Secondary IF

I'm tired. (Whine and cheese)

KC1212KC1212 member
edited October 2013 in Secondary IF
I'm tired of taking ten billion OPKs.
I'm tired of temping.
I don't know what my CM looks like.
I'm not sure what CD I am.
I THINK I'm in my FW?
My temps don'ts shown a clear O drop.

I'm 5 months into TTC #2 and I'm tired of all the manic planning that has to go into it.

I feel like this month might be an unplanned break because, I feel like I'm running on empty and at night I crash when I go to bed.

Okay, this post has no point. Has anyone ever felt like this? It's not that I don't want to try but, I'm just physically and emotionally tired from it.
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Me: 27 DH: 33
Married 6 years
Conceived DS after 4 years of MFI

TTC # 2 (not trying,not preventing ever)
May 2013 - August 2013 Timed Intercourse = BFN
September 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs=BFN
October 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs, and "warming foods" = BFP
Beta #1 19, Beta #2 18 Progesterone 4.6 Miscarried 11/9/13
November 2013 - Benched, waiting for first post-loss AF.
No longer benched per New RE/OB!
Jan. 15 2014 - BFP. HCG 3900 - Ectopic :( 
Jan. 16 2014 Left tube removed and D&C
March 2, 2014 First AF


Re: I'm tired. (Whine and cheese)

  • I stopped doing all the opks and charting several months ago. It just made me feel like a crazy person. I know when my FW is. I know how to get pregnant. I didn't do any of that s*** when I got preg before. So the answer to your question is yes...been there! I'm still not pregnant and still sad about it but I feel like I'm in a much better place about it emotionally than I was 4-5 months ago.
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  • All. The. Time. (((Hugs))) it is very hard to keep the optimism and energy up all the time. I hope you have a better day today and find some peace :)

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    TTC #3 since 10/2011 - dx unexplained/weak ovulation
     3 BFN clomid + TI cycles, 5 BFN clomid/gonal f IUIs, 1 mmc IUI
    2/19/2014 IVF #1 Unexpected low E2 (oversuppressed) -> increased to max doses = 3 or 4 follicles, converting to IUI
    BFFP Saw 1 beautiful heartbeat at 6w6d, follow up u/s at 9w showed mmc. Eff this.
    NTNP 5/2014-9/2014, OPKs and TI 10/2014 - 1/2015. 
    RPL testing all normal, AFC, AMH, and FSH all normal. 
    IVF 1.2 1/22/2014 natural cycle start, AFC 28, 300 gonal f/150menopur. 
    ER 2/3/15 14R 8M 3F w/ICSI Day 5 transfer on 2/8/15 of one "Grade A+" blast and have TWO frosties! 

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  • pettycrockerpettycrocker member
    edited October 2013
    That really sucks that you are feeling that way. I don't think I ever really got to that point in my natural cycles. There were months when I would get a little frustrated, but never to the point where I just wanted to say "screw this" We gave it 19 perfectly timed cycles, and I charted and OPKed our IUI cycle as well. 

    That's not to say I'm not really enjoying the first break in all that time, but it's weird, I feel like I'm constantly looking for things to do since I'm not obsessing over my cycle. I've been watching Nurse Jackie from the beginning. I started 3 days ago, and I'm half way through season 3 now. That just shows you how lost I'm feeling with our flagrant TTC  endeavors 

    You know yourself better than anyone else, so if you feel like you need a break then it's definitely time for a break! 


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  • I think the problem is I've got a lot going on and I'm falling asleep as soon as I hit the bed and it doesn't make for great sex, ya know?

    Not when it's like - crap I gotta stay awake lemme down this Mt Dew real quick and then we'll have sex. haha.

    And then in the morning sometimes I'm forgetting my temp or taking it an hour later because I've over slept.

    I know why I'm tired. It's not medical. It's schedule. Haha.
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    Me: 27 DH: 33
    Married 6 years
    Conceived DS after 4 years of MFI

    TTC # 2 (not trying,not preventing ever)
    May 2013 - August 2013 Timed Intercourse = BFN
    September 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs=BFN
    October 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs, and "warming foods" = BFP
    Beta #1 19, Beta #2 18 Progesterone 4.6 Miscarried 11/9/13
    November 2013 - Benched, waiting for first post-loss AF.
    No longer benched per New RE/OB!
    Jan. 15 2014 - BFP. HCG 3900 - Ectopic :( 
    Jan. 16 2014 Left tube removed and D&C
    March 2, 2014 First AF


  • I'm sorry @KC1212.  Hopefully your schedule slows down so you can take a breather or have sex... whichever ;) 



      


  • I think my DH needs to take a lunch break ;)
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    Me: 27 DH: 33
    Married 6 years
    Conceived DS after 4 years of MFI

    TTC # 2 (not trying,not preventing ever)
    May 2013 - August 2013 Timed Intercourse = BFN
    September 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs=BFN
    October 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs, and "warming foods" = BFP
    Beta #1 19, Beta #2 18 Progesterone 4.6 Miscarried 11/9/13
    November 2013 - Benched, waiting for first post-loss AF.
    No longer benched per New RE/OB!
    Jan. 15 2014 - BFP. HCG 3900 - Ectopic :( 
    Jan. 16 2014 Left tube removed and D&C
    March 2, 2014 First AF


  • KC1212 said:
    I think my DH needs to take a lunch break ;)

    That's what i'm talking about! 



      


  • Hugs! I stopped temping and charting because it's way to subjective in my opinion. I also stopped OPKs but have to start again tomorrow because this is my first cycle of Clomid for this go round. We have had to take two "focusing on TTCing" breaks but we still tried and it helped a little because it was more spontaneous. I do keep up with my predicted CD and OD but it's annoying because I never know if it's even remotely accurate. It's discouraging but keep your head up! I know that's easier said then done. We've had to get creative in making scheduled sex fun and it really seems to help. Definitely try lunch breaks and different times of the day. Good luck! We're here for you. This is the best place for support ever!
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  • HUGS.  I quit charting months ago because it made me a crazy person.  I packed up the CBEFM last month because it obviously wasn't doing any good.  Based on what my OB says today, I may pack up the OPKs for a while.  
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    DD born 8/9/10
    TTC #2 since 8/2012
    CP 12/2012
    dx MFI 10/2013
    Surprise BFP 11/6/2013  EDD 7/19/2014
    Beta #1 15 dpo HCG 355 Prog 30.9
    Beta #2 22 dpo HCG 8147 Prog 18.8
    Beta #3 29 dpo HCG 44580 Prog 29.8

  • I have days like this, but within hours of feeling this way I go right back to obsessing about it. 2IF sucks -_-
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