New here, I've been reading for a while so just thought I should pop out of the shadows.
My husband and I lost our first born son just over a year ago. We nicknamed him "Cruz". At the 20wk scan, he was diagnosed with a right sided congenital diaphragmatic hernia (R-CDH) and only given a 10% chance of survival. He started off really well after having his repair surgery, then spent 10 days on ECMO life support, recovered, discussions about going home happened.Cruz was eventually diagnosed with a congenital heart defect, tracheomalacia, right lung hypoplasia among other issues. He spent his 4 months here in the ICU, he had some great days and some not so great days. We live in London, so our time was mostly spent at the Great Ormond Street Hospital for Children.
Medically, everything with Cruz was simply a series of unfortunate events and all the genetic tests came back normal on all of us. The pregnancy was hard, I had HG, eventually would up hospitalized for about 10 days on IV fluids, had FETO surgery to increase Cruz's odds of survival, developed polyhydramnios so had about 1.5 litres of amniotic fluid drained.
We've made a lot of progress in the past year and I've finally gotten to the point of coming to terms with his death and we're slowly broaching the topic of possibly trying for another child.
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BFP #2 5/7/13 EDD 1/14/2014 Ectopic discovered 5/21/13, lost left tube
Referred to RE, blood work done August 2013, AMH 0.27, all else normal, HSG clear
I would caution you to change your avatar to not be the belly pic. That can be very hurtful to some of the ladies here.
Married DH 3/14/09
TTC Since Jan 2011
Diagnosed with PCOS Jan 2013
BFP#1 June 2013/ EDD 2/23/2013 Blighted Ovum confirmed July 18, 2013
took Cytotec July 20, 2013
BFP #2 12/28/2013 EDD 9/11/2014 Its A Girl!!! Rebecca Ann!
Rebecca Ann born 8/31/2014 6lb 1oz 19 inches long 8:55am!!!!
THE DARK SIDE IT IS
and GBCB
BFP 8/2/12 EDD 4/9/13 Addie was delivered 1/4/13 at 26 weeks due to Eclampsia
BFP 9/15/14 EDD 5/28/15 Please be our R A I N B O W take home baby BOY
~All AL always welcome~
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TTC since March 2012
BFP #1 1/29/13, EDD 10/9/13
BFP #3 8/11/14 EDD 4/22/14
*8.31.16* mc @ 8 weeks DnC {genetic testing, new medications upon next pregnancy}
*7.17.16* praying everyday for my rainbow baby {progesterone supplements, blood thinning injections}
4 Losses (2003, 2008, Apr 2012, & Oct 2012)
All RPL and IF testing with multiple REs = normal
5 IUIs = BFN
All AL are welcome

The day the Bump died - Jasper is wise
BFP #2: EDD 9/3/13~~Slow HB at 1st U/S~~MMC -Loss on 2/13/13
BFP 4/17/13, MC began 5/2/13 @ 6 weeks
My FF Chart
THE DARK SIDE IT IS
and GBCB
BFP 8/2/12 EDD 4/9/13 Addie was delivered 1/4/13 at 26 weeks due to Eclampsia
BFP 9/15/14 EDD 5/28/15 Please be our R A I N B O W take home baby BOY
~All AL always welcome~
Now it's changed to a stock photo. I just want this to be a safe place. A bump pic is hard for lots of ladies.
I'm so sorry for the loss of your son. Thank you for being understanding about the avatar. I would hate for you to miss out on amazing support that is offered here because the bump pic was hard for members to look at.
THE DARK SIDE IT IS
and GBCB
BFP 8/2/12 EDD 4/9/13 Addie was delivered 1/4/13 at 26 weeks due to Eclampsia
BFP 9/15/14 EDD 5/28/15 Please be our R A I N B O W take home baby BOY
~All AL always welcome~
A little bit about me...
Married my awesome guy on 12/27/08
DD Lucy Rae born on 11/16/2010
Loss #1: November 29, 2012 at 8w1d
Loss #2: June 9, 2013 at 13w (Amelia Grace)
BFP #4: We are having a BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Peter Matthew was born on July 16, 2014!!! Welcome to our family!
"If anyone asks me how many children I have, the answer is 4. Just two of them live in Heaven."
*All are welcome in my posts*Started dating in 2008 and married November 10, 2012
TTC#1 Since Oct 2012
MC#1 5/30/2013 ~ EDD 1/4/2014 natural @ 9 weeks
MC#2 8/12/2013 ~ EDD 4/13/2014 natural @ 5 weeks 5 days
BFP #3 EDD 12/9/2014
*~*~*Everybody is Welcome*~*~*
My Ovulation Chart
TTC since April 2012
BFP #1, 10/03/2012 - EDD 6/15/2013 - MMC 11/15/2012 - D&C 01/04/2013
BFP #2, 04/06/2013 - EDD 12/17/2013 - MC 04/19/2013
6/12/2013 Diagnosed with Balanced Translocation (12 & 16)
IVF #1 with PGS: 10/2013: Canceled 9/27/2013 for issues with genetic lab
IVF #1.5 with PGS: 11/16/2013: Canceled. 11 eggs retrieved, 9 mature & 9 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos
IVF #2: 1/22/14: Canceled. 16 eggs retrieved, 14 mature, 7 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos
IVF #3 with PGS: 5/10/2014: Switched to FET in July. 10 eggs retrieved, 9 mature, 8 fertilized, 2 healthy embryos!
FET #1: 7/31/2014: Transferred 2 nearly perfect (6AA, 6BA) healthy embryos- BFFN
Laproscopy: 10/2014: Healthy uterus
IVF #4: 12/8/2014: Canceled. 17 eggs retrieved, 15 mature, 10 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos
Everyone welcome on my posts
BFP 1/23/13; US 1/28/13 Perfect Peanut @ 7w! So in love!; 2/23/13 Peanut Says Goodbye; 2/24/13 Natural MC at 11w
BFP #2: 10/5/2013; EDD 6/11/2014
The Fruit The Countdown My Chart
BFP #1 : 3/20/13 | EDD: 12/1/13 | MC: 4/15/13
BFP #2: 1/9/14 | EDD: 9/21/14
Welcomed our rainbow bear on 8/31/14
My Chart | All are Welcome
TTC since October 2012
BFP#1 1/11/13, EDD 9/19/13, M/C at 9wk6dy
BFP#2 11/12/13, DS born 7/28/14!
Chart
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BFP#1 9/9/12 -- EDD 5/14/13 -- MMC 10/10/12 Miso 10/19/12
BFP #2 9/17/13 -- EDD 5/25/14-- CP confirmed 9/21/13
BFP #3 2/1/14 -- EDD 10/5/14 -- NMC 2/10/14
Dx: low progesterone & mild hypothyroidism
My Chart
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BFP#1 4/17/2013 EDD 12/25/2013, MC 5/17/2013 8 weeks 3 days D&C 5/18/2013
BFP#2 1/20/2014 EDD 9/28/2014, Baby Evie born on 9/23/2014 at 8:50pm. 6 lbs 15 oz!
Began trying for a baby January 2012
BFP 4.25.2013 EDD 1.3.2014 MMC 6.3.2013 D&C 6.19.2013
BFP 11.3.2013 CP 11.6.2013
BFP 3.31.2014 EDD 12.10.2014 Baby boy Carlson born 12.19.2014
BFP#1: 2/2/13 ~ exact m/c date unknown but around 3/20 at 10 weeks ~ diagnosed with PMP ~ D&C on 4/5 ~ TTA for at least 1 year due to PMP ~ cleared to TTC 1/14
BFP#2: 2/7/14 ~ m/c 2/20/14 ~ possibly due to chemical pregnancy ~ TG no D&C is needed
Surprise BFP#3: 4/4/14 ~ super duper extra happy (and nervous) about this one - EDD 12/9/14!!!
John Joseph was born on 12/12/14 at 7 lbs. 11 oz. He is the most beautiful rainbow baby we could have wished for!