I lurked here a bit after my loss in May.
5/23/13: We went in for a follow-up ultrasound after a slow(er) HB was detected at 6 weeks (95bpm). We were optimistic, but still cautious. I was supposed to be 7 weeks when we went in on 5/30 but the baby had stopped growing at 6w2d and had no HB. I had a D&C on 5/31, which was not nearly as painful as I was expecting. It was so hard, but we slowly moved on. DX- Missed Miscarraige.
Fast forward to July 13th. I get a blaring postive test after thinking my period was about to show. OMG! Total shocker, really. Betas looked great, U/S at 5wks showed everything on track! U/S at 6wks detected IDENTICAL TWINS. HOLY SHIT. We were SO excited, and shocked, and a bit scared. But again, so optimistic! We went in at 8w (8/16) for a follow up U/S to make sure all was well, and the ultrasound showed nothing. No babies. No heartbeats. Nothing. We were/are devestated. The U/S showed a bleed around my uterus, which the doctor told me that meant my body was gearing up to miscarry naturally.
I miscarried this past Wednesday. It was the most horribly painful thing I have ever gone through. I had no idea I would be having contractions, and labor-like pains. And I also had NO idea I'd be taking Lortab to ease the physical pain. I have stopped bleeding and cramping now, but the emotional pain won't ever go away I don't think.
This sucks so much, but we are SO blessed to already have a perfect (almost) 3 year old little lady. She is our world. We want to give her a sibling so badly, but at this point we aren't sure when we will try again. I want to get my body back. Regulate my cycle and emotionally heal from this shitty, traumatic summer.
I'm so sad we are here, but this board has been a great healing method.
Sorry this is so long. Just wanted to get my story out there, as it helps a bit with the pain.
(Also, I'm not sure how my siggy is going to look when I post this, so I apologize in advance if it's a mess)