Hi everyone. I got a BFP last Thurs my numbers were 200, 400 on Saturday, then drop to 250 yesterday, Monday. Dr said prepare for a miscarriage and this was most likely a chemical pregnancy. I had 1 miscarriage at 9 weeks in 2011 and delivered a healthy beautiful DD in Aug 2012. I don't know what to feel, obviously feeling sadness. I feel numb and angry like my mind is not accepting it and trying to trick itself into thinking it didn't even happen, like I was never even pregnant. The reality hasn't hit me yet that I was PG and then had an early miscarriage. The family we told is very kind and supportive. I am needing to move on today, but I just don't even know what to do with myself?! I am positive and am thinking we will have another successful pregnancy. Of course we want to try again as soon as possible!! I want to try even before I get AF, it sounds like every Dr has a different recommendation on whether to wait or not after a CP. I had bloody discharge on Sunday and again this morning, but nothing to heavy yet, it is not even collecting on a pad. I always loved to test early, but I don't know if I want to know anymore and will wait until 1 week after maybe? I don't know if that will help though because even if I did get that reassurance I could still miscarry. This is a very jumbled post, I guess I just needed to get all these thoughts out of my head! I am nursing my 1 year old still, so I am wondering if that could be a reason and I never even had AF. DH & I just decided to start TTC in July and must of O'd the end of July. Tips on accepting this and moving on, I want to stay busy with something so I don't think of it constantly. I hate the old mantra that time heals all, but it does. It is one of things that is so painful in these moments/days, but I want to look forward to our next possibility to try already! Thanks for letting me say my peace this morning.
BFP #1: 8-24-11 MMC: 8 weeks 6 days D&C
BFP #2: 12-9-11 Beautiful DD Born: 8-19-12
BFP #3: 8-22-13 Chemical Pregnancy: 4 weeks
BFP #4: 1-1-14 Praying Daily for H&H 9 Months
~Always Remembering our Angel Babies~