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I guess I'll introduce myself (older child mentioned).

I lurked here a bit after my loss in May.

5/23/13: We went in for a follow-up ultrasound after a slow(er) HB was detected at 6 weeks (95bpm). We were optimistic, but still cautious. I was supposed to be 7 weeks when we went in on 5/30 but the baby had stopped growing at 6w2d and had no HB. I had a D&C on 5/31, which was not nearly as painful as I was expecting. It was so hard, but we slowly moved on. DX- Missed Miscarraige.

Fast forward to July 13th. I get a blaring postive test after thinking my period was about to show. OMG! Total shocker, really. Betas looked great, U/S at 5wks showed everything on track! U/S at 6wks detected IDENTICAL TWINS. HOLY SHIT. We were SO excited, and shocked, and a bit scared. But again, so optimistic! We went in at 8w (8/16) for a follow up U/S to make sure all was well, and the ultrasound showed nothing. No babies. No heartbeats. Nothing. We were/are devestated. The U/S showed a bleed around my uterus, which the doctor told me that meant my body was gearing up to miscarry naturally.

I miscarried this past Wednesday. It was the most horribly painful thing I have ever gone through. I had no idea I would be having contractions, and labor-like pains. And I also had  NO idea I'd be taking Lortab to ease the physical pain. I have stopped bleeding and cramping now, but the emotional pain won't ever go away I don't think.

This sucks so much, but we are SO blessed to already have a perfect (almost) 3 year old little lady. She is our world. We want to give her a sibling so badly, but at this point we aren't sure when we will try again. I want to get my body back. Regulate my cycle and emotionally heal from this shitty, traumatic summer.

I'm so sad we are here, but this board has been a great healing method.

Sorry this is so long. Just wanted to get my story out there, as it helps a bit with the pain.

 

(Also, I'm not sure how my siggy is going to look when I post this, so I apologize in advance if it's a mess)

Re: I guess I'll introduce myself (older child mentioned).

  • I'm so sorry for your losses. ((HUGS))

    BFP #1 - 7/24/2013 (EDD: 3/31/2014) - mmc 8/12/13 - D&C 8/15/2013

    BFP #2 - 3/6/2014 (EDD 11/14/2014) - Beta #1 (17dpo): 1400 - Beta #2 (19dpo): 3170

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  • Thank you so much. And yes, I totally agree that knowing we aren't alone is very helpful.

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  • I am so so sorry for your loses. What a horrible summer. ((Hugs))
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  • Our summers are very similar. I'm so sorry you're going through this too. Prayers and hugs.
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    BFP 8/13/13 - Natural MC 8/27/13
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  • I'm so sorry for your losses. I hope your LO is a great source of happiness for you during this time. I know our DD has been our shining star through this.

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    BFP#2 7/3/13.  U/S at 6w4d showed 1 heartbeat at 127 bmp and 2 empty sacs.  MMC discovered at 10w4d.  D&C 8/27/13.  Pathology showed normal boy.  Missing our babies every day.
    BFP#3 10/29/13!  Beta#1 at 4w5d - 2141, beta#2 at 5w1d - 7651!  U/S 11/21/13 showed baby measuring 2 days ahead with a heartbeat of 127 bmp!
  • Thank you all SO much. Your kind words mean a lot :)
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    I'm so sorry for your losses, I can't imagine how heartbreaking back to back losses must be. Hug your little tight, it always makes me feel better to do that with my girls. (((Hugs)))!
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