I think I have a shopping addiction! I used to not be a "shopper" and now I feel like I'm getting the biggest high from shopping. The bad thing is I really don't have the money to be doing this but $3 and $5 for shirts for my kiddo...that's so hard to pass up!
1. I have a ton of work to do but cannot get myself motivated to do it. I want a cookie.
2. DH and I are at odds over some things that seem trivial but I'm still pretty sure I'm going to hold it over his head for a while.
3. I knew it would end in tears but I went in to play with Allison before I left for work this morning. DH had to deal with the fallout but she was so darn cute!
4. I had Taco Bell for dinner last night even though dinner was in the fridge at home. Because of that, I have no money for lunch today. And I still want a cookie.
I've really been trying to think of something good because the boards have been slow but I can't think of anything too good and it makes it harder because y'all "know" me now on FB.
I've been hiding credit card debt from DH. He knows I have a credit card in just my name from before we met. He doesn't know I've racked up 500 on it in the past few months. I keep thinking I can pay it if in a couple of months but things keep coming up that we need that money for. I really don't want to tell him.
For the life of me I can't get a GIF to post...and I had a really good cookie one!
Hey confess away! I don't know that it really makes a difference that some may know you on FB now too...I wouldn't think anything of it.
My life is just so boring I have nothing to confess...other than maybe some lustful thoughts of a man I know...that I can't touch because he's married, but oh it would be nice! LOL!
I am judging H's cousin who I just got an invitation to for her bridal shower. I don't even know her and I'm not going and because MIL is involved I'm not even going to RSVP. We do not get along now, especially from the latest drama she caused, so I guarantee she will not contact me asking if I'm going - she will text H if anything, and even then I'm not sure. And I'm debating about being sick the day of the wedding so I don't have to go to it. I can't stand most of H's family so we really don't want to go and H said if one of the kids even sniffs funny that day we will stay home. He wants out of it as bad as I do.
I ate a slice of cake for breakfast.
I have a ton of stuff to do and need to get it done because I hope I get a job offer soon or at least some fresh interviews for new places I have applied. It would be nice if my to do list was scratched off!
I'm not stressing yet about finding a job, but it's getting to that point. I hate sitting around and it feels so daunting when I'm not getting call-backs or emails after I submit my resume. I'm afraid I'm over-qualified/educated for local jobs that are available but I don't want a long commute and it's hard to explain that without making it seem like I'm applying out of convenience so I don't bring it up in cover letters. I know I interview well and I'm applying to jobs I know I can do and do well, so it sucks when I don't get responses. I'm not conceited either, I just know my skills and know what I can do and what I enjoy doing. I could rock the helll out of a job I applied for and I haven't heard back yet so it's frustrating!
I almost woke H up last night because I wanted to have sexx. I had a dirty dream about him but he was sleeping so peacefully I didn't. Now I regret it!
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I had a sex dream about a good friend. We use to have a friends-with-benefits relationship about 7-8 years ago. He's married with a 6 month old. We realized we could never date. It was a dirty dream! I still see and talk to this guy on a regular basis.
I think I had this dream about someone else because I hate the way DH kisses. It's not all kisses just his "sex" kisses. He changes things during and it's really weird and annoying. It's been like this a while but it's been bothering me this week because he wants "fun time" (as he calls it and even that is annoying now) and I just can't get off anymore. I think it's my meds but it's frustrating and now I'm just annoyed!
I hate my job and I haven't done much work today but I applied to 3 new jobs and I'm getting frustrated because I can't get an email or call back on a single job I have applied for.
I hope DH hears something about the new job he is trying to get asap because I'm sick of hearing about it.
I hate the way DH kisses. It's not all kisses just his "sex" kisses.
I LOLed! I hated the way my ex kissed...ALL of his kisses! I know he liked kissing and it was a struggle for me to kiss him...he just sucked at it. And it was even worse during "fun time".
Oh another one: I have a coworker who is 65-66. She is the sweetest lady EVER. She has a new BF and they are gag worthy. She talks about sex on the phone with him and whenever he calls she answers "I love you" and they keep tabs of who says it first each call. He calls a bunch. He is 70-71 and they are in love. I am super happy she found someone who is good to her because her ex-H was abusive and a jerk but it is so gag worthy I roll my eyes and turn my music up loud when I know it's him calling.
I went to chic fil a for cow appreciation day with Addy for lunch. Getting ready was a disaster. I usually don't do anything out of the house until after her nap because that's when I get ready. She was playing with the stuff under my bathroom sink (I can't stand it but it's kinda unavoidable since we haven't put the child locks on in there yet) and somehow managed to open the mouthwash, and spill half of the full bottle onto the rug and floor so I had to clean up that mess, and of course she was whining and complaining the whole time, not just when I had to clean up the mess (and I did the quick, still look like crap version of getting ready too). I had to make our "costumes" as well (just cutting out paper) and there was of course more whining and complaining. Got in the car, gas light came on. Decided to risk it. Got there, obviously there was a line. She was good while waiting thankfully since there was so much to look at, including the guy in the cow suit she kept pointing to, and anytime he would get near her she would cling to me for dear life and freak out. Realized the dining area was so full we would have no choice but to take the food to go which was not my original plan. Walked out to the car, of course I saw another mom from church whilst looking like crap (she is pregnant and always adorable, and she has 2 toddlers). Put the food down (fatal mistake) so I could get Addy buckled in. Proceeded to RUN OVER the food while backing out. *facepalm* Freaked out. Figured chick fil a would be nice and replace the food if I asked but quickly realized the lines were too long and my child was TIRED and still had not eaten, so just went home. Called DH at work and cried. I was able to salvage some of the food at home but I am still so pissed at myself. At least I didn't run out of gas to boot.
My confession is that I am NOT one of those moms who has it all together. I would lose my mind with more than one kid right now and DH has BEEN ready to adopt. It seems like I am losing my mind with just one. I just cannot mentally juggle the million different things I feel like I have to think about on a daily basis as a mom. Yes, today has been an extra bad day but I very often feel like such a failure in this area.
Hubs got his CDL license today. He worked and studied hard for it and I'm so incredibly proud of him.
His dad was a trucker for several years, and had his CDL until a year or so ago when he lost it due to [ahem, mostly selfinflicted] medical reasons.
FIL is incredibly knowledgeable in this area due to all of his experience. He'd have been a perfect person to help Hubs study and prepare for the test. He didn't help Hubs in any way with getting his CDL. Hasn't said a word to him about it, even though he knew Hubs was going for it. Hubs had to go to his coworkers and friends for help.
This boils my blood. FIL is such a selfish jerk. Trustyoume, had this been BIL taking the test, FIL would have been all over helping him.
FIL failed his CDL test the first time taking it... And I just want to go rub his nose in Hubs' success.
And there you have my small novella of a FFFC. I won't start on ILs complete lack of encouragement in hubs' childhood years, their actions that have led to hubs' complete lack of confidence in himself for things like this. They never once even told him he was smart, for crying out loud! Gah!
I wish I was throwing this shower by myself. I feel like it would be much more organized and would turn out way. I don't know who is doing invitations or what they will look like. There is apparently no theme so it's been hard to pick diaper cake options so I went with what the mom to be is doing for the baby room. I cannot get anyone to tell me what games they are doing and how many. They are only worried/interested in planning the alcoholic drinks. Granted the only one pregnant for the shower is the mom to be, so I guess everyone else can technically drink, but that's such crap. It shouldn't be the focus. Everything with these people turns into a party and it's driving me bonkers. She's my oldest/best friend and I will do this and smile the entire time, but it isn't focusing on her and it should. She has had a really crummy pregnancy and had a late term loss last time she was pregnant so she's stressed and not feeling well and I want this to be great and I would have planned her an amazing shower. She deserves a better shower than she will get, and that is frustrating to me.
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I am secretly hiding In the corner while DS plays cars on the other side of the room out of the vicinity, trying to get this coffee in my system before he finds me.
I stayed up late last night having sexxx
And it just hit me how tired I really am.
ZzzZzzzZzZz
But it was so worth it.
Okay, time to go play cars.
Wheeeeee, vrooom beep beep.
I actually have one this week! We are going to meet my in-laws for lunch next week. They haven't seen DS since his first birthday party, which was 6 months ago. They are really judgmental and overall not nice. Nolan has been super clingy this week in a cute way only wanting me. I hope he is like that next week with them, especially since they make no effort to see him and really go out of their way to see my nephew.
I actually have one this week! nbsp;We are going to meet my inlaws for lunch next week. nbsp;They haven't seen DS since his first birthday party, which was 6 months ago. nbsp;They are really judgmental and overall not nice. nbsp;Nolan has been super clingy this week in a cute way only wanting me. nbsp;I hope he is like that next week with them, especially since they make no effort to see him and really go out of their way to see my nephew. nbsp;
nbsp;I'm sure he will be.I think all our babies are clingy right now! Last night DS made me hold his hand while he fell asleep. It was so cute. I guess I wouldn't mind doing that for several years. Ah It just melts my heart. Cuddles, cuddles, all day long!Every morning we wake up, change diaper, make coffee for me pour some milk for him, and sit on the couch where we watch Cat in the Hat Knows a Lot About That, for like five minutes and snuggle while he drinks his milk. Then he's off to do his toddler business. But it's just the right way to start the day. nbsp;
ETA.Good luck
I hope your baby is clingy too I know how you feel. My MIL is the same she isn't involved and is a beotch when she is so I love that my kids are close to my mom and obviously prefer her over MIL. At DS #1's bday she tried to be a grandma and wanted to hold DS #2 who screamed bloody murder and practically leapt out of her arms to my mom. That made me happy. If you want to be involved with my kids and be a grandma do it, all the time, not just for photo ops and when people expect you to.
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Re: Friday Confessions!
1. I have a ton of work to do but cannot get myself motivated to do it. I want a cookie.
2. DH and I are at odds over some things that seem trivial but I'm still pretty sure I'm going to hold it over his head for a while.
3. I knew it would end in tears but I went in to play with Allison before I left for work this morning. DH had to deal with the fallout but she was so darn cute!
4. I had Taco Bell for dinner last night even though dinner was in the fridge at home. Because of that, I have no money for lunch today. And I still want a cookie.
For the life of me I can't get a GIF to post...and I had a really good cookie one!
Hey confess away! I don't know that it really makes a difference that some may know you on FB now too...I wouldn't think anything of it.
My life is just so boring I have nothing to confess...other than maybe some lustful thoughts of a man I know...that I can't touch because he's married, but oh it would be nice! LOL!
I am judging H's cousin who I just got an invitation to for her bridal shower. I don't even know her and I'm not going and because MIL is involved I'm not even going to RSVP. We do not get along now, especially from the latest drama she caused, so I guarantee she will not contact me asking if I'm going - she will text H if anything, and even then I'm not sure. And I'm debating about being sick the day of the wedding so I don't have to go to it. I can't stand most of H's family so we really don't want to go and H said if one of the kids even sniffs funny that day we will stay home. He wants out of it as bad as I do.
I ate a slice of cake for breakfast.
I have a ton of stuff to do and need to get it done because I hope I get a job offer soon or at least some fresh interviews for new places I have applied. It would be nice if my to do list was scratched off!
I'm not stressing yet about finding a job, but it's getting to that point. I hate sitting around and it feels so daunting when I'm not getting call-backs or emails after I submit my resume. I'm afraid I'm over-qualified/educated for local jobs that are available but I don't want a long commute and it's hard to explain that without making it seem like I'm applying out of convenience so I don't bring it up in cover letters. I know I interview well and I'm applying to jobs I know I can do and do well, so it sucks when I don't get responses. I'm not conceited either, I just know my skills and know what I can do and what I enjoy doing. I could rock the helll out of a job I applied for and I haven't heard back yet so it's frustrating!
I almost woke H up last night because I wanted to have sexx. I had a dirty dream about him but he was sleeping so peacefully I didn't. Now I regret it!
I had a sex dream about a good friend. We use to have a friends-with-benefits relationship about 7-8 years ago. He's married with a 6 month old. We realized we could never date. It was a dirty dream! I still see and talk to this guy on a regular basis.
I think I had this dream about someone else because I hate the way DH kisses. It's not all kisses just his "sex" kisses. He changes things during and it's really weird and annoying. It's been like this a while but it's been bothering me this week because he wants "fun time" (as he calls it and even that is annoying now) and I just can't get off anymore. I think it's my meds but it's frustrating and now I'm just annoyed!
I hate my job and I haven't done much work today but I applied to 3 new jobs and I'm getting frustrated because I can't get an email or call back on a single job I have applied for.
I hope DH hears something about the new job he is trying to get asap because I'm sick of hearing about it.
I went to chic fil a for cow appreciation day with Addy for lunch. Getting ready was a disaster. I usually don't do anything out of the house until after her nap because that's when I get ready. She was playing with the stuff under my bathroom sink (I can't stand it but it's kinda unavoidable since we haven't put the child locks on in there yet) and somehow managed to open the mouthwash, and spill half of the full bottle onto the rug and floor so I had to clean up that mess, and of course she was whining and complaining the whole time, not just when I had to clean up the mess (and I did the quick, still look like crap version of getting ready too). I had to make our "costumes" as well (just cutting out paper) and there was of course more whining and complaining. Got in the car, gas light came on. Decided to risk it. Got there, obviously there was a line. She was good while waiting thankfully since there was so much to look at, including the guy in the cow suit she kept pointing to, and anytime he would get near her she would cling to me for dear life and freak out. Realized the dining area was so full we would have no choice but to take the food to go which was not my original plan. Walked out to the car, of course I saw another mom from church whilst looking like crap (she is pregnant and always adorable, and she has 2 toddlers). Put the food down (fatal mistake) so I could get Addy buckled in. Proceeded to RUN OVER the food while backing out. *facepalm* Freaked out. Figured chick fil a would be nice and replace the food if I asked but quickly realized the lines were too long and my child was TIRED and still had not eaten, so just went home. Called DH at work and cried. I was able to salvage some of the food at home but I am still so pissed at myself. At least I didn't run out of gas to boot.
My confession is that I am NOT one of those moms who has it all together. I would lose my mind with more than one kid right now and DH has BEEN ready to adopt. It seems like I am losing my mind with just one. I just cannot mentally juggle the million different things I feel like I have to think about on a daily basis as a mom. Yes, today has been an extra bad day but I very often feel like such a failure in this area.
His dad was a trucker for several years, and had his CDL until a year or so ago when he lost it due to [ahem, mostly selfinflicted] medical reasons.
FIL is incredibly knowledgeable in this area due to all of his experience. He'd have been a perfect person to help Hubs study and prepare for the test. He didn't help Hubs in any way with getting his CDL. Hasn't said a word to him about it, even though he knew Hubs was going for it. Hubs had to go to his coworkers and friends for help.
This boils my blood. FIL is such a selfish jerk. Trustyoume, had this been BIL taking the test, FIL would have been all over helping him.
FIL failed his CDL test the first time taking it... And I just want to go rub his nose in Hubs' success.
And there you have my small novella of a FFFC. I won't start on ILs complete lack of encouragement in hubs' childhood years, their actions that have led to hubs' complete lack of confidence in himself for things like this. They never once even told him he was smart, for crying out loud! Gah!
Ok, stopping now. Whew, I feel better.
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I stayed up late last night having sexxx
And it just hit me how tired I really am.
ZzzZzzzZzZz
But it was so worth it.
Okay, time to go play cars.
Wheeeeee, vrooom beep beep.
I both
and hate you for that! :-)
ETA.Good luck