I've been lurking this board for just over a week now. I am joining from the march 2014 board. I was 11 weeks pregnant and I hadn't seen my doctor for my first appt yet so as far as I knew everything was fine. I was getting close to the "safe zone" of 12 weeks so my husband and I thought it would be safe to start sharing the news with our best friends and family. It's my first pregnancy and we conceived first try. My husband and I were thrilled.
Last Tuesday I started spotting. I didn't spot or have any cramps the entire pregnancy so when I saw this I basically freaked and went right to the emergency. The doctor tried to find the heartbeat with a doppler but couldn't find it. He told me prior to doing it not to worry too much if he couldn't find it because it was still early. I started to worry (even though they said not to) I know my body so well and the day before I actually started to feel like something was off. Not my usual pregnant self. Unfortunately, there was no one in to do an ultrasound so I had to wait until the next morning.
I went in the next morning to be told that our baby stopped growing at 7 weeks and there was no heart beat. The doctor I saw was fantastic. She was informative and sympathetic. She made sure we knew it was nothing I had done and that this happens to 1 in 4 woman in early pregnancy. That statistic shocked me! We decided to do the Misoprostol instead of the D&C. I can only describe this past week as a roller coaster of physical and emotional ups and downs. I went for my follow up ultrasound and I thought things would be clear because my bleeding seemed to have gotten lighter and I did pass quite a bit on the Saturday. Unfortunately, the doctor says there's still more and I will most likely need a D&C. I'm going to try a second round of the medication and see if that works. I will be seeing her again in a couple days to see what's next.
I wish I was stronger for my husband because he has been amazing to me. We had our 2nd wedding anniversary the same week this happened and we tried to make the best of it. I'm happy with myself if I wake up without crying. I was hesitant to write because I don't normally write on forums on the Internet but seeing some similar stories and experiences and seeing how supportive you ladies are I thought I would give it a shot. I'm dreading calling the pharmacy today to fill my second prescription of miso because I'm remembering the physical pain I went through the first time around and now knowing it didn't work properly. I'm in for a painful long weekend.