Parenting after a Loss

*Update* T&P request for ultrasound tomorrow

katigoxkatigox member
edited August 2013 in Parenting after a Loss
Hi ladies, 

I'm sorry I haven't been around since like Saturday (or was it Friday?).  The closer we get to this ultrasound, the more my anxiety has been building.
It doesn't help that (though we didn't find out till 1. Sep. 2011), our first baby died mid-August in a MMC.  And tomorrow, I'll be staring at that ultrasound screen, just praying that I don't see that same image of another dead baby.  I'm usually pretty good about reaching out when I need help - but the last couple of days, I've just been snuggling my baby more and more, and trying to focus on the positive.  

But I'll admit, we're 13 hours and counting away from either getting great news, or devastating news; and I'm downright scared that history will repeat itself here.  
Any thoughts and prayers that you can spare my way for some sticky dust, and my nerves, I'd appreciate it!  Of course, I'll update as soon as I have news (of any kind to share).  Thanks in advance <3

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BFP #1 06.20.11 I EDD 03.22.12 I MMC 09.01.11 (baby measured 6w4d) I D&C 09.07.11
BFP #2 02.21.12 I EDD 10.29.12 I DS born 11.06.12

Surprise BFP #3 07.27.13 I EDD 04.02.14 I Stick baby stick!
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Re: *Update* T&amp;P request for ultrasound tomorrow

  • Sending many goid vibes your way for a wonderful ultrasound. I conpletely get it. We found our that we lost DS1 at our AS and I will never get past that image on the screen. Every ultrasound, including the one at 36 weeks was so stressful for me. I actually had panic attacks just at the thought of having an ultrasound.

    Big HUGS for tomorrow!!!

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    BFP #1: 8/4/11; DS1 born sleeping on 11/16/11 at 19w1d

    BFP # 2: 5/7/12, EDD 1/10/13, DS2 born 1/4/13

    BFP # 3: 11/8/13, EDD 7/17/14, mmc 10wks

    BFP # 4: 5/16/14, EDD 1/15/15, praying for our 2nd rainbow baby 

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  • Good luck tomorrow!!! Sending tons of positive vibes!!
    Loss #1: 18w5d.. D&E 04Mar03 BFP #2: Jun2011.. missed miscarriage. D&C 08Jul2011 8w4d. BFP #3: Nov2011.. Our Rainbow Baby!!! DS Born: 15Jul2012! BFP #4: Nov2012.. 2U1 - DS2 born 12Jul2013.  BFP #5: 01Jan2014..3U3!!

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  • Sending prayers and good vibes your way! I think your fear comes naturally with being PgAL, unfortunately. I vomited after two of my ultrasounds with Lisa, even though everything was fine. Hang in there, tomorrow will be here soon!
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  • Good luck!!! Sending u tones of positive vibes!! Looking forward to a great update!!!!:)

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    BFP#1 D&C May 18th 2012 at 9 wks. EDD Dec 17 2012
    BFP#2 CP Sept 17th 2012 at 4.5 wks. EDD May 23 2013
    BFP#3 EDD June 24th 2013 IT'S A GIRL!
    BFP#4 EDD March 2 2015
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  • Good luck!!! Sending u tones of positive vibes!! Looking forward to a great update!!!!:)

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    BFP#1 D&C May 18th 2012 at 9 wks. EDD Dec 17 2012
    BFP#2 CP Sept 17th 2012 at 4.5 wks. EDD May 23 2013
    BFP#3 EDD June 24th 2013 IT'S A GIRL!
    BFP#4 EDD March 2 2015
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  • All positive T&P coming your way!

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    BFP #1 5/2010 - Missed m/c at 8 weeks
    BFP #2 2/2011
    Baby G welcomed with love and relief 10/2011
    Surprise BFP 1/8/2013...say what? Baby A arrived 9/2013

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  • T&Ps!  I had a mmc with my first, and I was always crazy anxious with all the u/s I had with DS.  Even when I felt him moving. 
  • good luck today!


      Our Angel Patricia born sleeping 3/30/12 at 31 weeks
    Our Fighter Anna born early 1/8/13 at 26 weeks
    Hoping to bring home #3 due 9/9/15
  • T&P sent. Looking forward to a good news update later today.
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    I hope everything is ok, I have my fingers crossed for you!
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    BFP#2 EDD 10/29/13, C/P 2/25/13, Bye little Ish, we barely got to know you.
    BFP#3 EDD 12/21/13, Baby Boots born 11/23/13 My rainbow baby!
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  • Sending you lots of T & Ps!
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  • T&P coming your way! I hope all goes well today, and look forward to your update later! 
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  • YAY!  Great update!  I'm so glad to hear it went well!

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  • :) Happy it went well. I think your current LO will help you occupy your time so it helps..... Although the AL moments never really go away. I still worry.;)
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    BFP #1 10-11-10 ectopic discovered 10-22-10, 10-23-10 methotrexate & emergency surgery, lost right tube BFP #2 12-1-10 Found to be tissue dropped from salingectomy or missed heterotopic pregnancy from BFP #1 BFP #3 1-30-11 DS arrived on due date 10-10-11 BFP #4 Surprise 9-3-12 EDD 5-9-13 DS2 arrived 5-5-13 BFP #5 5-14-14 Emergency D&C 6-16-14 9 weeks
  • Great update!! So glad it went well.
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    BFP 6.1.10 - 6.10.10 Ectopic M/C @ 5wks
    BFP 10.26.10 - 10.29.10 CP
    BFP 1.30.11 - CVS 3.28.11 (Girl) - EDD 10.11.11 - Born 10.6.11
    BFP 12.18.12 - 12.20.12 CP
    BFP 3.18.13 - CVS 5.21.13 (Girl) - EDD 12.2.13 - Born 11.24.13
    BFP 6.10.14 - CVS 7.2.14 (Girl) - EDD 1.12.15 - Born sleeping 8.6.14 @ 17w5d
  • SO happy for you!!! Excellent news!!! :D
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  • Yay!!! So, so happy everything went well and looked great! *keep growing LO!!*
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    BFP #2 11/3/10; BO at u/s 10w6d 12/16/10; Natural MC 1/7/11; D&C 4/21/11
    BFP #3 10/27/11 Please stick, LO!! 2/6/12 It's a Girl! Alexis Grace born 6/29/12
    BFP#4 4/27/14 Stick, stick, stick!! 8/11/14 It's a Boy! Evan Wesley born 1/8/15
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  • Sending lots of good vibes your way!
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  • Yay! Congrats and enjoy that nap momma!

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    Baby G welcomed with love and relief 10/2011
    Surprise BFP 1/8/2013...say what? Baby A arrived 9/2013

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  • Yay so happy for u!!

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    BFP#2 CP Sept 17th 2012 at 4.5 wks. EDD May 23 2013
    BFP#3 EDD June 24th 2013 IT'S A GIRL!
    BFP#4 EDD March 2 2015
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  • Congrats!!!

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    6.17.12 : 10 weeks


    10.10.12 : 4 weeks, 6 days


    12.13.12 : 9 weeks, 1 day


    4.6.13 : 4 weeks, 4 days


    10.27.13 : 5 weeks, 6 days


    4.2.14 (IVF #1) : 4 weeks, 1 day


    6.19.14 : IVF #2 Negative


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  • katigoxkatigox member
    edited August 2013
    Thank you all so much for the congrats, T&P that got sent our way, and encouragement :)

    We are cautiously optimistic, and though I'm sure every ultrasound from here on out is going to send my PGAL mind spinning . . . today I'm pregnant, and I love my baby <3

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    BFP #1 06.20.11 I EDD 03.22.12 I MMC 09.01.11 (baby measured 6w4d) I D&C 09.07.11
    BFP #2 02.21.12 I EDD 10.29.12 I DS born 11.06.12

    Surprise BFP #3 07.27.13 I EDD 04.02.14 I Stick baby stick!
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  • Awesome! Congrats!
    Natural m/c Oct. 2005

    Dx: balanced translocation and LPD

    TTC since Oct 2011

    BPF 02/19/12, EDD 10/31/12, natural m/c 02/28/12 (4w6d)

    IVF (BCPs starting 10/30/12, ER 11/18/12, 5dt of 1 beautiful, healthy embryo 11/23/12)
    BFP 12/02/12, u/s @ 6w,5d showed 2 HBs! Identical twins!!
    Bed rest from 21w-35w due to short cervix, hospital bed rest from 23w-32w due to PTL
    Our rainbows were born 07/19/13 (36w, 5d)

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  • Hooray!!! I'm so excited for you!!
    Loss #1: 18w5d.. D&E 04Mar03 BFP #2: Jun2011.. missed miscarriage. D&C 08Jul2011 8w4d. BFP #3: Nov2011.. Our Rainbow Baby!!! DS Born: 15Jul2012! BFP #4: Nov2012.. 2U1 - DS2 born 12Jul2013.  BFP #5: 01Jan2014..3U3!!

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