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Re: Cycle couldn't have gone worse...

• RosyGlow member

  July 2013

  Oh my gosh, Lovemuffin - I'm so sorry. That's just devastating. I hope that August off gives you some time to heal and create a plan for the future. You are stronger than you realize. Hang in there. 

  | Married since 2008 | DH and I: Both 30 | Me: Endometriosis and Carrier of an X-Linked Dominant Genetic Disorder | DH: Low Morph | Planning IVF with PGD and PGS in 2013 | Freeze-All IVF #1: March 2013 ER 3/26. 29R, 12M, 11F. 4 5AA frozen blasts. Freeze-All IVF#2: May 2013 ER 5/15. 31R, 21M, 20F. 6 5AA frozen blasts. Our PGD probe was completed in late June (total of 20 weeks to develop). PGD and PGS Results came on 6/19: 3 healthy embryos (normal chromosomes and unaffected by my family's genetic disorder). FET #1: July 2013 Natural Cycle - Cancelled due to insufficient lining (only got to 7.5mm). FET #1.2: August 2013 - Medicated Cycle with Lupron & Estrogen Patches to build up lining. Single embryo transfer was 8/23. Beta #1: 240! Beta #2: 578! U/S on 9/19 at 6w4d: We saw the heart beating at 131bpm. Second U/S on 10/4 at 8w5d: We saw the heart beating at 178bpm. EDD 5/11/2014

  
  

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• rlk2 member

  July 2013

  I am sooooo sorry. There aren't even words......take care of yourself!!!

  TTC 2 years- Me and DH (28) with (severely) low sperm count- less than 40 total (last 2 SA showed only 5 and 6 sperm each)
  IVF #1: ER 1/23/13- 4 eggs retrieved, 3 eggs fertilized; ET with 1 embryo 1/28/13 2 frosties beta #1 2/5 was 4.8- beta #2 2/7 3.5; BFN
  FET #1- transferred one beautiful 4AA embie. Praying this is my take home baby. Beta 5/7/13- BFFN!!!
  IVF #2: ER 7/17/13: 6R/3F- transferred 1 blast and 1 10 cell embryo 5dt.   Beta hell.  #1 2.5, #2 2.2- BFFFN! REALLY?
  IVF #3: ER 12/1 and only 2 retrieved.  1 fertilized with ICSI.  Was planning on transferring one fresh and one frozen....fresh was only 14 cells at day 5...CANCELLED and devastated due to 5cm blood filled cyst in ovary and blood in uterus.
  IVF #4: Antagonist protocol with endometrial scratch day one of stims.  ER 4/21: 6R/4M/3F- transferred 2 beautiful blasts (5dt) and one was hatching!  No frosties but hoping we won't need it!  Beta 5/4/14- 444(8dp5dt), Beta #2 10dp5dt 1002!  THIS HAS GOT TO BE IT!!!!!!!!!!  First US 5/15 we saw two of the most beautiful gestational and yolk sacs I have ever seen!  
  ****FINALLY PREGNANT WITH DI/DI TWINS!!!!!!!  

  
  

  BRINLEY AND RILEY LONG.  Born November 20, 2014 at 32 wks 3 days.  4lbs7oz and 4lbs5oz.  1 month NICU time for "B's" and growing and feeding.  Now healthy, thriving, beautiful little girls!
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• Carolina Blue Skies member

  July 2013

  I am so, so sorry =(  Taking time off sounds like a good idea - I hope you are able to heal from this very difficult experience.
  

  My TTC Journey:
  Dx: Hypothalamic amenorrhea / mild PCOS (Pretty much a hormone/ovulatory disorder)
  Progesterone to induce period w/ the goal of Clomid - never got period (September 2011). Referred to RE.
  Femera - never responded to the meds (December 2011)
  Clomid with TI - BFN (February 2012)
  Injectables (Menopur) - hyperstimulated/canceled (March 2012)
  Injectables #2 (Menopur) with TI- BFN (May 2012)
  IVF - OHSS (transfer canceled), but 11 frozen! (June 1012)
  FET - 1 transferred on 8/09/12. Beta#1 (11dp5dt): 350.3; Beta#2: 365; Beta#3: 157. Biochemical pregnancy.
  FET # 2 - 1 transferred on 11/01/12. Beta#1 (11dp5dt): 337; Beta#2: 769. BFP!!! 1st ultrasound 11/28/12 showed heartbeat, but measuring 5 days behind. 2nd ultrasound 12/05/12 - miscarriage.
  FET # 3 - 1 transferred on 1/24/13. Beta#1 (11dp5dt): BFN.
  FET # 4 - 2 transferred on 3/21/13.  Bet #1 (11dp5dt): 660; Beta#2: 1,300.  Miscarried at home @ 6 weeks.

  FET # 5 - 2 transferred on 7/12/13.  Beta #1 (10dp6dt): BFN.
  Attempted an IUI in late August 2013, but didn't respond well.
  IVF #2 with PGS - Stims started 10/28 with retrieval on 11/11.  Of 14 mature eggs, 10 fertilized, 4 made it to Day 5 & 1 made it to Day 6. We did PGS on the Day 5 embryos, and 3 of 4 were normal. Had ET on 11/17. Beta #1 (8dp6dt): 203. Beta #2 (10dp6dt): 618. We since had two ultrasounds & on 12/19, our RE released us to the OB.  On 1/02/14, we had our first ultrasound with the OB where we heard the heartbeat.  We are so thankful for the blessing & crossing every finger & toe for a healthy & successful pregnancy.
  

  
  

  

   

  

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• MrsSJE2011

  July 2013

  Honestly I cannot imagine... I am so sorry that you are going through all this on top of dealing with IF.  Hopefully your time off will give you the opportunity to process and decide what the correct next step is for you and DH on this journey.
  

  Married: 7/2/11 TTC: 12/2011
  Me: 31, PCOS DH: 37, low morph and low counts
  

  
  

  4 medicated TI, 1 IUI+Femara, 1 IUI+GonalF = BFNs
  IVF #1 Lupron/GonalF (Dec 2012)= 30R, 21M, 21F with ICSI, 18 HIP frosties!!!
  FET in August 2013 

  

  

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• rrdiva1 member

  July 2013

  I don't even have the right words, I am sooooooo sorry!

  I hope things can be figured out after your break, so you don't ever have to go through that again.best of luck! 

  Married BF 6/29/2002/
  TTC Since Aug 2011/
  ME:34 all clear/DH:41 DX Severe MFI/
  IVF w/ICSI OCT 2012 Stims started 10/8/ER 10/19/12/ET 10/24/Beta#1 11/2=BFN (beta was 1.2)
  
  IVF 2.0-Baseline 11/7/12 beta 0/All Clear
  Stim start 11/7/12//ER 11/19 11M//10F
  ET 2 embies 11/24//Beta#1 28 Beta #2 23 Beta#3 29
  stop meds Beta#4 37/C/P 5W5D EDD:8/12/13/IVF#3 in Jan
  
  Ivf 3-frozen 3 poor 3day/fet=bfn

  
  

  Ivf#4 New dr. New protocol=beta1 197 beta#2 677 beta#3 1557

   u/s 8/13 =TWINS 2 strong hb

  Due Date 4/4/14
  
  
  
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• htn1763 member

  July 2013

  Oh my gosh. I am so sorry. I don't even know how you could have been prepared for that.

  I hope the time off helps and you continue when you are ready again.

  
  

  Me: 33 DH: 32 SA#1 low count (6mil) SA#2- now in IUI range!(30mil) Dx:MFI
  11/1- IUI#1,12/1- IUI#2, 1/2- IUI#3 all BFFN
  IVF#1. Long Lupron.ER 3/8 10R,4M,5F. ET 3/3-one 1AB, 2 frosties 5dp5dt-BFP!! Beta 3/25-794 Beta 3/27- 1794
  First u/s 4/8 saw hb. 4/22 missed mc 8w3d. d&c 4/26
  FET #1- bcp start 6/9. ET 7/12. 2 perfect blasts.5dpt-BFP!! 

  Beta 7/24 -1,239!! Beta 7/26- 2569 Beta 7/29- 7120.  U/S 8/7 hb 118! U/S 8/14 hb 143! U/S 8/20 hb 170. Graduated!! Stick baby stick! 

  
  

  
  

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• Sunny B member

  July 2013

  I am so so so sorry how awful. Please take time for yourself to recover.

  TTC since May 2012
  Me: 32 H: 31
  

  DX: MFI-Very Low Count, I have Hashimotos.

  IVF prep September 2013 cancelled due to Ovarian Cyst
  IVF #1 October 2013 Antagonistic Protocol with ICSI  ER 10/31/13 (18R 16M 11F- 6 blasts to freeze)
  ET delayed due to OHSS 
  FET scheduled for July 8. Delayed due to a crazy high TSH (it had been under control for YEARS!)
  FET #1 8/5/14 sET BFN 

  
  

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• ElleBeeKay member

  July 2013

  Oh my gosh. My heart hurts for you. I'm so sorry. Take care of yourself during this time off.
  

  
  

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• kz's_girlygirl member

  July 2013

  I am so sorry for all you are going through!  I hope you are able to take time to rest and focus on yourself and whatever next steps are right for you.  Lots of healing thoughts coming your way.
  

  
  
  
  TTC since 2008
  Dh:34, no issues.  Me:31, Endo, slightly hypothyroid, deformed ovary, paracentric inversion.
  4 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone +TI cycles= all BFN
  Lap in 2012 to remove large unresolving cyst discovered endo and double lobed ovary.
   6 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone IUI cycles= All BFN,
  1st IVF w/ICSI- June '13 Antagonist: Gonal-F, Menopur, Ganirelix, HcG, Estradiol, Crinone= 7 retrieved, 4 mature, 1 unfertilized, 2 abnormally fertilized, 1 normally fertilized.  2DT of only embryo and our miracle BFP.
  Our beloved baby boy was born sleeping Oct. 13, 2013 due to pROM/IC/Uterine infection.
  2nd IVF w/ICSI- Feb. '14 EPP/lupron/antagonist: Estrace, lupron, HGH, Gonal-F, Menopur, HcG, PIO, lovenox, doxy/dex.=21 retrieved, 16 mature, 15 fertilized!!  5dt of 1 blast/ 6 frozen. BFP!  Beta 1 9dp5dt:83.9  Beta 2: 11dp5dt: 145.2  Beta 3  14dp5dt: 497  Please be our sticky rainbow baby!
  
  
  

  
  

  
  
  

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• Pr@yinforbe@n member

  July 2013

  Oh my! Bless your heart. I know there isn't anything we can do to help take away the pain and frustration but just know that we all hurt for you and understand the devastation of that kind of disappointment. Thoughts and prayers coming your way!!

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• firesiren member

  July 2013

   I am so sorry.  ((HUGS))

   36 DH 33 TTC for over 3 years
  First mini-IVF Sept 2011... Only 1 egg! ... BFN
  Switching RE
  IVF#2 May 2012 9 eggs and only 2 sperm, WTH!
  BFN

  IVF #3 March 2013~Tesa with back-up Donor Sperm,Tesa, unsuccessful used DS~ Chemical   

  Switching RE's within practice

  2 frosties waiting for us, November 2013!!!!!   Transferred 2 "average" blasts 11/20/2013

  BFP!!!!!!!  Boy/Girl Twins!!!!!! Due 08/08/2014

  
  

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• sorrellam30 member

  July 2013

  I'm so sorry to hear this

   

  
  

   

  

   

   

  *******siggy/ticker warning***** 

   Me(31). DH (31)

  DH SA normal count and motility, 1% morphology
  Me .72 AMH, Fragile X premutation carrier
  IVF #1 (6/12/13) BFN

  IVF #2 (8/16/13) BFN

  FET 10/4/13 Chemical

  IVF #3 MC 5 weeks 5 days

  IVF #4 DE 11/7 BFP, edd 7/28/15

  All Welcome

  
  

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• krdesi member

  July 2013

  OMG I am so sorry that happened! I can't even imagine how awful and I hope you can do some fun things in August to keep your mind off of everything.

   

  P.s. You are super close to me in NJ!

  
  

  **Siggy/Ticker Warning**   

           
                TTC #1 since May 2012

                May 2013: First R.E. appointment

                DH: SA is good

                 May 2013: CD3 Blood work-normal
             June 2013: Hsg-Right tube blocked

                 July 26, 2013: Starting Follistim for IVF #1

                August 2013: IVF #1 Cancelled- Abnormal embryos

           October/November 2013: IVF #2 w/ICSI

                      November 8, 2013: Transferred two early blasts (no frosties) 

  November 18, 2013: First EVER BFP! 

  Beta#1: 91  Beta#2: 288

  1st U/S- 5w2d Saw yolk sac!

  3rd U/S- 7w4d HB of 157bpm!

  TEAM BLUE!

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• BeeBee08 member

  July 2013

  I'm sorry.  IF is cruel and unfair.  ((hugs))

   
  me 33/DH 36
  ttc since 10/2008; d/x: mild MFI, stageII endo
  ~~PAIF/SAIF Welcome~~
  11 IUI’s = 1 m/c (7w4d)
  IVF#1 January 2012 BFN, FET #1 April 2012 BFN
  Surprise BFP October 2012 m/c (7w), Surprise BFP April 2013 m/c (6w4d)
  IVF #2: July 2013, ET 1 embryo 7/18, beta 1 @ 14dp3dt - 757, beta 2 @ 16dp3dt - 1762
  U/S 1 @ 6w4d = 1 little frogger with HB of 118, U/S 2 @ 7w3d measuring right on track with HB of 160
  Stick Frogger Stick! Please!!!!!!!!!!!!!   It's a Girl, EDD April 7, 2014

  

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• monimu13 member

  July 2013

  So, so sorry.  I hope the next month will bring you to a new plan.  (((Hugs)))

  
  

   
  TTC since July 2011
  BFP #1: 2/15/12-Ectopic/Mtx at 6 wks
  BFP #2: 10/12/12-m/c at 5 wks. 

  BFP #3: 8/27/13
  Me: MTHFR, Low AMH (1.1), High NK cells and Antiphospholipid Antibodies.
  

  DH:MFI-Low morph (1%), DNA fragmentation: Excellent!
  

  5 rounds of clomid, 3 IUIs, and multiple non-medicated cycles- BFFN                                                      
  IVF with ICSI in August 2013 brought us our babies.  ER-9R, 7M, 4F w/ICSI  ET of 2-Grade 2 blasts. 
  

  + HPT at 6dp5dt. #1 (8dp5dt)- 105    #2 (13dp5dt)- 510  #3 (15dp5dt)- 960  #4 (17dp5dt)- 1889
  Dx shortened cervix, PTL, and preeclampsia during pregnancy.  Lots of medications and 13 weeks of bedrest, babies were born healthy at 34w4d!
  
  

  

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• mfarmer0811 member

  July 2013

  So sorry!! Hugs!!!

  Me 28 DH 30 Married 08-11-07 TTC since 07/11 HSG 01-21-13 Left FTB Seeing RE 1-28-13 RE 1-28-13 Both tubes blocked LAP surgery 2-15-13 Both tubes removed Started IVF #1 June 2013 Meds: BCP, Lupron, Gonal-F, Ovidrel, Medrol, Doxycycline
  

  Beta #1-BFP!!! HCG-55 Beta #2--111 Beta #3--2,825 Beta #4 22,031 1st U/S 7-29-13 Saw and heard our little sweet pea's heartbeat!! 109 bpm 
  
  

  
  

  
  

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• LeggyJeggy member

  July 2013

  I am so sorry. It just isn't fair.

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  TTC since 2011
  

  DH: 29, Severe MFI; grade III varicocele; surgery postponed till KU

  Me: 30, POF/DOR, factor II hetero, MTHFR homo

  5 IVF's, LLP, EEP, MDLF all BFN

  IVF 6 using DEB USA frozen eggs

  developed bilateral PE's from BCP, cancelled/delayed 6 mths, taking lovenox

  Feb'15 SURPRISE 1st BFP ever! EDD: 10/10/15, FX

  Still have frozen donor eggs on ice

  All are welcome!

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• PhillyJ33 member

  July 2013

  I am so sorry. I have no words as I can't even imagine going through what you have experienced over the last week. Take care of yourself and I hope August brings the start to some healing. We are here for you. 

  Me 36/DH 46 Me: Low AMH (.21) DOR, mild endo; Started seeing RE 11/12
  Jan-March '13 3 IUIs Clomid + Trigger = BFN

  April '13 IVF 1 MDLF converted to 4th IUI due to 3 runaway follicles! BFN

  July/Aug '13 IVF 1.2 Long Lupron = 7R, 6F, 2T= BFP!!!

  Beta 1=512, Beta 2=1,368 Beta 3= 4,128

  It's a boy!!!!

  SUA, GD

  EDD 4/26/14

  
  He's Here! Arrived 4/15/14!!!!
  
  September 2015 - FET with remaining embryos
  Twins! EDD: 6/14/15
  
  PAIF/SAIF Everyone welcome!
  

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• Praying4Miracle17 member

  July 2013

  I'm so sorry .  Sounds like you've been through the ringer. 

  **Sig warning***

   

   

  TTC since 9/2011. DH - 32, me 32.

  IUI#1 (natural): BFN; IUI#2 (clomid): BFN; IUI#3 (clomid and follistim): BFN.

  IVF #1 March 2013, freeze all (OHSS).

  FET#1 June: BFN

  FET#2 August: delayed due to thin lining (6.3).  Took a few months off to try and thicken the lining with lots of estrodial.  FET#2.2 December: Cancelled due to thin lining (4.8). Two frosties left.

  *New RE* Sonohystrogram and hystereoscopy done in Feb.

  IVF #2: ER 3/4/14  ET 3/7/14, transferred 3, 3 day 9 cell perfect embryos.  No frosties.

  Beta #1 (14dp3dt) 504

  Beta #2 (21dp3dt) 11,561

  First ultrasound on 4/3/14 showed 3 sacs: one empty and two with beating hearts!!  At 7w2d, found out that one baby did not have a heartbeat anymore.  Praying that baby B makes it.  Baby B is a girl!

  EDD 11/25/14 BORN 11/29/14

  **PAIF/anyone welcomed to comment!!  Thank you.

  
   

   

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• Lovemuffin1125 member

  July 2013

  Where are you in NJ? I'm in Bergen County!
  

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• beachy6 member

  July 2013

  I'm so very sorry.

  

   ttc #2 since 2004 Me (35): Stage 3 Endo, DH (34): High DNA Frag

  IVF/ICSI #2: April 2014: BFP!!!!!!

  ET of 2 great quality embryos. + BFP on 9dp5dt. Beta #1 (10dp5dt): 257, Beta #2 (14dp5dt): 1561,

  Beta #3 (21dp5d5): 8,172. Wow. It seems this is actually working. Shocked beyond belief.

  1st u/s @6w5d: Baby A hb 124, Baby B hb 127 (Both measuring perfectly!)

  Lost baby A. Praying that baby B stays healthy. Baby B hb 175 at 11 weeks

  It's a GIRL!!!

  

   

   

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• AustinAg03 member

  July 2013

  I'm so sorry!  

  TTC #1 since November 2011
  Me 32, DH 32
  Dx: Unexplained IF
  RE consult October 2012 

  Clomid and IUI Nov 2012-March 2013 BFNs
  IVF#1 on CD10! April 2013 - ER (27 retrieved, 19 fertilized) 4/21 - ET cancelled due to OHSS. 10 frosties 
  FET#1 w/ one blast May 2013-BFN
  FET #2 w/ one blast July 2013-BFP!!! Beta 9dp5dt: 129 Beta 13dp5dt: 867 Beta 20dp5dt: 13621 Beta 27dp5dt: 53341 U/S #1: 7/31 heartbeat 127 measuring right on time EDD March 20th, 2014
  

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• Toriables member

  July 2013

  I am so sorry that you had such a terrible cycle. I can't imagine anything worse! Please treat yourself to something wonderful.
  

  Me- 35 Dx endo; DH- 33 no probs.

  BFP#1 (totally a wonderful surprise)- 3/10/11. IUFD 6/25/11. 
  

  TTC since 8/2011.

  BFP#2- 11/1/11. EDD 7/6/12. Blighted ovum 12/1/11.

  
  

  New OBGYN 12/2012- CD3 labs, SA, HSG normal. 
  

  First RE appt 1/16/2013. Unexplained infertility. Lap planned. 
  

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  12/2012- Clomid 50mg + TI= BFN 

  1/2013- Clomid 50mg + TI= BFN.

  
  

   Lap 2/11/2013- Removed endo. 

  
  

  3/2013- Clomid + IUI= BFN

  4/2013- Clomid + IUI= BFN

  5/2013- Clomid + IUI= BFN

  
  

  June 2013- Time for a new RE!

  
  

  July 2013- We're in Shared Risk! Love my new RE!

  August 2013- IVF#1- 14 R, 11F, transferred 1 perfect blast, 5 day 5 frosties= BFN.

  Sept 2013- Let's get ready for FET October 7th ish!< transfer 2 embies 10/11/13.......BFP 10/18/13!!!!/div>

  
  

  PAIF/SAIF and everyone is welcome. If I can make even one person's journey less painful, I will consider my experience here successful. Thank you to all for sharing their stories, the intimate details of their lives, their knowledge, and their hearts. I hope this experience changes me, always for the better.

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• Peanutz21 member

  July 2013

  I'm sorry.... Sending you hugs

  
  

  TTC#2
  

  

  Our little IVF miracle born 5/7/2014

  

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• Viasatalyte member

  July 2013

  I am so sorry. Don't give up hope!

  Three ectopic preganacies in left tube in 1999, 2003 and 2004. HSG in 2010 concluded left tube blockage. IUI with femara in 2012 BFN. IVF #1 June 2013, 20 retreived, 14 mature, 12 fertilized via ICSI, one transferred, four frozen, BFN.  FET in September 2013 - BFN:( FET #2 April 2014 - BFP!!!!
  

  Whoever watches the wind will not plant; whoever looks at the clouds will not reap. As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother’s womb, so you cannot understand the work of God,the Maker of all things. <?xml:namespace prefix = o />

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