Just a quick back story - DH and I have been trying to have a baby for 2+ years. We had 2 m/cs early on and then went 15 months with no positives. So here we are now, almost 12 weeks, we have seen the baby, seen the hb, and heard the hb, but yet we are still having a hard time accepting that we are really going to have a baby. We don't talk about the baby very much and really haven't started planning for the baby. I think we are both just too afraid to get attached because of the heartache we have suffered in the past. Anyone else dealing with this? I keep telling myself after the next dr appt, I will really believe it. We had an u/s at 6, 8, and 10 weeks and each time, I keep saying - after the next appt we can get excited. I go back in next Tuesday so maybe after that appt I will let myself start getting excited and shopping for baby items. Thanks for reading...
Re: PGALs - not excited yet??
My emotions are all over the place these days anyway but after three miscarriages I'm finding it very difficult to get excited. I went shopping with my MIL the other day, when we walked by the baby clothes section in Target something caught her eye. She hesitantly showed it to me and I got an instant stomach ache....I'm hoping when I reach second trimester I'll be more connected and excited but I'm doubtful of that. Probably not until I'm holding my baby in May!
Getitdone, it's taken time but I'm slowly getting excited about our new LO. I'm still scared we will have another heartbreaking loss and sometimes I fear I'm getting too attached, but I'm choosing to give all my fears and doubts over to God.
BFP#1 05.2005- didn't know I was pg until m/c.
BFP#2 11.01.11 EDD 07.15.12 m/c 11.26.11 @ 6.5 weeks
BFP#3 03.12.12 EDD 11.26.12 mm/c 04.29.12 @ 8 weeks
BFP#4 10.08.12 EDD 06.08.13 m/c 11.29.12 @ 8.5 weeks
cp on 03.27.13 BFP#5 09/10/13 EDD 05.25.14 Induced & Emergency C-section 05/09/14
Started TTC 05.08
Me: Stage II endo, borderline high FSH
DH: perfect
1 lap, 5 IUIs = 4 BFNs and 1 c/p
2 IVFs, 2 FETs = 1 BFN, 1 c/p, 1 ectopic and finally a sticky BFP in May 2011!
1 FET in Aug 2013 = BFP!
I also find myself comparing where I am now to where I should be if we hadn't lost two pregnancies in May and July. I just keep reminding myself that we love this baby and are grateful that we will be holding her/him in our arms soon. We didn't tell many people about our losses so I also feel guilty as we slowly tell some of our family that they don't know about our other babies that we lost.
Yay for almost second tri!!! Congrats!!
little chkn born 06/30/11
baby chkn born 04/22/14
05/13 07/13
Totally understand. I felt that way with my son (I had a loss before him), and I think I finally started to get excited after my anatomy scan at 20 weeks. By that point, I knew he was healthy, found out he was a boy, and I could feel him move so it became a lot more real.
This time, I'm so detached b/c I've had two more losses prior to it. I've had two great ultrasounds so far but it still doesn't feel real. I have a feeling it will be the same kind of thing as when I was pregnant with my son.
BFP # 1 - 12/19/09 EDD 08/27/10 - D&C 1/26/10 @ 9w5d
BFP # 2 - 06/05/10 EDD 02/17/11, DS1 born on 2/14/11
BFP # 3 - 04/10/13 EDD 12/21/13 - D&C 05/15/13 @ 8w4d
BFP # 4 - 07/27/13 EDD 04/08/14 - CP 07/29/13
BFP # 5 - 09/14/13 EDD 05/28/14, DS2 born on 5/22/14
BFP#1 - 11/27/09 EDD 8/5/10, DS1 arrived 7/24/10 via emergency c-section.
BFP#2 - 6/18/12 EDD 2/23/13, sweet baby girl born sleeping on 10/4/12 at 19 weeks, 3 days.
BFP #3 - 1/18/13 EDD 10/1/13, natural mc on 2/2/13 at 5 weeks, 4 days.
BFP #4 - 8/29/13 EDD 5/12/14, our sweet rainbow, DS2 born 4/29/14 via c-section
Maybe after the anatomy scan things will start to feel more permanent.
Kieran born 21.1.10
Angel baby 1 lost 18.6.13
Angel baby 2 lost 30.10.13
09/23/11 - Married DH
04/01/13 - BFP at 4wks
05/30/13 - MMC - BO @ 12wks 5d
08/29/13 - BFP @ 4wks 4d
09/17/13 - 7wks 2d - Normal HB Detected! Baby measuring perfect for dates and positioning!
10/23/13 - 12wks 3d - Perfect NT scan! HB 167 & baby wriggling, waving & yawning!
12/17/13 - 20wks 2 d - We're having a beautiful baby girl! Go Team Pink!
05/03/14 - Bobbie Gloria was born at 39+6 weighing 6lb 14oz!