* Wednesday Crazy Train *

PinkCamino · August 2013

Welcome to Crazy Train. This is a thread posted daily for any of us who need to get out our frustrations or vent about our cycles.

If you find yourself checking FF obsessively, MF is getting the best of you, POAS issues, let it out here!

Crazy level from 1-10:

CD/DPO:

Can I just ______ already?!:

Signs/Symptoms:

Explain your Crazy here:

AnyMax · August 2013

For some reason, this song popped into my head when I saw this post this morning

MsAmandaPants · August 2013

Warning: pity party ahead

Crazy level from 1-10:

CD/DPO: 12dpo

Can I just _get a BFP ____ already?!:

Signs/Symptoms: I really thought this might be it, sore breasts, super smell, headache and nausea on and off all day yesterday, but today it feels decidedly more like PMS.

Explain your Crazy here: Today BFFN. I know I am not out till AF shows, but I am pretty sure it is on the way. I'm feeling crushed and tired and angry and then stupid for feeling crushed given that it was an extremely long shot that it would work in the first place. Hope is such a double edged sword. I hate this whole thing and the thought of doing it all again next month sounds fucking awful. I'm in a generally shitty headspace.

AnyMax · August 2013

@MsAmandaPants (((hugs)))

PinkCamino · August 2013

Warning: pity party ahead

Crazy level from 1-10:

CD/DPO: 12dpo

Can I just _get a BFP ____ already?!:

Signs/Symptoms: I really thought this might be it, sore breasts, super smell, headache and nausea on and off all day yesterday, but today it feels decidedly more like PMS.

Explain your Crazy here: Today BFFN. I know I am not out till AF shows, but I am pretty sure it is on the way. I'm feeling crushed and tired and angry and then stupid for feeling crushed given that it was an extremely long shot that it would work in the first place. Hope is such a double edged sword. I hate this whole thing and the thought of doing it all again next month sounds fucking awful. I'm in a generally shitty headspace.

Oh Amanda ((hugs))

I'm so sorry. Being in limbo is awful and although I know I should tell you that you're not out until AF shows I wont because I know you already know this. I just hope that you get some answers soon and that you can move on one way or the other. I'm so sorry your dealing with this uncertainty my love. ((HUGS)) I'm here any time if you want to talk okay? You know how to find me

MrsHamon09 · August 2013

@MsAmandaPants ((HUGS))

gingerkid9989 · August 2013

@MsAmandaPants lots of ((HUGS)). Sorry you are in limbo. FX for your BFP.

ksyknelvr73 · August 2013

AnyMax said:

@MsAmandaPants (((hugs)))

Ditto this @MsAmandaPants. So many ((HUGS)).

LaRomana09 · August 2013

ksyknelvr73 said:

AnyMax said:

@MsAmandaPants (((hugs)))
Ditto this @MsAmandaPants. So many ((HUGS)).

Piling on some more (((HUGS)))

HeyMrsPotter · August 2013

@MsAmandaPants - ((HUGS)).

*** Previous Pregnancy/Loss Mentioned ***

Crazy level from 1-10: 9

CD/DPO: CD 25/12 DPO (edited for completeness and also fixed typos below)

Can I just ______ already?!: Know my fate -- AF or BFP?!?

Signs/Symptoms: Some signs are normal LP things for me and don't mean much: nausea, bloating, cramping. Others are not: I'm 1 day past my normal LP length, have sore boobs, and fatigue. I'm also having symptoms like I did with my loss: sensitive teeth and extreme thirst. But, I got BFNs both yesterday and today. That said, with my loss, I didn't get a BFP until 15dpo.

Explain your Crazy here: I'm looking for some temping help today, ladies. My insomnia is screwing things up and adding to the crazy for me today. Because I don't know if I'll sleep/when I'll wake up, I've been temping anytime I have 3 hours of sleep. I had three less-than perfect attempts at that last night and am looking for advice on which to put in my chart.

Temping fail #1 - 98.4 after 2 hours of sleep

I woke up at what I thought was 1:30 AM after going to sleep at 9:30. Temp was high for me: 98.4. Great, right?!

...Not so much. I realized my view of the alarm clock had been obstructed and I'd missed a 1 on the time display. It was only 11:30, not 1:30, so that temp really came after only 2 hours, not 3. I tried to fall back to sleep hoping for a better chance at a reliable temp.

Temping fail #2 - 97.8 after 2hrs 40 min of sleep

I was up until about 2:20 and woke up at 5:00, so still not a full 3 hours. At this point, I saw the heart-sinking temp drop that I was hoping to avoid. I was at 97.8. I recorded it.

I then set my alarm for 8:30 (which would make me late for work, but whatever) still hoping to get 3 hours in...

Temping fail #3 - 98.4 after 3-ish hrs of poor sleep

I didn't fall asleep until about 5:15, and I woke up at about 8:10, so I still had just less than 3 hours. And it wasn't great sleep because DH and my dog were making noise when they got up. But, the temp was higher again, at 98.4.

I know the most important thing is that AF isn't here yet, so as PPs have said on this thread today, I'm not out yet. But that temp drop on my second attempt knocked the wind out of my sails. The uncertainty is killing me. Which temp would you record?

Sorry for the long, tedious story. As thanks for listening, here are some cookies:

PinkCamino · August 2013

HeyMrsPotter said:

@MsAmandaPants - ((HUGS)).

*** Previous Pregnancy/Loss Mentioned ***

Crazy level from 1-10: 9

CD/DPO: CD 25/12 DPO (edited for completeness and also fixed typos below)

Can I just ______ already?!: Know my fate -- AF or BFP?!?

Signs/Symptoms: Some signs are normal LP things for me and don't mean much: nausea, bloating, cramping. Others are not: I'm 1 day past my normal LP length, have sore boobs, and fatigue. I'm also having symptoms like I did with my loss: sensitive teeth and extreme thirst. But, I got BFNs both yesterday and today. That said, with my loss, I didn't get a BFP until 15dpo.

Explain your Crazy here: I'm looking for some temping help today, ladies. My insomnia is screwing things up and adding to the crazy for me today. Because I don't know if I'll sleep/when I'll wake up, I've been temping anytime I have 3 hours of sleep. I had three less-than perfect attempts at that last night and am looking for advice on which to put in my chart.

Temping fail #1 - 98.4 after 2 hours of sleep
I woke up at what I thought was 1:30 AM after going to sleep at 9:30. Temp was high for me: 98.4. Great, right?!

...Not so much. I realized my view of the alarm clock had been obstructed and I'd missed a 1 on the time display. It was only 11:30, not 1:30, so that temp really came after only 2 hours, not 3. I tried to fall back to sleep hoping for a better chance at a reliable temp.

Temping fail #2 - 97.8 after 2hrs 40 min of sleep
I was up until about 2:20 and woke up at 5:00, so still not a full 3 hours. At this point, I saw the heart-sinking temp drop that I was hoping to avoid. I was at 97.8. I recorded it.

I then set my alarm for 8:30 (which would make me late for work, but whatever) still hoping to get 3 hours in...

Temping fail #3 - 98.4 after 3-ish hrs of poor sleep
I didn't fall asleep until about 5:15, and I woke up at about 8:10, so I still had just less than 3 hours. And it wasn't great sleep because DH and my dog were making noise when they got up. But, the temp was higher again, at 98.4.

I know the most important thing is that AF isn't here yet, so as PPs have said on this thread today, I'm not out yet. But that temp drop on my second attempt knocked the wind out of my sails. The uncertainty is killing me. Which temp would you record?

Sorry for the long, tedious story. As thanks for listening, here are some cookies:

Oh gosh! ((HUGS))

TBH none of those are reliable

But, if I had to choose I'd likely go with the second one only because it was the closest to the 3 hour sleep mark than the others. I'm so sorry you're dealing with a)insomnia and b)limbo. Both are so so frustrating. FX you get an answer one way or another soon.

Amores0121 · August 2013

@msamandapants- ((hugs)) I'm so sorry for your BFN.

Amores0121 · August 2013

Crazy level from 1-10: 10

CD/DPO: CD 31

Can I just ______ already?!: ovulate

Signs/Symptoms: +opk 2 days ago, 2 almost positive opks for the last two days; lots of what I thought were ovulation pains

Explain your Crazy here: CD 29 is the latest I've ever O'd so it looks like I'm going to have a new record or not ovulate at all. F*** this shit is all I can say!! All I can think today is that I should be taking care of a newborn instead of worrying about why the hell I'm not ovulating!!

PinkCamino · August 2013

Amores0121 said:

Crazy level from 1-10: 10

CD/DPO: CD 31

Can I just ______ already?!: ovulate

Signs/Symptoms: +opk 2 days ago, 2 almost positive opks for the last two days; lots of what I thought were ovulation pains

Explain your Crazy here: CD 29 is the latest I've ever O'd so it looks like I'm going to have a new record or not ovulate at all. F*** this shit is all I can say!! All I can think today is that I should be taking care of a newborn instead of worrying about why the hell I'm not ovulating!!

((hugs)) Amores. I just had a look at your chart. FX for a high temp tomorrow. Have you tried plugging in a dummy temp? Would it give you CHs ? I'm so sorry you're dealing with this. So so frustrating.

HeyMrsPotter · August 2013

Pink Camino said:

*snip*

Oh gosh! ((HUGS))

TBH none of those are reliable But, if I had to choose I'd likely go with the second one only because it was the closest to the 3 hour sleep mark than the others. I'm so sorry you're dealing with a)insomnia and b)limbo. Both are so so frustrating. FX you get an answer one way or another soon.

Thanks, @Pink Camino. ETA: I thought the same when I recorded the second one. I will probably just keep it there.

Amores0121, hugs to you. I hope you get your temp shift tomorrow.

MsAmandaPants · August 2013

Thanks for all the love and (((hugs))) everyone. I appreciate them (and could use them). xoxo

MollySm · August 2013

LaRomana09 said:

ksyknelvr73 said:

AnyMax said:

@MsAmandaPants (((hugs)))
Ditto this @MsAmandaPants. So many ((HUGS)).

Piling on some more (((HUGS)))
And more ((hugs))

SuperKim13 · August 2013

MollySm said:

ksyknelvr73 said:

AnyMax said:

@MsAmandaPants (((hugs)))
Ditto this @MsAmandaPants. So many ((HUGS)).

Piling on some more (((HUGS)))
And more ((hugs))

((((((MsAmandaPants))))))

SuperKim13 · August 2013

Choo choo! I'll take a ride today...

Level of Crazy: 7

CD: 15

Can I just O and get pregnant already?!?

Signs/Symptoms: CM getting watery, very negative OPKs, low CP, tired and cranky

Explain your Crazy here: I let myself get my hopes up that this cycle would be back to my "old normal" and that I would O today and have a pretty little 28 day chart and that would mean that I was really ready to be pregnant. That the last few months it didn't work out only because my body hadn't fully healed yet. I know that in reality it doesn't matter if I O today or in a week or in two weeks (please, no!), but in my mind, I'm bummed.

Also, with the wedding anniversary coming up, I cant help but recall how I assumed we'd have a baby, or at least be pregnant by now! Boy was I naive....

clh4444 · August 2013

Can I ride the train even if its not cycle related ? Maybe I should go find the vent thread but I'm mobile so can you forgive a little vent since it is making me crazy.

Plus pg mentioned.... Not mine

I get that you are excited about your new grandson but every day this week at work the lunch conversation is only about babies, breast feeding, more babies, labor, more babies. I can't take it anymore. I have nothing to contribute and I want to eat lunch in peace for chrissakes. I guess I will being lonely in my room during lunch the rest of this week.

MsAmandaPants · August 2013

HeyMrsPotter said:

@MsAmandaPants - ((HUGS)).

*** Previous Pregnancy/Loss Mentioned ***

Crazy level from 1-10: 9

CD/DPO: CD 25/12 DPO (edited for completeness and also fixed typos below)

Can I just ______ already?!: Know my fate -- AF or BFP?!?

Signs/Symptoms: Some signs are normal LP things for me and don't mean much: nausea, bloating, cramping. Others are not: I'm 1 day past my normal LP length, have sore boobs, and fatigue. I'm also having symptoms like I did with my loss: sensitive teeth and extreme thirst. But, I got BFNs both yesterday and today. That said, with my loss, I didn't get a BFP until 15dpo.

Explain your Crazy here: I'm looking for some temping help today, ladies. My insomnia is screwing things up and adding to the crazy for me today. Because I don't know if I'll sleep/when I'll wake up, I've been temping anytime I have 3 hours of sleep. I had three less-than perfect attempts at that last night and am looking for advice on which to put in my chart.

Temping fail #1 - 98.4 after 2 hours of sleep
I woke up at what I thought was 1:30 AM after going to sleep at 9:30. Temp was high for me: 98.4. Great, right?!

...Not so much. I realized my view of the alarm clock had been obstructed and I'd missed a 1 on the time display. It was only 11:30, not 1:30, so that temp really came after only 2 hours, not 3. I tried to fall back to sleep hoping for a better chance at a reliable temp.

Temping fail #2 - 97.8 after 2hrs 40 min of sleep
I was up until about 2:20 and woke up at 5:00, so still not a full 3 hours. At this point, I saw the heart-sinking temp drop that I was hoping to avoid. I was at 97.8. I recorded it.

I then set my alarm for 8:30 (which would make me late for work, but whatever) still hoping to get 3 hours in...

Temping fail #3 - 98.4 after 3-ish hrs of poor sleep
I didn't fall asleep until about 5:15, and I woke up at about 8:10, so I still had just less than 3 hours. And it wasn't great sleep because DH and my dog were making noise when they got up. But, the temp was higher again, at 98.4.

I know the most important thing is that AF isn't here yet, so as PPs have said on this thread today, I'm not out yet. But that temp drop on my second attempt knocked the wind out of my sails. The uncertainty is killing me. Which temp would you record?

Sorry for the long, tedious story. As thanks for listening, here are some cookies:

I am no help with the temping stuff, but we're in the same sucky boat with limboland and wanting to just find out what comes next. I have my fingers crossed for you!

MsAmandaPants · August 2013

SuperKim13 said:

Choo choo! I'll take a ride today...

Level of Crazy: 7

CD: 15

Can I just O and get pregnant already?!?

Signs/Symptoms: CM getting watery, very negative OPKs, low CP, tired and cranky

Explain your Crazy here: I let myself get my hopes up that this cycle would be back to my "old normal" and that I would O today and have a pretty little 28 day chart and that would mean that I was really ready to be pregnant. That the last few months it didn't work out only because my body hadn't fully healed yet. I know that in reality it doesn't matter if I O today or in a week or in two weeks (please, no!), but in my mind, I'm bummed.

Also, with the wedding anniversary coming up, I cant help but recall how I assumed we'd have a baby, or at least be pregnant by now! Boy was I naive....

(((hugs)))

Mr. & Mrs. Woodtick · August 2013

@MsAmandaPants ((HUGS))

blackbird818 · August 2013

SuperKim13 said:

Choo choo! I'll take a ride today...

Level of Crazy: 7

CD: 15

Can I just O and get pregnant already?!?

Signs/Symptoms: CM getting watery, very negative OPKs, low CP, tired and cranky

Explain your Crazy here: I let myself get my hopes up that this cycle would be back to my "old normal" and that I would O today and have a pretty little 28 day chart and that would mean that I was really ready to be pregnant. That the last few months it didn't work out only because my body hadn't fully healed yet. I know that in reality it doesn't matter if I O today or in a week or in two weeks (please, no!), but in my mind, I'm bummed.

Also, with the wedding anniversary coming up, I cant help but recall how I assumed we'd have a baby, or at least be pregnant by now! Boy was I naive....

Big (((HUGS))) hun!! FX you O very very soon!

And I know exactly what you mean about the wedding anniversary. We just had ours, and I had assumed the same thing.
8-> Naive big time

HeyMrsPotter · August 2013

MsAmandaPants said:

HeyMrsPotter said:

*snip*

I am no help with the temping stuff, but we're in the same sucky boat with limboland and wanting to just find out what comes next. I have my fingers crossed for you!

Thanks, @MsAmandaPants. It's good to have company in this sucky boat. My fingers are crossed for you, too.

PinkCamino · August 2013

Choo choo! I'll take a ride today...

Level of Crazy: 7

CD: 15

Can I just O and get pregnant already?!?

Signs/Symptoms: CM getting watery, very negative OPKs, low CP, tired and cranky

Explain your Crazy here: I let myself get my hopes up that this cycle would be back to my "old normal" and that I would O today and have a pretty little 28 day chart and that would mean that I was really ready to be pregnant. That the last few months it didn't work out only because my body hadn't fully healed yet. I know that in reality it doesn't matter if I O today or in a week or in two weeks (please, no!), but in my mind, I'm bummed.

Also, with the wedding anniversary coming up, I cant help but recall how I assumed we'd have a baby, or at least be pregnant by now! Boy was I naive....

I'm so sorry. This entire process comes with so much false hope and disappointment. FX you I soon. ((HUGS))

MollySm · August 2013

HeyMrsPotter said:

@MsAmandaPants - ((HUGS)).

*** Previous Pregnancy/Loss Mentioned ***

Crazy level from 1-10: 9

CD/DPO: CD 25/12 DPO (edited for completeness and also fixed typos below)

Can I just ______ already?!: Know my fate -- AF or BFP?!?

Signs/Symptoms: Some signs are normal LP things for me and don't mean much: nausea, bloating, cramping. Others are not: I'm 1 day past my normal LP length, have sore boobs, and fatigue. I'm also having symptoms like I did with my loss: sensitive teeth and extreme thirst. But, I got BFNs both yesterday and today. That said, with my loss, I didn't get a BFP until 15dpo.

Explain your Crazy here: I'm looking for some temping help today, ladies. My insomnia is screwing things up and adding to the crazy for me today. Because I don't know if I'll sleep/when I'll wake up, I've been temping anytime I have 3 hours of sleep. I had three less-than perfect attempts at that last night and am looking for advice on which to put in my chart.

Temping fail #1 - 98.4 after 2 hours of sleep
I woke up at what I thought was 1:30 AM after going to sleep at 9:30. Temp was high for me: 98.4. Great, right?!

...Not so much. I realized my view of the alarm clock had been obstructed and I'd missed a 1 on the time display. It was only 11:30, not 1:30, so that temp really came after only 2 hours, not 3. I tried to fall back to sleep hoping for a better chance at a reliable temp.

Temping fail #2 - 97.8 after 2hrs 40 min of sleep
I was up until about 2:20 and woke up at 5:00, so still not a full 3 hours. At this point, I saw the heart-sinking temp drop that I was hoping to avoid. I was at 97.8. I recorded it.

I then set my alarm for 8:30 (which would make me late for work, but whatever) still hoping to get 3 hours in...

Temping fail #3 - 98.4 after 3-ish hrs of poor sleep
I didn't fall asleep until about 5:15, and I woke up at about 8:10, so I still had just less than 3 hours. And it wasn't great sleep because DH and my dog were making noise when they got up. But, the temp was higher again, at 98.4.

I know the most important thing is that AF isn't here yet, so as PPs have said on this thread today, I'm not out yet. But that temp drop on my second attempt knocked the wind out of my sails. The uncertainty is killing me. Which temp would you record?

Sorry for the long, tedious story. As thanks for listening, here are some cookies:

I've made the mistake of too many temps before. It sucks. I would just wait for tomorrow, see what that temp is. It's not going to do you any good to stress over today's temp. Butt I know that is easier said than done! ((Hugs))

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