No matter how hard I try, I simply cannot do it all. At any given time something is falling apart. For the past year I've been letting the house go and concentrating on cooking extremely healthy, getting the boys therapy, doctors and school.
I weaned off my Zoloft after a year and finally feel like I have a clear head. I am not superwoman. There is noway I will have a spotless house while having two children with special needs.
I feel so free for finally admitting to myself that I am doing the absolute best I can. Just because I can't do everything doesn't mean I've failed. Doing somethings extraordinarily well is much better than do everything second best.
Re: I have finally come to a major realization
I have had to let go a bunch of things in the last couple of years - some big some small. ie - i don't iron or fold socks anymore. Ever. No time. Major clothes are clean, folded and mostly put away. Thats all I got in me!