Hello, all. I'm about 3 weeks post- loss, and I honestly don't know what to say. One minute I'm fine, the next I'm a mess. This was my first pregnancy, and I'm having a hard time not thinking "I should be x weeks along now" every Sunday. My pregnancy apps send me updates and emails... baby commercials are the worst.
A little about my story... 8/9 week ultrasound showed a 6 week fetus, no hb. Everyone said to be positive, and I tried, but I just knew. Is it strange that I had a bad feeling goinginto the assappointment? We were scheduled for a follow up appt in 2 weeks, but I began miscarrying naturally 2 days before. Due to the large amounts of blood I was losing right away, my doctor wanted me to get checked out in the ER. I ended up having to stay the night due to passing out repeatedly and my blood count being so low. I'm thankful that I didn't need a procedure, everything passed on its own.
That brings us to the wait... for " back to normal," physically speaking. I can't quite yet imagine feeling normal emotionally...
Re: intro- 1st loss on Oct 1
I deleted some apps and obviously my EDD. I don't want any updates! I have good days and bad days, but feel I am recovering pretty well emotionally. Sometimes I am distracted and then the thoughts fill my brain and I want to cry. There is no one way or right way to heal. Give yourself as much time as you need!
BFP #1: EDD 05/27/2014 (D&C 10/17/2014)
I am so sorry for your loss.
After 11 year of marriage, this was our first pregnancy too. We were beyond happy when we found out about the pregnancy.
I deleted all apps from my phone, I asked my husband to remove all pregnancy reference. Today, I went back to office and I saw my notes jotting down FMLA and maternity leave benefits.
It hit me on how 7 days ago I was excitedly planning my pregnancy. I thought I recovered as the past 2 days I felt very good. Today, I feel a bit down again.