I'm having a hard time right now for so many reasons and don't know how to solve any of them ! First, I'm having a tough time back at work. It's been 3 mos and not getting easier . I'm gone 12 hrs a day and feel like I have no time with DS let alone for myself or to get anything done . I feel stressed all the time. I don't have to work necessarily but in order for me to stay home we would need to make big adjustments , including moving (which isn't the end of the world I know and def something we are talking abt ).
Next, DS is an awful night time sleeper . He was great from 3 to 4.5 mos, awful til 6 mos, STTN all last week and then the last 2 nights have been brutal. Idk if its his shots from Friday or the fact that we got in a small car accident sat (someone hit us while we were stopped in traffic- we are all ok thank god) or everything else his 6 mo old little self is facing. Whatever it is , he's so off and we are so tired . There is no real point to this other than I feel like I'm reaching a breaking point and not sure where to make changes first. i feel like i need a day to myself to totally veg, but when i think about a day without ds i get sad bc i barely see him all week i dont want to be away from him the only time we get together. When i want to quit work i think about all the things we would have to give up, not just material things but my 401k and saving substabtially for college, etc. i feel like no matter what its a lose lose situation . Thank goodness for a loving and supportive DH.. And for wine ...
Thanks for listening !
Re: At my wits end ... Long rant
When they say after children your life just isn't your own anymore they weren't joking. Time for some serious soul searching here. Wish me luck!