Well, its been a bit since I was told that I will not be welcoming a new life into this world Jan 2014... I've updated my preferences on here, still receive week-by-week updates of how my pregnancy should be going. Each time is like ripping open a scab.
My boyfriend and I broke up around 2 weeks after the loss (after being together for years) and I have never felt so alone.
On the bright side, searching for different quotes about pregnancy loss has given me a few thoughts to chew over. The entire time my child was here, he was never cold or hungry. He never felt pain or unwanted. The entire duration of his life (I consider the time the baby spent in me a lifetime) he knew absolutely nothing but love. I'm glad that the first thing he saw when he opened his eyes was Jesus.
Of course, I don't know if my child was a boy or a girl, but when I think about it I feel in my heart that he was a boy.
This is my third miscarriage in less than 2 years. Every time the pain seems to dull, something happens and the sadness re-crushes me. I hope that one day God decides to let me have a baby that I can hold in my arms and rock to sleep every night.
Excited to meet our daughter, Madison Grace!