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XP - Question for Teachers

Drea926Drea926 member
in February 2013 Moms
I posted this on the WM board, but I know there are a lot of teachers (past and present) on our BMB.

I start back teaching on the 3rd after being off since February when my LO was born. I'm getting anxious about going back. 

I love my job and it was a big adjustment going on maternity leave, but now I feel like I've gone full circle and became so used to being home. I know teachers are really lucky in terms of hours, but I broke down in tears last night thinking about the fact that our DCP (whom I really like) will be seeing DS more hours a day than me. I can't get over the paranoia that DS will think I've abandoned him.

Sorry this is so rambly. I guess I'm just asking how you made your peace with it all. I truly enjoy teaching and there's a small part of me excited for the upcoming year, but I love my little guy so much and feel heartbroken about leaving him.

Thanks for reading - just needed to throw all this out here. 

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  • DublinMamaDublinMama member
    I cried my eyes out all the way from the DCP to the high school where the district opening day meeting was. I had to park in the furthest lot back where nobody was yet so I could continue to have a meltdown and call my mother out of plain sight. But I will share with you the exact message my cousin sent me on FB, when I posted a status that basically told everyone I would be crying all day so please bear with me lol.

    "So this day sucks and there is nothing anyone can say that will make it better. It sucked for me every time with all three. But- the flip is you are setting such an amazing example for him. A great mom- supporting her family. I see it now it was really hard then- and still is most days. BUT it's good for my girls especially, and me to see all we are capable of. Good luck!!!"

    Now, I will highlight this by saying I by NO means think that I am above anyone who SAH or that moms who do are not setting a good example by doing so. But I don't have a choice. I have to work. So if I do have to be away from my son, this is the mantra I am using to help me deal with it.
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  • snok83snok83 member
    Completely understand and could have written this same post 2 weeks ago. I did okay for all of our training/ meeting days. But totally had a meltdown my first day w kids. I questioned if I should have stayed home. Had feelings of guilt bc I went from spending all day w my girl to only 2-3 hrs a day now. Doesn't help that my girl started falling asleep so much earlier since starting daycare.

    I just try to value the time I do have w her. I also try not to do all of my classroom work until after she is in bed. We have been in school and it gets a little better bc I become engrossed in work while I am there but I do leave as soon as I can and count my days til wkd and holidays.
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  • Drea926Drea926 member
    Thanks so much for your support ladies. I think the anticipation of this is worse.

    My mom SAH but what I remember of that was that she was home when I got home from school...well I'll be home for DS after school so I guess I'm pretty fortunate!

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  • asoetengaasoetenga member
    I start school on Monday, but Henry started daycare this past Monday. Best decision ever. It gave me time to adjust to being without him instead of trying to get into the school year and adjust to being without him. I only cried for a split second this week. If helps my DCP sends pictures throughout the day as well. I know next week would've been a heck of a lot harder so I'm glad we did it this way.
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  • pitterpatter129pitterpatter129 member
    I'm not going back this year, but with DS1, it wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be.  Really, you will be SO busy, you won't have time to think much about it.  Once school finally calms down, it will already be routine.  The only times I got weepy were when I went to pump because I missed just feeding my baby.  I usually bumped on my phone though while pumping, so it became an anticipated break because if I wasn't pumping there were NO breaks! 
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  • Drea926Drea926 member
    pitterpatter129 said:
    I'm not going back this year, but with DS1, it wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be.  Really, you will be SO busy, you won't have time to think much about it.  Once school finally calms down, it will already be routine.  The only times I got weepy were when I went to pump because I missed just feeding my baby.  I usually bumped on my phone though while pumping, so it became an anticipated break because if I wasn't pumping there were NO breaks! 
    This is what I'm hoping for...I keep telling myself I'll be too busy taking care of other people's crying children. :P It's my 6th graders first year in middle school, and yes some of them cry and it's usually the boys...

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