Seems like this is the place for me now-- moving over from the March 2014 board. I'm around 7 weeks now and started brown spotting last Tuesday. I called the midwife and had an ultrasound on Thursday, where I saw the heartbeat and the little tadpole that was measuring 6 weeks 3 day. The heartbeat was on the slow side of normal but I was still overjoyed and felt like we were out of the woods and the spotting would stop now that a heartbeat was confirmed.
But it didn't -- it continued and started to increase and now it is red spotting (and some clots) every time I pee. I have cramping, like period cramps, and have lost all my pregnancy symptoms. So I'm pretty sure this is it - now I'm just waiting for it to really happen. I am debating whether to go in to work today...on the one hand, it will be a good distraction - on the other hand if things progress I know I will want to be at home. I suppose I should call the midwife too but at this point I don't want to talk to anyone about it except DH. I want it to happen naturally and REALLY want to avoid the ER, or a D&C, or any type of intervention if I can. This feels so private, and I just want to be at home.
I'm almost 31, DH is 32 and this was our first pregnancy after 5 months of TTC. During the ultrasound they found that I have a mild birth defect called an "arcuate uterus" aka a funny-shaped uterus that dips down at the top. The midwife said it will put me at higher risk of miscarriage. I did some research and the evidence on that is mixed but it's not thrilling news when we are getting ready to go through a miscarriage now. It is scary, not knowing what is causing this pregnancy to end, whether it is due to my weird-shaped uterus, and whether this will continue to happen.
DH and I were so excited to become parents and I'm trying to stay hopeful that we will someday. We had only told a few friends and were planning to tell our families this weekend, but then the bleeding started. Part of me is wishing I had told them so I could lean on them a little bit -- now feel like such a downer telling them of the pregnancy in the context of losing it. All the mental plans we'd made for this baby have just gone up in smoke. I returned my "pregnancy and childbirth" book to the library yesterday...saddest library trip ever. Once this stupid process is over I will have a beer, and some sushi, and a good cry.
Thanks for listening and allowing me to be a part of this community. It helps to share this a bit and read your stories. Sending warm thoughts out to all of you as we grieve and heal together.

Married June 2012
TTC since February 2013
MC @ 7 weeks July 2013
BFP Oct 2013 - EDD June 7 2014!

Re: And so it begins...
I know I can duck out if I need to though.
I talk to everyone about it - I think it helps me to heal that my friends and family know what I am going through. My mom has already called me 4 times today.
BFP#2: EDD 2/11/14, MMC confirmed 7/15/13 (growth stopped at 6 weeks), D&C @ 12 weeks 7/25/13
BFP#1 6/27/13 EDD 3/5/14 MC 7/16/13
BFP#2 11/25/13 EDD 8/4/14
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Married June 2012
TTC since February 2013
MC @ 7 weeks July 2013
BFP Oct 2013 - EDD June 7 2014!
BFP 4/17/13, MC began 5/2/13 @ 6 weeks
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