So, my bumpcation didn't last as long as I thought it would, I just couldn't stay away, lol. This place and you ladies are "normal" for me and I need that "normal" in my life right now.
I'm doing ok after my loss but I'm still feeling a little broken. I'm sure that feeling will last for a while so I'm just trying to be in the moment and move forward. DH and I are trying to spend more time together, alone and as a family, and that has helped a lot. Having O and G has helped a lot too, if they weren't around I don't know what my days would look like. Love those kiddos so much.
The hardest part is yet to come I think since we just found out that my SIL is due 3 weeks before I would have been. Don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled for her and can't wait to have a new niece or nephew. However, I just feel like seeing her pregnant and then later the baby will be a constant reminder of what I lost. It's something I'll have to work through...
On the plus side, I'm taking the time to do things for me. I'm getting a hair makeover, (much needed by the way) and I got a tattoo that I've been wanting for a while. It's the word "Always" on my wrist with 3 small hearts, one for O, one for G and one for the LO we lost.
Anyway, that's me in a nutshell right now. Thanks for reading this little update ladies.
Re: Hi ::waves::
Dh has a cousin that was due the same time I was in February. Sometimes I'm fine around her and other times, like the weekend that was a year after BFP, it was just too much. Just find what's comfortable for you and don't push yourself
::hugs::
Welcome back and congrats on the new hair and new tattoo. It sounds like you're taking good care of yourself, which is so important. Sending you continued T&P.
I'm glad to see you back a bit. The tattoo sounds like a beautiful way to remember.
i think you'll just have to take your SIL's pregnancy day by day. I had a good family friend who was due about a week after I would had been due if I hadn't miscarried. Sometimes it really sucked, but you have to take it day by day. Creepy Internet hugs to you!
BFP #2 5/27/12. EDD 2/1/13. m/c and D&C 6/21/12.
been thinking of you...glad to see you back!