So here I am.
2 weeks ago, for whatever unknown reason, I all of a sudden felt I needed to do a home pregnancy test. I was maybe only a day or two late but had an overwhelming urge to test anyway. Twice it came back positive, and my husband and I were beyond ecstatic. Not exactly planned, but definitely a welcomed surprise. He's 8 years older than I am, and I know has been waiting for that day a lot longer than I had been.
Only 2 days later, after a terrible flu which I fought without any medication,I started bleeding. No clots or anything, but substantial enough for me to warrant a trip to the doctor. My doctor saw me right away, and after the examination determined I was having a miscarriage. We were only 5 weeks along, but as this was our first both my husband and I were devastated. The doctor requested I do the bloodwork just to ensure, but she had us convinced of the outcome.
6 days later, after 3 more trips in to the doctor to complete the bloodwork, the doctor was astounded to discover that she had been incorrect... we were still pregnant! Overjoyed, she got us in right away for an ultrasound, which also showed positive results. Over the moon at our unexpected fortune, my husband and I began to get excited again. However, I was still bleeding slightly. The doctor thought it might be due to my negative blood type, and Friday had me in for a bright and early 9 am appointment for a WinRho (right after my graveyard shift, exciting.) By three that afternoon, I was on the phone with the nurse's hotline, who then called my doctor who told me to get to the ER right away.
The bleeding had increased and I had started to pass tissue. The cramping was unbearable to the point where I got light headed and almost fainted. We spent 5 hours in the emergency room. The doctor told me what I already knew was coming. For the second time in as many weeks, that word. Miscarriage. And all those that follow, the "its not your fault" and "it's so common in the first trimester" as if it's going to make either of us feel any better.
It really has been an emotional roller coaster, but we've definitely come out on the other side of it stronger. And in the spirit of Canadian Thanksgiving weekend, I've found plenty to be thankful for. I've never loved my husband as much as I have these past few weeks. His support and help have been unparalleled and I couldn't be more thankful to have such an incredible man by my side. I'm thankful we now know we can get pregnant, and as easily as we did. As much as I'm still trying to wrap my head around what's actually happened these past few weeks, I am excited for the future and TTC again!
Re: 2 Week Roller Coaster
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2010: son born 9/1
2013: 2 miscarriages + d&cs, both at 10 weeks: April & July
2014: son #2 born 6/29
2016: Baby girl stillborn at 21w6d 4/29 and baby boy stillborn at 20w 3d 11/16
I wish you a fast recovery!
I pray you all get your sticky beans!!!
A little shout out to a fellow Canadian!
DS born 04/25/2012