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I freaking did it! AND earned my rockstar badge.

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I have to say as a FTM, I thought birth would be something hard, but I didn't know HOW hard it would be. I had just about surrendered to the thought of being pregnant for 41 weeks. (granted I was only 39.3 at the time) and I thought I'd be pregnant forever. That same night I was awoken by a contraction. Also as a FTM you don't know a contraction until one grabs you from your sleep and tosses you out your bed. I knew it was the real deal. My plan was to labor at home as long as possible, but it only ended up being about 2 before I just knew we had to leave. 
Arrived at L&D at about 3:30 AM and was 3cm. I was told to walk for an hour, but only made it 25 mins before I crawled myself back to the L&D unit at 4cm. I really did feel defeated; how could I only be at 4...I felt like I've been contracting strong since I was checked at 37 weeks (2.5cm). My midwife told me if I wanted a natural labor to go home and try to labor some more. I didn't want to, but agreed. She checked me one last time and I was 5-6cm. "I guess you're staying." She smiled. I was happy. Finally, I was going to have my baby. 
By the time we got settled into the room I was 6-7cm and these contractions were getting stronger and stronger. I had a conversation in my head through each contraction; conversations about how I felt I couldn't do it. I kept listening to the part that reminded me this is what I WANTED. That helped me through the next few contractions...  Then my water broke. I honestly have never felt a pain like the pain of the head slamming down and going through transition. It was at that moment that I gave in to everything. It couldn't hurt forever, I was having my baby, and I wasn't letting anyone stop me from having the birth I wanted. 5 mins after my water broke, I had to push. I was at 10 and told I could push when I felt like it. 
Pushing was hard. I didn't really know how to get my body to take the pain and turn it into pushing, but somehow my body did it on it's own. Ladies who are FTM's honestly trust your body in what it can do. I didn't know exactly what that meant until I pushed and primal instinct took over. 
I pushed and I pushed for 45 mins. Finally my little guy's head came out. One good push and the rest of him popped out...it was the most amazing feeling ever. It was a rush of happiness and pure amazement as I was told to reach down and grab my baby. (I'm tearing up now). He was perfect, although at the moment I didn't know it was a he. Team Green turned Blue :) 
I did it. Everyone said how great of a job I did, even when I didn't think I was doing a good job. I had excellent support and a midwife that let ME run the show. I loved every minuted of my natural birth. Labored for 11 hours. Only thing I didn't like was the deep 3rd degree tear I got from my boy's head coming out WITH his hand. But what a minor price to pay for the most wonderful thing in the world. 
I just had to share. Excuse me if I'm somewhat choppy...I'm just so in love, been up for about 36 hrs, and had to gush somewhere! 
I did it! 
Thanks for reading :p

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