routine.
Lucy had a playdate with a friend today. I needed to cut the date short to shop and prepare dinner for Tyler's grandparents, who just out of the hospital yesterday. My friend offered to keep Lucy while I shopped and cooked. Wyatt was happily asleep in his car seat. I hopped out at the store, grabbed a hand cart without even a single thought of needing a full-sized cart for his seat. I put a rotisserie chicken in the basket, walked over to the onions, and then felt like I'd been struck by lightning. I screamed "oh my gosh!!!", dropped my basket, and ran out the door. Thankfully, Wyatt was still napping and none the wiser.
I ALWAYS have both kids with me while shopping. Just not having Lucy was enough of a change to make me forget this enormous responsibility resting peacefully in the back seat.
I have never been so ashamed in all my life. I'm horrified at what could have been. It was rainy and overcast today. But this is Texas. Weather can change in an instant. The what-ifs are haunting me. Please, if you don't already have a system in place to remind you, get one. I will never be so confident as to think it can't happen to me.
I suck at motherhood today.
Re: I left him in the car.
Don't beat yourself up. It was just a moment, he's fine, and I'm sure at no point in your life will you forget again.
When my son was in preschool, I was so preoccupied with work one day that I left the office, drove right past his school, and was in my garage before I realized that I forgot *something*. I left him at school. I cried the whole way there and it wasn't a big deal to them (or to him) because I made it before the pickup cutoff, but I was so upset about the whole ordeal. He had no idea that I had forgotten him.
Today, I can just look back and laugh. I hope one day you will too.
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