It still seems surreal that this has happened again. We just went through this 2.5 months ago...and I foolishly thought, surely it won't happen again. Everyone once in awhile, I'll feel nauseous and think, "YES, this is a good sign" They the reality of what's happened comes crashing down...again. I saw an ad for Baby Steals on facebook yesterday and it was for a carrier and I thought, "Oh I get to get an Ergo!" and then I remember and it hurts all over. I foolishly bought a maternity shirt at Target Sunday...then miscarried Monday...had to return it today. I literally prayed that she wouldn't ask me why I was returning it.
The best is when you see someone you told you were pregnant (we told a just a tiny few people) and they haven't heard and they excitedly come up and ask how you're feeling...that happened tonight. It was awesome. For a brief moment I almost said, "I'm feeling great, the nausea hasn't been bad at all today"...then BAM...it hits again and is a harsh reminder of our new reality. I'm just still in shock.
DD 6/17/08, DD 6/9/10, DD 12/15/11
BFP 5/24/13 - Natural MC 6/7/13
BFP 8/13/13 - Natural MC 8/27/13
Ovarian Mass = removal of left ovary & tube 9/13
BFP 4/24/14 - Tubal Pregnancy 5/7/14
Removal of ruptured right tube 5/8/14
IVF or adoption??