I feel like absolute shit. He kicked me in the face during his diaper change this morning, laughed and went to do it again and a gave him a smack. It was reactionary and I totally regret it. It wasn't hard but man he cried. Parenting fail. I suck. He's been so aggressive lately (hitting, head butting, etc.) and that was the worst possible response. Ugh...I'm so frustrated with myself and this behavior.
Re: I smacked my toddler on the butt....
Although I'm sure I'd probably feel guilty about it too. These things tend to feel different in theory than when it happens IRL. Try not to be too hard on yourself. It happens.
Eta clarity
Our Little Raspberry Born 3/27/12
Have no idea if the abuse is why my first instinct when mad is to hit but I tend to think so.
Agree with pp saying kids bounce back faster than mommy.