I had a really scary ugly emergency c-section with my daughter, it still makes me cry/scares me but we're trying to plan for this next one. A vbac is considered high risk for me so I would have to deliver with a new doctor and at a hospital much farther away from home.
My husband is being wonderful and just supporting my decision but I'm struggling. I really wanted a natural birth with a healthy child last time and that didn't happen via c-section. I'm just so worried about making the wrong decision again. I think I really missed something with the birth of my daughter and don't want that to happen again.
Re: VBAC?
I am also considering a VBAC after a somewhat emergency C-Section due to fetal distress. I switched doctors to a midwives group and have to drive 2.5 hours for appointments as well as the hospital that I will hopefully be delivering at. I am not considered high risk and am doing it for hopefully an easier recovery as well as the hopes of having 3 children (currently have no living children and have had 1 c-section.).
Last time I was in labor for 20+ hours, pushed for 2 1/2 and we lost the baby's heartbeat so had to move very very fast. But I had my girl so far down it took 15 minutes to pull her out of the birth canal, which meant the general had hit her and she was born not breathing and took about 20 minutes of cpr and oxygen to get her going again.
I thought we made the right decisions last time but looking back we made a lot of bad ones.
I completely understand wanting to have a vaginal and/or natural birth. Having a c/s with my DD was emotionally difficult for me -- and, some days, continues to be difficult for me. I am not sure if I would be gung-ho VBAC if I were not a good candidate. I would be afraid of a traumatic emergency c/s, the surgery and recovery from which might very well be much more difficult than a planned c/s.
I wish you luck with whatever you decide!