Hi All,
First a little intro-I'm 30, I live in NC, DH is in the military, we have 2.5 year old boy/girl twins. I used to be a nestie/bumpie regular (military nesties/multiples, etc), but I haven't been on much in the last couple years.
I posted here a looong time ago in Jan 2009 when I lost my first pregnancy to a ruptured ectopic. IVF 1 brought us our twins and last month we began FET 1. It worked and despite low/wonky beta's we saw a heartbeat and a perfect little one at 6 weeks. Sadly 2 days later, while taking our littles trunk or treating, I felt a big gush and passed our sweet baby not long after. Its been two days and physically I'm doing ok, but emotionally I'm all over the place. One minute I'm a mess and the next I feel ok. I have been through this before, but it never gets any easier. I have an appointment tomorrow to follow up with a u/s and bloodwork to make sure things are going down.
I hope its ok that I post here.
Re: New here :(
Thank you, I appreciate it I've been lurking and this seems like a very supportive and loving place.
TTC #3
M/C 10.26.13 @ 6w2d
The emotional healing process can be a difficult journey but I believe we will grow out of this process stronger than before. (That's what I tell myself to help get through.) The women here are great listeners and supporters, as we've all had similar losses. I wish you all the best and big hugs!
BFP #1: EDD 05/27/2014 (D&C 10/17/2014)
BFP#2: 10/4/14 EDD: 6/7/15 DD born 6/4/15💕
BFP#3: 12/24/19 EDD: 9/6/20
TTC #3
M/C 10.26.13 @ 6w2d
Thank you ladies.
Appointment went well. Confirmed that I have an empty ute and my betas are dropping (in the 700's today). The worst part about the appointment was sitting in the waiting room with a bunch of happy pregnant women. I'm thrilled for them, truly I am, but it made for a tough morning. I know I'll be there again soon, but its sucks being on this side of things right now.
TTC #3
M/C 10.26.13 @ 6w2d
Oh I'm so sorry you had to go through that, its the worst I have two two and a half year olds, so people automatically assume I'm taking this in stride. I think that having children helps take my mind off of the loss sometimes, but I wanted and loved this baby, too. Sometimes I feel incredibly selfish for hurting so much, but at the same time, I'm allowed to grieve for my lost little, too. I just hate feeling like this and while I'm not rushing the grieving process, I can't wait to feel better, if that makes sense.
Having been through a loss prior to the twins, I was def more aware when I was pregnant.
TTC #3
M/C 10.26.13 @ 6w2d
TTC #3
M/C 10.26.13 @ 6w2d