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I am having a really difficult day. This week we passed the one month to my EDD. I am so anxious about this new pregnancy. My first appt is next Friday and I worry I have just tricked myself into thinking I am pregnant and I'll be told nothing is there. I KNOW this is a ridiculous thought, but it's still there.
Because I am anxious I am not sleeping well. Last night my husband had a coughing fit for about an hour. I told him he needed to go out to the couch because I needed to sleep. He refused so I eventually went out there. I am pissed. I am already not sleeping well, he is the one keeping me awake, I am pregnant and getting comfortable in bed is hard enough, and I am the one who works! He claims he has to get up early too so he can study for his licensing exam...yeah completely different and I don't see him setting an alarm.
Then on top of that our house isn't selling and we are paying mortgage and rent and are just drowning. He keeps texting me at work about it and it only adds to my anxiety. We may have to short sale it and that pisses me off since we only signed a year lease on the new place after we had accepted an offer on the house and were close to closing. Then the buyer backed out last minute and completely screwed us.
I just want to find a corner to cry in. Being pregnant and coming up to my EDD just makes coping with everyday life even harder.
Married 11/23/11, TTC starting 10/12, BFP#1 11/30/12, Adoption of stepson finalized 03/19/13,Loss of our daughter at 20w4d due to incompetent cervix 03/27/13, BFP#2 06/28/13, DS2 born 3/1/14.

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I'm so sorry, dealing with an EDD and fears/hormones is definitely hard. Plus all of your stress over selling the house. Can you just break your lease on the apartment? What would the penalty be? It might be worth it when you consider you could still be paying mortagage and rent for several more months. Big hugs to you!
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