Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss

intro- 1st loss on Oct 1

Hello, all. I'm about 3 weeks post- loss, and I honestly don't know what to say. One minute I'm fine, the next I'm a mess. This was my first pregnancy, and I'm having a hard time not thinking "I should be x weeks along now" every Sunday. My pregnancy apps send me updates and emails... baby commercials are the worst.

A little about my story... 8/9 week ultrasound showed a 6 week fetus, no hb. Everyone said to be positive, and I tried, but I just knew. Is it strange that I had a bad feeling goinginto the assappointment? We were scheduled for a follow up appt in 2 weeks, but I began miscarrying naturally 2 days before. Due to the large amounts of blood I was losing right away, my doctor wanted me to get checked out in the ER. I ended up having to stay the night due to passing out repeatedly and my blood count being so low. I'm thankful that I didn't need a procedure, everything passed on its own.

That brings us to the wait... for " back to normal," physically speaking. I can't quite yet imagine feeling normal emotionally...

Re: intro- 1st loss on Oct 1

  • I'm so sorry for your loss.
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  • I'm sorry for your loss. This was also my first pregnancy which is really worrying me. As I never had a healthy pregnancy, I'm hoping that it's possible. I am waiting for my follow up appt next week.

    I deleted some apps and obviously my EDD. I don't want any updates! I have good days and bad days, but feel I am recovering pretty well emotionally. Sometimes I am distracted and then the thoughts fill my brain and I want to cry. There is no one way or right way to heal. Give yourself as much time as you need!
    TTC: Since July 2013
    BFP #1: EDD 05/27/2014 (D&C 10/17/2014)
  • I am so sorry for your loss.

    After 11 year of marriage, this was our first pregnancy too.  We were beyond happy when we found out about the pregnancy.

    I deleted all apps from my phone, I asked my husband to remove all pregnancy reference.  Today, I went back to office and I saw my notes jotting down FMLA and maternity leave benefits.

    It hit me on how 7 days ago I was excitedly planning my pregnancy.  I thought I recovered as the past 2 days I felt very good.  Today, I feel a bit down again.

  • So sorry for your loss. My loss was also my first pregnancy. Mm/c at 12 weeks. So sorry you find yourself here. I would definitely delete your EDD so you don't have to see the updates :( I turned all of my notifications off under settings as well.
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  • Thank you all for the support. I've turned off the apps that I could... some didn't have that option and I don't want the crazy search for good apps when we * fingers crossed* conceive again. I'm not sure what to expect from AF. If things go right, she should be visiting in the next week or two.
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