*siggy warning* I haven't had access to a computer to delete it yet.
I would have been 18 weeks pregnant today.
On Saturday night I was trying to have a BM and was straining slightly. I felt a strange popping sensation in my vagina. I reached down and felt what seemed like a balloon almost protruding from down there.
I stopped trying to use the bathroom and my husband rushed me to the ER. it was 12:30 in the morning.
When we arrived, the ER doctor did a quick ultrasound and the baby was 100 percent okay. Just moving around, doing its thing.
He then did a vaginal examination and that's where it all went down hill. Apparently my gestational sac was coming out of my cervix. That was the balloon I felt earlier.
They called my OB in and they transferred me to the OB deptartment. Apparently, I had a slight tear in my placenta and that caused my body to go into labor mode. Causing my cervix to open slightly and the sac to come down. The worst part was that our baby was perfectly healthy. It was my body that betrayed me. It wanted to deliver and there was nothing anyone could do.
From there, they tipped my bed almost all the way back with hopes that gravity would help the sac go back into the uterus. I was laying there like this for a few hours when I had the urge to vomit and when I did, the pressure of it made my water break.
So that was it, I had no other option but to try and deliver my baby. Even though that meant it wouldn't survive outside of me.
I was put on pitosin and I was in labor for nearly 30 hours. I had barely progressed and on Monday morning we made the hard decision to have a D and C. I was mentally and physically exhausted. I just couldn't keep up anymore.
We lost our little one on Monday July 22nd at 8:00 am. It was a little girl.
I miss her.
Re: Lost our sweetheart.
I am so sorry for the loss of your little girl. I hope you find the support you need here on this board. ((HUGS)) Was just wondering did you give her a name? I would love to know it.
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My story is so similiar to yours. I also felt a water balloon bulge and went to the ER. My daughter Hope was moving around and completely unaware of what was going on when they scanned her. I was 18.5 weeks so I wasnt even admitted to L&D. It was so hard to know that the baby was doing fine, but that giving birth and then having them pass was inevitable.
I am so sorry for your loss, please know that I understand what you are going through.
Christie
TTC#1 since June 2011. 3 early losses before 6 weeks. Hope Olivia born and went to heaven July 26, 2013.
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I'm so sorry for the loss of your precious daughter. I lost my daughter at 22 weeks due to an incompetent cervix so I can very much relate to the feeling of my body failing her while she was perfectly healthy. Her heartbeat was strong and I could still feel her kicking just minutes before I delivered. Then and still today it has caused me much guilt even though I know there was nothing I could have done.
Big hugs to you, I'm sorry you have to be here, but hopefully posting and reading others' posts helps you as it has me. Take good care of yourself.
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Sending huge hugs and loads of comfort your way. Cry, scream, yell, sob, let it all out.
TFMC 08.02.13 at 19+ weeks. Everyday I grieve for my little Olive.