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• beth9409 member

  October 2013

  I am so sorry for your loss. There are no words that can describe this.

  TTC#1 since 5/2011
  DX: Hypothyroidism, PCOS, Myasthenia Gravis, Aplastic Anemia, one copy MTHFR DH SA: count 52% motility (slow progressive), 0% normal morph
  June-July 2012: Clomid cycles=BFNs
  August 2012: New RE, started Metformin, Letrozole 7.5mg+TI=BFN Sept. 2012: IUI#1: Letrozole 7.5mg=BFN
  Oct. 2012: IUI#2 Letrozole 7.5mg+Dexamethasone=BFN
  Nov '12-March '13 on a break
  April 2013: IUI#3 Letrozole 7.5mg+Dexamethasone=BFN
  June 2013: IVF#1  Follistim/Menopur/Ganirelix =BFN, 3 Frosties
  August 2013: FET#1=BFP 8/20/13,  EDD 4/30/13, MMC 10/1/13
  December 2013: IVF#2 Follistim/Menopur/Ganirelix=?
   ~PAIF/SAIF Welcome~

  

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• princessisadora member

  October 2013

  I'm so sorry to hear this. (Hugs)

  *Losses mentioned*

  Me: 34 DH:32

  TTC #1 since Dec 2011

  HSG = tubes clear, bicornuate or septate ute; MRI= severe arcuate uterus no septum seen 

  SA #1 low count, low morph;  SA#2 4% Morph, count OK  SA#3 july 2014= NORMAL!!!

  9/2013  IUI#1 w/Clomid 100mg = over response; cycle converted to cryoocyte IVF

  IVF #1: 9/15 ER= 9 mature eggs, all eggs made it thru vitrification

  10/23 ICSI 6 fertilized; 10/28 5dt of two morulas. Hold on to me babies, stick, stick, stick!!

  11/6 BFP EDD 7/14/14 Beta #1= 18; 11/9 Beta #2= 44.8; 11/12 Beta #3= 7 = Early loss @4w6d. No frosties

  Feb 2014 Hysterscopy = no septum seen ute all clear in the inside

   IUI #1.1 4/2/14 Beta on 4/16 BFN

  Thinking about IUI #2  RE advised to try 3?????

  Natural cycle surprise BFP 8/3/14 EDD 4/11/15  beta#1(8/5/14)=35 Beta#2(8/8/14)=22  CP/Early loss@5w

  PAIF/SAIF Welcome

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• Viasatalyte member

  October 2013

  So sorry. (Hugs).

  Three ectopic preganacies in left tube in 1999, 2003 and 2004. HSG in 2010 concluded left tube blockage. IUI with femara in 2012 BFN. IVF #1 June 2013, 20 retreived, 14 mature, 12 fertilized via ICSI, one transferred, four frozen, BFN.  FET in September 2013 - BFN:( FET #2 April 2014 - BFP!!!!
  

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• ball.and.chain member

  October 2013

  I am so, so, so sorry.  I can only imagine how you are feeling right now.
  

  Married my wife 8/2007 ~ TTC #1 since 7/2011
  9 IUIs = 9 BFNs
  IVF October 2012: 22 eggs retrieved, 17 fertilized, 5 frozen
  ET #1: 1 blast = BFP; Blighted ovum discovered at 7w5d; D&E
  FET #1: 1 blast = BFP; Missed m/c discovered at 9w5d; D&E
  Karyotyping: normal ~ RPL Testing: normal ~ Hysteroscopy: normal
  FET #2: 1 blast transferred 10/25; BFP 10/31!
  EDD 7/13/14 ~ Induced at 37w4d due to pre-eclampsia ~ Born on 6/28/14
  *Everyone welcome*
  
  

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• missusw218 member

  October 2013

  Oh no I'm sorry that you and DH are going through this. Hang in there and take it easy!

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• LooneyLife member

  October 2013

  I am so sorry.

  
  
  
  
  dx:  Unexplained IF
   TTC since May 2011, 1 year trying, and then 3 TI, 2 IUI = BFN
  IVF #1 (May 2013):  Antagonist Protocol: 
  24R, 18M, 15F w/ICSI; 5dt of 2 early blasts, no frosties = BFN
  IVF #2 (August 2013):  Lupron Stop Protocol: 
  28R, 23M, 15F w/ICSI; 5dt of 1 partially hatched blast, 7 frosties = BFP
  EDD 5/23/14, blighted ovum (6w6d), D&C (8w6d)
  FET #1 (April 2014):  transferred 2 5d blasts = BFP
  C.J. born 01/09/15

  
  

  
  

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• kjf114 member

  October 2013

  I am so beyond sorry

         
  
  Me: 28, DH: 30 TTC since March 2012
  PCO & MTHFR Homozygous/Severe MFI (undescended teste & double hernia as baby)

  12/12: 50mg clomid= bfn
  1/13: 100mg clomid= bfn
  2/13: 100mg clomid= bfn 
  6/13: IVF/ICSI (x1 4AA)=BFFN ~49R, 44M, 33F, 14 frosties  OHSS
  8/13: FET #1 (x1 4AA)=First EVER BFP 4dp5dt!! d&c @ 6.5 wks, blighted ovum
  10/13: FET #2 (x2 4AA)= BFP 4dp5dt! Twins!!, perfect u/s then spontaneous m/c @ 5 wks
  11/13= RPL/Karotyping= MTHFR Homozygous c667t
  1/14= FET #3 our 2 year anniversary & hopefully our miracle

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• RunCC37 member

  October 2013

  No!! No no no!!!! Toriables, I hate seeing this... I'm so deeply sorry

  **SIGGY WARNING**

  
  

  Me: 32 DH: 35  TTC#1 since March 2012
  

  Dx: Poor Embryo Quality, Arcuate Uterus, Poor Uterine Blood Flow, Mild Endo, 

         Protein S Deficiency, Sjorgen's Syndrome 

  
  

  IUI #1-5: BFN

  Laparoscopy & Hysteroscopy: minimal endo, partial septoplasty

  IVF #1: 10R/6M/6F ~ Day 3 ET = BFN

  IVF #2: 14R/9M/5F ~ transfer canceled ~ all embryos arrested at 1-2 cell stage

  IVF #3: 9R/5M/5F ~ 1 frosty!

  IVF #4 (FET #1): BFN

  
  

  IVF #5 (DE IVF #1 with Dr. KK protocol): Currently PREGNANT!!!!!!

  Synthroid + Prednisone + Metformin + Baby Aspirin + Supplements Galore = 15+ pills a day

  Lupron + Lovenox + Delestrogen + IVIG + B/W = 2-5 pokes a day

  19R, 17M, 17F - transferred two Grade A blasts 11/16, four frosties!!!

  Beta #1 11/24 (13dpo/8dp5dt) = 367 ~ Beta #2 11/26 (15dpo/10dp5dt) = 709

  Beta #3 11/29 (18dpo/13dp5dt) = 1,997 ~ Beta #4 12/1 (20dpo/15dp5dt) = 3,403

  
  

  
  

  
  

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• poohniki member

  October 2013

  I am so sorry

  ***WARNING***

  TTC Since 12/2008;  DH: 32, Azoospermia     me: 33, DX during IVF #4: Low AMH (Normal FSH) / SER due 
  to IVF Meds (causing failure to fertilize) Recent DX: Hashimoto's, Lupus Anticoagulant, White Blood Cell Disorder 
  High ANA, ATA, & APA, PAI-1 Heterozygous= blood clotting disorder; connective tissue disorder 
  IVF w/ ICSI #1 2/2011     IVF w/ ICSI #2 5/2011    IVF w/ ICSI #3 12/2012   *New RE* IVF w/ ICSI #4  5/2013
  IVF w/ ICSI #5 8/2013 (Natural Cycle- No drugs)- One follicle->one blast. CCS normal. FET 9/10- 6BB blast. m/c @ 5w
  IUI #1 12/23- BFN  IUI #2 Cancelled (ovulated during AF)  Prep:CoQ10 (300 mg); DHEA (25 mg); Melatonin (3 mg), Folgard 2.2, Metformin 500 2x, Levothyroxine 50mcg, Aspirin 81mg w/ calcium, B12,  Vit. D 4000 & Prenate Elite Daily; Cabergoline 1/2 pill 2x week-  Cycling: Estrace Priming; Prednisone 10mg, Lovenox 40mg 2x,  Femera & Menopur   
  IUI #2.1 6/30 & 7/1. 1st Beta: 90 (7/15); 2nd Beta: 226 (7/17); 3rd Beta: 766   EDD: 3/23/2015

     **ALL WELCOME**                                    My Blog 

  
  

  
  

  
  

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• cinnamonrollcupcake member

  October 2013

  I am so sorry. Take care of yourself.
  

  Baby girl born 6/2/14

  2nd baby due 5/15/16

  
  
  

  
  

  
  
  

  

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• CameraBug131 member

  October 2013

  I'm sorry you're going through this. 

  ***Siggy****
  

  

  Me: 32 - PCOS, Hypothyroid 
  

  Hubs: 31 - low everything

  
  

  TTC since Jan 2013

  May 2013 - HSG, all clear

  Aug 2013 - Hubs varicocele procedure, both sides 

  
  

  Dec 2013 IVF #1: 24 retrieved, 20 fertilized, 7 made it to D5; OHSS

  1.27.14: FET; 2 D5

  Betas: 2.6.14 - 689; 2.8.14 - 2400; 2.15.14 - 37,7000

  Ultrasound: 2.15.14 - Twins! 

  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

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• Grateful&Thankful member

  October 2013

  I'm so sorry that his is happening to you. I am curious though why your doctor wants to stop all meds before your 3rd blood test? Maybe you can ask to stay on them until you get your 3rd beta back?

  Me & DH (33), 3 Furbabies, TTC since October 2011
  Day 3 #’s (Dec 2012) FSH 9, AMH .77, LH 2.4, E2 31, AFC 9 

  DX: Me-DOR + No Tubes, DH-Fine

  Ectopic 2007; lost tube/2nd tube removed Dec 2011 (hydro)

  April 2012=IVF#1- EPP Antag+ICSI, 2R,0F (BFN), Now dx’d with DOR.

  June-July 2012=IVF#2- MDL+ICSI&AH, 8R,4M,3F (BFP 9dp3dt) Beta#1 at 11dp3dt=36, Beta#2 at 15dp3dt=156, Beta#3 at 19dp3dt=671, dx'd with SCH, no growth-m/c at 7wks/Lap Dec 2012 to remove small fibroid.

  Feb 2013=IVF#3-MDL, 2/1=baseline, started 10 units mdl, AFC-7, 2/3 start gonal f, self cxld cycle b/c of low e2.

  April 2013=IVF#3.5-(with new RE)AG/ANT Conv + ICSI. 4/10-4/23 bcp's, 4/20-4/27 lupron, 4/28-ganirelix until end of stimming, 5/2-600 gonal f, 5/4-add 1/2 vial menopur, 5/13-ER (9R,1M,1F), 5/17-ET, 1 beautiful 8 cell (please be my sticky baby!!!!) 5/28-BFFN.

  Oct 2013=IVF#4-LLP+ICSI &AH, 10/14 (6R, 2M, 2F), 10/17-ET, 1 seven cell & a six cell, BFP at 9dp3dt, 1st beta=56, 2nd beta=52, CP.

  Jan 2014=IVF #5-LLP, Cxld after 6 days of stims due to fast response and lead follicle. 

  March 2014=IVF 5.5-LLP, Lupron 3/10, BL 3/18, 11 days of stims, Trigger 3/29, ER 3/31. 7R, 2M, 2F. ET 4/3. Txfd one 5 cell & one 9 cell. BFP on hpt from 7dp3dt & on. Praise be to God. Beta #1 at 11dp3dt=106, #2 at 13dp3dt=239. First u/s 4/28, measuring on track & heartbeat seen. 5/5-2nd u/s, measuring on track with strong heartbeat. 5/12- 3rd u/s & released from RE. Grow baby grow, we love you! Baby G&T is a BOY! Born 12/2014 via c/s! 8lbs, 8oz & 21 inches.

  
  

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• shelbeans82 member

  October 2013

  I'm so sorry ((hugs))

                     
  

  
  

                    

                   

    
  
  

  TTC #1 since November 2011
  Dx: Unexplained Infertility, probable endometriosis
  Feb-April 2013: Femara + TI: BFN
  May - September 2013:  Follistim + Ovidrel + IUI#1-4 = BFN
  IVF # 1 November 2013: transferred 1 perfect blast = BFN
  IVF # 2 April 2014: Endo scrape, transferred 2 blasts = BFP!! (first ever!), CP
  FET #1 June 2014: transferred 2 blasts = BFFN
  New Dx: Repeat Implantation Failure
   IVF # 3 November 2014 = BFP!!  Beta #1 9dp5t 272  Beta # 2 11dp5dt 626
  It's Twins! 
  *everyone welcome*
  

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• LilSip0611 member

  October 2013

  I am so so sorry.

  ***SIGGY/TICKER WARNING***

  

  TTC since September 2012 ~ DH(32): Non-obstructive azoospermia, Me(32): Normal

  10/13 - TESE found sperm!! ~ 11/13 - IVF w/ ICSI #1 ~ ER 11/23/13 ~ 10 R, 9 M, 8 F

  ET 11/29/13 ~ Transferred 2 beautiful hatching blasts, 5 frosties

  12/5/13 -  BFP!!! Beta #1 (12/7/13) - 189  Beta #2 (12/9/13) - 401 Beta #3 5871

  12/16/13 U/S #1 - TWINS!! EDD - August 16, 2014 ~ 7/19/14 - Our beautiful baby girls joined the world!

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• kz's_girlygirl member

  October 2013

  I am so so sorry   IF is so unfair!!!!  Just when things seem to be going right...IF steals it back.  Lots of support coming your way- you aren't alone. 
  

  
  
  
  TTC since 2008
  Dh:34, no issues.  Me:31, Endo, slightly hypothyroid, deformed ovary, paracentric inversion.
  4 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone +TI cycles= all BFN
  Lap in 2012 to remove large unresolving cyst discovered endo and double lobed ovary.
   6 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone IUI cycles= All BFN,
  1st IVF w/ICSI- June '13 Antagonist: Gonal-F, Menopur, Ganirelix, HcG, Estradiol, Crinone= 7 retrieved, 4 mature, 1 unfertilized, 2 abnormally fertilized, 1 normally fertilized.  2DT of only embryo and our miracle BFP.
  Our beloved baby boy was born sleeping Oct. 13, 2013 due to pROM/IC/Uterine infection.
  2nd IVF w/ICSI- Feb. '14 EPP/lupron/antagonist: Estrace, lupron, HGH, Gonal-F, Menopur, HcG, PIO, lovenox, doxy/dex.=21 retrieved, 16 mature, 15 fertilized!!  5dt of 1 blast/ 6 frozen. BFP!  Beta 1 9dp5dt:83.9  Beta 2: 11dp5dt: 145.2  Beta 3  14dp5dt: 497  Please be our sticky rainbow baby!
  
  
  

  
  

  
  
  

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• intheplanningstage member

  October 2013

  Im so sorry. I was in your shoes this summer. Believe it or not, the pain will ease with time. I know what u mean about dh crying. Be each others rock and lean on each other

  Our Novel of TTC:

  
  

  *Male Factor (low count and low motility), High Prolactin, and Polycystic Ovaries (March 2013)

  *Recurrent Miscarriage testing also revealed high anti-phospholipids & single MTHFR mutation. (Feb 2014) 

  
  *IVF (07/2013): BFP-Natural Miscarriage @ 5 weeks* Madison Riley
  *FET #1 (10/2013): BFN
  *FET #2 (12/2013)- BFP-Missed Miscarriage at 8 weeks Kyle Andrew
  *Chromosomes and Karotyping tests were both normal.We lost a healthy baby boy
  *FET #3 (04/2014) was cancelled after finding Chronic Endometritis

  *Miraculous BFP July 2014!! (I was taking baby aspirin and Cabergoline to stay regulated while "taking a break from TTC" and waiting to consult with a reproductive immunologist!!!) 

  
  

  Our healthy baby girl was born 03/10/15 thanks to daily Lovenox injections and baby aspirin. There are no words for how grateful I am for our rainbow baby.

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• katekat8721 member

  October 2013

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  I am so, so sorry love. My heart breaks for you ((((hugs))))
  

  
  

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• AJC&Maggie member

  October 2013

  Oh what devastation! We all know your heartache and pain. So sorry! We are all here to help and support you!

  Me:35,  DH: 39   

  TTC since March 2011. All bloodword, SA & HSG are normal.  

  8/12: Clomid & TI - BFN 

  10/12: Colmid & TI - BFN 

  3/13:  Clomid, Trigger & IUI - BFN 

  4/13: Gonal F, Trigger & IUI: BFN  

  6/13: IVF #1 (1AA blast & 1BB blast) = BFN 

  8/13: FET #1= BFN

  10/13: FET #2= BFP!!!

  
  

    

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• Twinkie0612 member

  October 2013 edited October 2013

  I am so sorry.

  

   

  

  TTC #1 since August 2011

  My Blog

  September 2012: Start IF testing

  DH (32): SA is ok, slightly low morph, normal SCSA  Me (32): Slightly low progesterone, hostile CM, carrier for CF, Moderately high NKC, High TNFa, heterozyogous mutated Factor XIII, and +APA

  October 2012-May 2014: 4 failed IUIs, 3 failed IVFs, and 1 failed FETw/donor embryos

  November 2014: IVF w/ICSI #4 Agonist/Antagonist with EPP and Prednisone, Baby Aspirin, Lovenox, and IVIG for immune issues.  Converted to freeze all due to lining issues.  2 blasts frozen on day 6!

  January 2015: FET #2 Cancelled due to lining issues

  April 2015: FET #2.1

  
  PAIF/SAIF Welcome!

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• RG0405 member

  October 2013

  My heart aches for you. It's not fair! Sending you hugs..

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• jbasore1123 member

  October 2013

  I'm so sorry for your loss.
  

  TTC since April 2012

  BFP #1, 10/03/2012 - EDD 6/15/2013 - MMC 11/15/2012 - D&C 01/04/2013

  BFP #2, 04/06/2013 - EDD 12/17/2013 - MC 04/19/2013

  6/12/2013 Diagnosed with Balanced Translocation (12 & 16)
  

  IVF #1 with PGS: 10/2013: Canceled 9/27/2013 for issues with genetic lab
  

  IVF #1.5 with PGS: 11/16/2013: Canceled. 11 eggs retrieved, 9 mature & 9 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos

  IVF #2: 1/22/14: Canceled. 16 eggs retrieved, 14 mature, 7 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos

  IVF #3 with PGS: 5/10/2014: Switched to FET in July. 10 eggs retrieved, 9 mature, 8 fertilized, 2 healthy embryos!

  FET #1: 7/31/2014: Transferred 2 nearly perfect (6AA, 6BA) healthy embryos- BFFN

  Laproscopy: 10/2014: Healthy uterus

  IVF #4: 12/8/2014: Canceled. 17 eggs retrieved, 15 mature, 10 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos
  

  
  

  
  

  

  
  

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• PrivateOne member

  October 2013

  I am so sorry. There is nothing I can say to make it better, but know we all hear for you and support you in this difficult time.
  

  **** siggy warning - bfp & loss ****   ---- All Welcome ---
  
  Me: 44 - Hashimoto's (under control), DH: 38 - (minor issues)
  
  IUIs: 2 in 2012 ... Both BFN
  IVF #1: 10/16/13 ... BFP, however it was not viable and ended in an early loss at 7weeks.
  IVF #2: Feb '14 ... Cancelled. Positive beta at baseline appt, became very early loss.
  IVF #2: Apr '14 ... Retrieval Only. 2 embryos made it to day 3 freeze & will be batched with IVF #3 for PGD testing.
  IVF #3: June '14 ... Retrieval Only. 4 embryos growing, all arrested before day 5. Two from April thawed, but also arrested.
  Currently benched while determining how to proceed.
  
  "Keep going until you can't fail"

   

   
  

    
  

  
  

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• sweetgoose member

  October 2013

  I'm so sorry

  
  TTC #1 since 8/2011
  Dx: Endometriosis(2000) & Uterine Fibroids

  Sept 2012-March 2013: TTA for surgery & recovery; surgery removed: neuroendocrine tumor & 30% of pancreas, 

  endo on diaphragm & in abdomen, & uterine septum

  April 2013: 5mg Femera - IUI cancelled

  May 2013: Cycle cancelled; CD3 estradiol levels too high

  June 2013: Cycle cancelled; umbilical hernia found; surgery to repair

  July 2013: IUI #1.2 - 5mg Femera + trigger = BFN

  Aug 2013: IUI #2 - 5mg Femera + trigger = BFN

  Nov 2013: surgery to remove 8cm fibroid from uterus & clean up endo

  March 2014: IVF #1 - Gonal F & Menopur; retrieved 12 eggs; 6 fertilized; 0 made it to blast

  moving on to DE

  July 2014: FET #1 w/ DE; cancelled due to clots in uterus; hysteroscopy to remove fibroid.

  Hopefully beginning FET #1.2 in late August/early Sept.

  
  

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• krdesi member

  October 2013

  So sorry.

  
  

  **Siggy/Ticker Warning**   

           
                TTC #1 since May 2012

                May 2013: First R.E. appointment

                DH: SA is good

                 May 2013: CD3 Blood work-normal
             June 2013: Hsg-Right tube blocked

                 July 26, 2013: Starting Follistim for IVF #1

                August 2013: IVF #1 Cancelled- Abnormal embryos

           October/November 2013: IVF #2 w/ICSI

                      November 8, 2013: Transferred two early blasts (no frosties) 

  November 18, 2013: First EVER BFP! 

  Beta#1: 91  Beta#2: 288

  1st U/S- 5w2d Saw yolk sac!

  3rd U/S- 7w4d HB of 157bpm!

  TEAM BLUE!

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• cachoque member

  October 2013

  I'm so sorry for your loss. ((hugs))

  
  

  TTC #1 since August 2011 w/ unexplained IF
  09/12-11/13: 3 TIs, 3 IUIs, ICSI/PGS IVF & 2 FETs
  08/14: Our little miracle has FINALLY arrived - 3 years after we started trying!
  

  

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• Sunny B member

  October 2013

  I'm so so sorry

  TTC since May 2012
  Me: 32 H: 31
  

  DX: MFI-Very Low Count, I have Hashimotos.

  IVF prep September 2013 cancelled due to Ovarian Cyst
  IVF #1 October 2013 Antagonistic Protocol with ICSI  ER 10/31/13 (18R 16M 11F- 6 blasts to freeze)
  ET delayed due to OHSS 
  FET scheduled for July 8. Delayed due to a crazy high TSH (it had been under control for YEARS!)
  FET #1 8/5/14 sET BFN 

  
  

  All welcome!

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• Margritli member

  October 2013

  I am so, so sorry. ::hugs::

  
  

  Me: 28, DH: 35
  

  DX: Severe MFI, AZFc Microdeletion

  TTC since August 2011

  IVF w/ ICSI 1: Dec. 2013 - BFN

  FET 1.2: Mar. 2014 - BFN

  FET 1.3: May 2014 - BFN

  FET 1.4: June 2014 - BFP

  Two little buns in the oven. 

  Bake until March 2015, little ones. 

  
  

  
  

  "Life will be clearer around me.

   Life will be more burdensome for me. 

  Life will be richer for me." 

  -Rudolf Steiner

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• Rixx0207 member

  October 2013

  Oh no.  I'm so sorry.  It's just not fair.
  

  TTC #1 since Feb. 2011/Me 30, DH 37

  Unexplained

  Nov. 2012-IUI #1-Femara 2.5 mg, Ovidrel=BFN

  Jan. 2013-IUI #2-Femara 2.5 mg, Ovidrel, 1 follie=BFN

  Feb. 2013-IUI #3-Clomid 50 mg on CD5 only, 2 follies=BFN

  IVF#1 (4/13)-19 retrieved, 18 mature, 16 fertilized w/ ICSI=lucky #7 frosties

  ET cancelled due to OHSS

  FET #1 June 2013/transferred 2=Chemical

  FET #2 August 2013/transferred 2=Chemical

  FET #3 October 2013=BFN

  IVF#2 (2/14)-17 retrieved, 14 mature, 11 fertilized w/ ICSI, 3 blasts, PGS= all 3 abnormal

  IVF#3 (5/14)-13 retrieved, 11 mature, 9 fertilized w/ ICSI, 2 blasts, PGS=both abnormal

  IVF#4 (8/14)-5-day transfer of 2 embies=BFP! (8/28/14) beta 99

  U/S #1 (6 wks, 2 days)=1 bean, U/S#2 (8 weeks, 2 days)=180 HB, U/S #3 (10 weeks)=measuring 10 wks, 2 days

   

  
  

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• dreamingofdimples member

  October 2013

  There are no words. I'm so sorry for your pain and loss.

  Me: 36 - stage 2/3 endometriosis, diminished ovarian reserve (DOR), poor responder
  Hubs: 37 - low morphology
  TTC since 2008
  
  Referred to local RE: 6/22/2010
  HSG + Saline sonogram: 8/13/2010
  IUI #1: BFN 09/2010
  IUI #2: BFN 10/2010
  IUI #3: + acupuncture: BFN 12/26/2010
  Laparoscopy: Diagnosed and cleaned out endometriosis 1/9/2012
  IVF#1 (ICSI): Long Lupron + acupuncture = Cancelled 1/11/2013
  Second opinion phone consult with CCRM: 5/13/2013
  ODWU at CCRM: 6/10/13
  IVF #2 (ICSI): Estrogen Priming Protocol - ER 9/28/2013 = 7 eggs retrieved, 4 fertilized (banked and frozen at one cell stage for PGD testing with embies next retrieval)
  IVF #3 (ICSI): Estrogen Priming Protocol - ER 1/10/14 = 8 eggs retrieved, 3 fertilized. My 4 from previous cycle were thawed at Day 1 to grow to Day 5 blastocyst phase with my 3 fresh embryos. Only 2 embryos made blastocyst and were biopsied for CCS testing. Both were abnormal. Nothing to transfer from either cycle. Told that I should move onto other options.Grieving loss of any biological children with my genes.
  
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• babydreams13 member

  October 2013

  So unfair. I am so sorry.  

  ***SIGGY WARNING***
  
  DX: Unexplained

  6 Failed IUIs (Clomid and Gonal F).  

  IVF #1 began August 2013- BC, 4 days of Estrace, stimmed with Gonal F and Menopur, Ganirelix, 9R 5M 5F, Medrol and Doxycycline, 5 day transfer of 2 early blastocysts- good quality, Progesterone, Estrace, and baby aspirin, BETA on 9/20 BFN,   IVF #2 began September 2013, stimming with Gonal F (higher dose) and Menopur, Ganirelix, 18R 14M 9F with ICSI, 5 day transfer of 2 BBs one was starting to hatch, 2 frosties: 1  BB and 1 AC, BETA on 10/21, BFN BETA was a 5- chemical 

  Getting some more testing and trying to figure out what the issue is before FET in December, started acupuncture on 11/10, RLP and some other BW nothing major to report except slightly high Prolactin. Prolactin was slightly high when I started with my RE and I already had an MRI which was Neg.  Endo biopsy=negative.  WTF is wrong with us???

  12/18/13 FET of 1 BB and 1 AC.  Hoping for a miracle.  Beta 12/26 Low BETA-8 2nd BETA 5- chemical

  After 3 failed transfers IDK where to go from here.  Still no real answers as to why this isn't working.  Getting a second opinion in February and looking into immune testing.  

  2/14- NEW RE- Immune testing showed a partial dq alpha match with DH- On prednisone and did intralipids prior to transfer.  3/14 Lupron, gonal f, menopur, HGH.  ER 15 mature all 15 fertilized!  5dt of an early blast grade 1 and an expanded blast grade 2.  BETA on 4/21.  1 grade 2 embryo frozen
  BETA #1 59 BETA #2 148 BETA #3 283 BETA #4 2,783! US at 6w2d shows 1 bean measuring right on track! HR 121.  US at 8w3d measuring on track HR 177. Released form my RE.  EDD 12/28
  

  
  

  
  

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• Jill Wheat member

  October 2013

  This is horrible news.  I am very sorry.  Is there any chance that it could have been twins & one stopped while the other is continuing.  Your first number was pretty high.  Praying for you.  We are all so brave, trying again after such heart wrenching losses.
  

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• SCSmith2011 member

  October 2013

  I'm so sorry.

   TTC since August 2011, Me = 40, DH = 38
  Unexplained IF. Tried Clomid for 3 cycles. All BFNs. BFP 1/6/13. Chemical pregnancy.

  Moving on to IVF#1. ER 11/26/13, 16 eggs retreived, 12 mature and all fertilized. 2 blasts transferred on 12/1. All other embies arrested so nothing left to freeze. Beta 12/10 = BFN. IVF #2 March 2014. BFP!!! TEAM BLUE!!!

    

  

  

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• Toriables member

  October 2013

  Thank you all for the love and support. DH and I are just cuddling and laying low today. Talked to RE today and we will try again in a few weeks. It ain't over til it's over.

  Me- 35 Dx endo; DH- 33 no probs.

  BFP#1 (totally a wonderful surprise)- 3/10/11. IUFD 6/25/11. 
  

  TTC since 8/2011.

  BFP#2- 11/1/11. EDD 7/6/12. Blighted ovum 12/1/11.

  
  

  New OBGYN 12/2012- CD3 labs, SA, HSG normal. 
  

  First RE appt 1/16/2013. Unexplained infertility. Lap planned. 
  

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  12/2012- Clomid 50mg + TI= BFN 

  1/2013- Clomid 50mg + TI= BFN.

  
  

   Lap 2/11/2013- Removed endo. 

  
  

  3/2013- Clomid + IUI= BFN

  4/2013- Clomid + IUI= BFN

  5/2013- Clomid + IUI= BFN

  
  

  June 2013- Time for a new RE!

  
  

  July 2013- We're in Shared Risk! Love my new RE!

  August 2013- IVF#1- 14 R, 11F, transferred 1 perfect blast, 5 day 5 frosties= BFN.

  Sept 2013- Let's get ready for FET October 7th ish!< transfer 2 embies 10/11/13.......BFP 10/18/13!!!!/div>

  
  

  PAIF/SAIF and everyone is welcome. If I can make even one person's journey less painful, I will consider my experience here successful. Thank you to all for sharing their stories, the intimate details of their lives, their knowledge, and their hearts. I hope this experience changes me, always for the better.

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• franj1104 member

  October 2013

  I'm so sorry

  Me = 28 diagnosed w/ PCOS on Aug 6 2013 / O neg. bloodtype / Rh-
  DH = 28 low morph/ low volume / A pos. bloodtype
  m/c at 4w2d on 12/1/12 mtx 12/13/12 (ectopic/Rh- supposed factors)
  m/c at 8w1d on 6/5/13 mtx 6/5/13 (ectopic/ no visable sac at 7 weeks)
  saline sono – 8/9/13 uterus all clear
  1 IVF cycle start date/started stims 10/2/13
                              ER 10/15 24R 19M 18F - we have 10 frosties  ET scheduled for 10/21                                       

  10/29 beta #1 -147   10/31 beta#2 - 388  1st U/S 11/7 - TWINS!!! beta #3 - 6672

   

   

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• Irishlove16 member

  October 2013

  I am sooooo sorry to hear this.  There are no words that can help you get through this difficult time unfortunately, just time.  Take all the time you need and we will be here to support you!  

  Married my best friend on 9.6.11 

  Me 31 DH 29 

  TTC since 12/2011 

  Me - all normal test results 

  DH - SA #1, #2 and #3 - 0% morphology 

  Straight to IVF w/ ICSI 

  April 3 - start date for BC 

  April 18 - tentative start date for injections 

  Tentative IVF dates: ER - 4/27 and ET - 5/3!! DELAYED.

  IVF #1 - May 6 - Estrace

  May 17 - started injections!

  ER and ET end of May!! BFFN

  FET #1 - June 28th - BFP!!!!
  

  Beta #1 - 164, Beta #2 - 381

  1st u/s 7/16/13 - 2 sacs with yolks! 1 smaller than the other - Possible Twins?! 

  2nd u/s 7/26/13 - 1 healthy baby with heartbeat of 123bpm! Second sac empty. Next u/s 8/5/13.

  8/5/13 (7w2d) - no heartbeat. Lost our precious LO :-/

  D&C on 8/12/13 - finally neg hcg 2 months later on 10/3/13.

  Saline Songram on 10/10/13 - found polyp :-( post-poned again.

  Hysteroscopy on 10/29/13.

  FET #2 - BFP!!!! :-) 

  Beta #1 - 265, Beta #2 - 692

  12/24-12/28 (6w) - lost our LO (2nd miscarriage in a row)

  RPL panel and Karyotyping; results all normal!

  Started bcp's 1/24/14; saline sonogram 1/30/14 - All clear!!

  IVF #2 02/15/14; ER 02/26/14 - freeze all due to mild OHSS. 

  7 blasts; PGD on all 7 - all 7 normal!!!

  FET #3 4/8/14; BFP!! :-)

  Beta #1 - 235, Beta #2 - 539

  1st u/s - It's TWINS!!!!

  2nd u/s- both babies measuring on track! Heartbeats of 118 and 122!!

  EDD: Christmas Day!!!

  
  

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• Tenyearwait member

  October 2013

  So sorry. Sending you comfort and peace.

  DH 38- Low Everything
  Me 33- AMH .9
  Married 11 years
  2002-current IUIs, meds, natural = All BFN
  
  Aug. '13  Attempt at IVF #1 with Lurpon Flare- Canceled due to ovulation through Lupron.
  Sept. '13 - We will try again with EPP.

  October '13 Started BCP for December IVF. Long Lupron protocol. Canceled due to ovulation through Lupron.
  

  April '14 Planning IVF attempt #3. Adding Cetrotide. Doc consult at the end of this month. 

                                                     

  
  

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