Scared

snickersforeveryone · September 2013

I haven't been on much and am still catching up, so I hope you don't mind me asking a favor.

My life has completely exploded with crazy over the last couple of weeks. I won't get into everything because that would end up being a novel, but it seems there's a crisis around every turn. On top of the issues we've been dealing with as a family, I've been dealing with major heart issues, much worse than when I was pregnant with Emily. My heart rate has been spiking dangerously high, even on medication, whenever I change positions or get stressed. There's been some discussion of whether my heart is being damaged, what it's doing to the baby, whether I should be on bed rest, and whether they should take LO early via cs.

I am going on the 24th to get a Holter monitor put on for 24 hours. Our next plan of action will pretty much depend on what they see when they read the data. They are hoping that they'll be able to control the problem with a higher dose of the medication, but they said it's a pretty slim chance based on how severe the symptoms are, and even that's not a super great option since I'm on a relatively high dose for pregnancy already.

I'm terrified. What if this is hurting him? What if we have to take him early? I want to let him mature as much as possible, but I don't want him to be in danger either. I need to stop borrowing trouble and just CTFD...but my brain won't shut up. Would you mind sending happy thoughts, prayers, good juju, or whatever our way?

Barefoot84 · September 2013

Sending thoughts and prayers your way!

lada85 · September 2013

T&Ps for you and LO. I hope you are both ok.

APendola · September 2013

I'm so sorry you are going through all this. I know it's easier said then done, but try not to stress yourself out too much. Think positive thoughts and give yourself time to rest.

I hope that your doctors can help you find the best solution and that you and your baby are well taken care of. I am sending positive thoughts your way!!!!

lkamenko · September 2013

Oh, eaf, it is scary! I am so sorry. Try not to worry and keep thinking positive thoughts. I am definitely sending you lots of T&P.

aylafsu88 · September 2013

Of eaf, that is scary and I can understand your stress and worry. I hope that the monitor gives you some good results. As hard as it is, try to stay calm and positive. I am praying for you and you LO.

snickersforeveryone · September 2013

Thanks ladies. I know I haven't been keeping up with my end of being supportive lately, so it means a lot that you'd think of me. I hope things calm down soon and I can get back to being more active here.

ashleynaka · September 2013

I forgot that you experienced heart issues last time and am sorry it is happening again. I hope they can get it under control and you don't have to go on bed rest.

With respect to your craziness and stress, I hope you can let the non-direct issues go for now and let others figure them out, so you don't stress yourself out too much. I know it is much easier said than done, but it is for your health and your baby's. I am sure others would understand. (of course I am assuming that you are worrying about others' problems on top of your own)