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I POAS today even though I'm 7w1day...(rambling post)

just to reassure myself that I was still pregnant.  A waste of an HPT.  Further, even if my lack of MS did mean something had happened to the baby, it takes a long time for the HCG levels to come back down.  So why did I do this? I don't know.  It made me feel better for about 30 seconds and then I was back to being scared again.

I did, however, gag a little this morning, but no MS really.  I need today to fast forward so I can hurry up and get to my ultrasound tomorrow! 

I even had a horrible thought about what if there is no heartbeat?  My DH isn't coming to the appointment with me because he has patients scheduled and my appointment is in the middle of the morning.  That would be beyond horrible...to learn bad news and be by myself...and then have to tell him.  Why am I even thinking this???  Geez, my appointment just needs to get here! 

Sorry I am rambling! 

IF DX: DOR & Fragile X pre-mutation carrier
2011: FSH 13.3 & E 99; AMH 0.54 2nd FSH 6.2 E 40's AFC: 8
BFP from Clomid/IUI ~ Pre-e and IUGR during pregnancy ~ DS born 9/4/12
Feb./March 2013: AMH less than 0.16 (undectable) and AFC = 4;
BFP from supps ~ DS#2 due May 2014

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Re: I POAS today even though I'm 7w1day...(rambling post)

  • I'm so sorry hon.  The beginning of pregnancy is so rough.  I debated POAS several times myself.  Fridays are usually easy for me, so seriously, if you need me to come pick you up, let me know.  I seriously will.  But I am sure that everything is absolutely fine.  You just have that IF brain that makes us so crazy.  I took comfort in all those tiny things too, like gagging on my toothbrush. 
    I hope the next 24 hours flies by for you, and T&P for fantastic news tomorrow.
    TTC with PCOS since November 2009
    IUI#1 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP, m/c
    IUI#2 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 5-9) = BFN
    IUI#3 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP!
    beta #1 11/23 = 270, P4 = 75
    beta #2 11/28 = 2055
    Our daughter E was born 7/29/2012!
    Surprise, our 2nd daughter P was born 5/22/14!
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  • ((Hugs)) I hope tomorrow gets here fast! I'm sure everything is fine, but if it makes you feel better, do you have a close friend who could come along and keep you company? IF brain is a terrible thing :(
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    Many IUI's with various meds all BFFN
    IVF #1 11/11 canceled due to OHSS
    IVF #2 Feb/March 2012 ET of 2 on day 3 4/7 BFP! 5/1 u/s blighted ovum
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    Beta 6/18 BFFN

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    Healthy baby girl born at 36w3d on 3/17/15

    TTC#3
    IVF #5 June 2018- PGS planned, no surviving embryos
    IVF #6 August 2018- ET of 2 on day 3 - Chemical pregnancy
    IVF #7 August 2019-....?
  • Huge hugs my friend.

    When I read these posts I honestly feel like I am reliving my pregnancy. I was the.exact.same.way with how I felt and ended up having a very healthy pregnancy!!!!! Ironically I also look back now and realize I wasn't totally right. I wasn't barfy or having morning sickness but my appetite was totally abnormal... HAHAHA - at the time though I felt perfectly fine.

    FX for a fantastic ultra sound tomorrow.


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    ET - 7/17 - 1 blast transferred. Beta - 7/26 273, Beta 2 7/30 - 1143. Beta 3 8/6 - 11,597
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    1 Blast Transferred on December 15th..... Beta Christmas Eve... Please Santa, bring me a baby!

    Beta #1 345.....Beta #2....750/ First U/S 1/13/15/HB 131....EDD 9/2/2015

  • Thanks everyone for the support!

    @TJ1979 - Thanks so much for the offer. I am hopeful everything will be fine at the appointment. I just can't help my mind going to a dark place.

     

    IF DX: DOR & Fragile X pre-mutation carrier
    2011: FSH 13.3 & E 99; AMH 0.54 2nd FSH 6.2 E 40's AFC: 8
    BFP from Clomid/IUI ~ Pre-e and IUGR during pregnancy ~ DS born 9/4/12
    Feb./March 2013: AMH less than 0.16 (undectable) and AFC = 4;
    BFP from supps ~ DS#2 due May 2014

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  • I know, it's impossible not to do with PAIF brain.  Hugs.
    TTC with PCOS since November 2009
    IUI#1 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP, m/c
    IUI#2 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 5-9) = BFN
    IUI#3 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP!
    beta #1 11/23 = 270, P4 = 75
    beta #2 11/28 = 2055
    Our daughter E was born 7/29/2012!
    Surprise, our 2nd daughter P was born 5/22/14!
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  • I hope this doesn't sound harsh but all your stress is going to do is prevent you from enjoying your miracle pregnancy. If anything, god forbid, were to happen, all the fretting in the workd could not prevent it. You cannot control certain things and obsessing about 'Am I still pregnant' is not good for your psyche or for your growing baby.
    TTC since 3-08 IVF # 1 Dec 2011 BFP DD born at 31 weeks 6-24-12

    FET #1 Dec 2013 BFN

    FET # 2 Feb 2014 BFN

    No more frosties

    IVF #2. September 2014

    PGD yielded 2 perfect 5d blasts

    SET November 9, 2014
    Nov 23, 2014. Another BFN

    Not sure where to go from here.

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  • MoFree said:
    I hope this doesn't sound harsh but all your stress is going to do is prevent you from enjoying your miracle pregnancy. If anything, god forbid, were to happen, all the fretting in the workd could not prevent it. You cannot control certain things and obsessing about 'Am I still pregnant' is not good for your psyche or for your growing baby.

    MoFree is very smart. Listen to her. Hoping tomorrow comes soon and everything looks good in there!
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  • IBackBevoIBackBevo member
    edited October 2013

    Sigh. I know I need to quit stressing.  I think the combo of my symptoms suddenly disappearing (never happened with DS) and the fact that I have not seen the OB yet or had an ultrasound are what has me nervous. I really think I will feel better after seeing the HB on the ultrasound tomorrow. 

    I also think having to scramble for childcare this week (after nanny quit without notice) and my mother taking a crap on me has made me feel worse about things in general.  I have not talked to her since.  This past week really has not been a good week. It seems like that when it rains, it pours.

    IF DX: DOR & Fragile X pre-mutation carrier
    2011: FSH 13.3 & E 99; AMH 0.54 2nd FSH 6.2 E 40's AFC: 8
    BFP from Clomid/IUI ~ Pre-e and IUGR during pregnancy ~ DS born 9/4/12
    Feb./March 2013: AMH less than 0.16 (undectable) and AFC = 4;
    BFP from supps ~ DS#2 due May 2014

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  • Go easy on yourself, if PingOAS gives you some comfort & peace of mind going into tomorrow, there is nothing wrong with that. You know how HCG levels work so you have realistic expectations. FX all goes well at your u/s & you can start to enjoy this amazing surprise!
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  • RoseHQ12 said:
    Go easy on yourself, if PingOAS gives you some comfort & peace of mind going into tomorrow, there is nothing wrong with that. You know how HCG levels work so you have realistic expectations. FX all goes well at your u/s & you can start to enjoy this amazing surprise!
    This.  Do whatever you need to do to make you feel better ... even if it is only for 30 seconds.  Pregnancy makes me crazy no matter where I'm at in the game.  I totally understand the anxiety.  Hoping you get reassuring news tomorrow!
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  • Ramble away. Your fears are all normal. I worry every day that something bad happened to the baby. Its not easy. Hugs. Praying that tomorrows u/s will be perfect!!
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  • I totally know what your talking about! I had one little spotting once on mothers day of all days! The day before my first u/s. My mom came with me but waited in the waiting room and my biggest fear came true no heartbeat. It was tough to have to go out and tell my mom but a relief that I had someone to drive me home. I told my husband this time around I won't go to ultrasound alone b/c of that! Wishing you the best of luck! You've gone through so much to get there try to thik positive!
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