I lurked here a bit after my loss in May.
5/23/13: We went in for a follow-up ultrasound after a slow(er) HB was detected at 6 weeks (95bpm). We were optimistic, but still cautious. I was supposed to be 7 weeks when we went in on 5/30 but the baby had stopped growing at 6w2d and had no HB. I had a D&C on 5/31, which was not nearly as painful as I was expecting. It was so hard, but we slowly moved on. DX- Missed Miscarraige.
Fast forward to July 13th. I get a blaring postive test after thinking my period was about to show. OMG! Total shocker, really. Betas looked great, U/S at 5wks showed everything on track! U/S at 6wks detected IDENTICAL TWINS. HOLY SHIT. We were SO excited, and shocked, and a bit scared. But again, so optimistic! We went in at 8w (8/16) for a follow up U/S to make sure all was well, and the ultrasound showed nothing. No babies. No heartbeats. Nothing. We were/are devestated. The U/S showed a bleed around my uterus, which the doctor told me that meant my body was gearing up to miscarry naturally.
I miscarried this past Wednesday. It was the most horribly painful thing I have ever gone through. I had no idea I would be having contractions, and labor-like pains. And I also had NO idea I'd be taking Lortab to ease the physical pain. I have stopped bleeding and cramping now, but the emotional pain won't ever go away I don't think.
This sucks so much, but we are SO blessed to already have a perfect (almost) 3 year old little lady. She is our world. We want to give her a sibling so badly, but at this point we aren't sure when we will try again. I want to get my body back. Regulate my cycle and emotionally heal from this shitty, traumatic summer.
I'm so sad we are here, but this board has been a great healing method.
Sorry this is so long. Just wanted to get my story out there, as it helps a bit with the pain.
(Also, I'm not sure how my siggy is going to look when I post this, so I apologize in advance if it's a mess)
Re: I guess I'll introduce myself (older child mentioned).
BFP #1 - 7/24/2013 (EDD: 3/31/2014) - mmc 8/12/13 - D&C 8/15/2013
BFP #2 - 3/6/2014 (EDD 11/14/2014) - Beta #1 (17dpo): 1400 - Beta #2 (19dpo): 3170
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Thank you so much. And yes, I totally agree that knowing we aren't alone is very helpful.
BFP 08/14/13 EDD 04/18/14 Natural MC 08/19/13
BFP 10/15/13 EDD 06/24/2014 Natural MC 10/23/13
Recurrent Miscarriage Panel done 11/06/13. Results= All normal
BFP 12/2/13 EDD July 30, 2014
Beta 12/3/13: 19,261!
U/S 12/13/13 heart rate 143 bpm!
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BFP#3 10/29/13! Beta#1 at 4w5d - 2141, beta#2 at 5w1d - 7651! U/S 11/21/13 showed baby measuring 2 days ahead with a heartbeat of 127 bmp!