Finally stimming

ArgyleBride · October 2013

I finally starting the injectables last night. I am really "in cycle" now. Estimated retrieval November 1st. I don't even know how to feel! I'm so excited that I might be, well, not cooking a baby, but doing the kitchen prep, shall we say. And for people I will never meet!

The IM called the clinic yesterday, and asked the clinic coordinator to tell me that she was thinking about me, and they hoped everything went well for me. It was very kind, but I was so caught off-guard that all I could think of to say was along the lines of, "Oh, that's nice." Which it is, of course, but I felt like such a doink. I did say to tell them they can count on me. But the coordinator was a little disappointed, she said she rarely got requests like that and it was obvious that she hoped I'd just start gushing. But the truth is, the last week I have been working morning to night (the class I am TAing *and* the class I'm taking both had midterms on the same day) and haven't been thinking about it much at all, except to make sure I met all my appointments (and, you know, took the right drugs.) I do have a board book I hope to give them, "Corduroy."

I have also gotten off to an awesome start by accidentally ruining one dose of each medicine, because the central heating malfunctioned during the night and heated everything to 85-95 degrees, which I did not realize until it woke me at 4am. The two ruined doses weren't in the fridge. I am really doing a fine job of this donor thing already, eh? Emotionally stunted phone call, check, ruined medicine, check. And let's not even get into the call to the nurse where she answered the phone while I was telling my husband to, oh what was it? Stick his ass over the sidewalk instead of into traffic, ah yes, that was it. Yes, I am a real winner. Sigh.

ANYWAY--at least I administered the meds correctly! I just did it for the second time. My poor DH was hovering over me, so nervous. We had a long conversation about how fear of needles is evolutionarily appropriate, haha. To those who have stimmed before, is it normal to not feel any different at all at this point? (Because I don't).

Well, thank you for reading my novel. So much has been going on, and is going on, that it's just so exciting and overwhelming. I hope, hope, hope they get a baby from this.

2MamazInSeattle · October 2013

Congrats and don't worry about all those details - you are going to do great for your IPs! I think they are super lucky to have you. Not sure this is your style, but I got a *lovely* note from my donor after our cycle - I have had it on our mantel for the near-year since our cycle, though the holidays, and decorative changes, her note stays. It is a pretty card that says "believe" on the front and she wrote about how lovely *we* are for having believed in her and her ability to help us. I have felt so connected to her since - and if our last FET doesn't work, I have her last batch of frozen eggs in the frozen egg bank reserved, even though we could shop for an all new donor - I just like her. I know your busy and she did it after I found out I was pregnant.

In any case - don't worry - this isn't a performance, it's a gift you are giving. The details are irrelevant - your intentions and effort count 100% and from where I'm sitting, you're giving 150%!!!

And - though I never was able to do my own cycle with my own eggs - most people who do IVF don't feel much until closer to retrieval. Hang in there!!

ArgyleBride · October 2013

Thank you! Your words are always reassuring. I hope you are doing okay, I have been thinking of you a lot since your last cycle.

I will think about a note, and if I can write something appropriate that feels like it is coming from the heart, that will be a strong inducement. But if not--as you say, it is not a performance, and I will come through where it counts.

stinkerbell6879 · October 2013

As a donor recipient I can attest that we are just so greatful for what your going through! So dont worry about that stuff!!! good luck with the rest of the cycle! :-)

brooklynesque · October 2013

I agree that a note would be amazing, just wishing the IPs the best, etc. But I don't think the IPs will be *expecting* anything from you; you are giving them so much already!

Good luck as you continue to stim! It's normal not to feel much of anything until you're near trigger.

liz4paws · October 2013

I am so excited for you and your IP. Try not to stress about the meds, it's very overwhelming and I'm sure all of us can say we've made a mistake along the way. It will be fine! Keep us posted!!

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