My baby girl was born at 33 weeks via emergency c-section. She's been in the nicu for just over 2 weeks now and I'm having a hard time dealing with this. I don't know if this is normal nicu/preemie feelings or if it's something that needs to be addressed. I became enraged with my 4 year old over something stupid today and snapped at her. I ended up taking her to grandma's for the night and now I'm up at 2:30 am feeling guilty. Both my kids aren't in my home and it's all my fault. My baby is alone and probably more familiar with the nurses than her own mother and my other daughter probably hates me now. I can't stand feeling like my family is scattered everywhere. I haven't had two seconds to process the birth yet my tummy is empty and I don't feel like a new mommy. I can't stand this.