I am a mess

INJSrb · July 2013

I am a mess.

I am hungry, but can't eat.

I am tired, but can't sleep.

I need distractions, but can't focus on anything.

I feel guilty and weak and sad and broken.

I want connection, but can hardly stand the company of others.

I don't know how I am supposed to return to normal. This is not normal. MY BABY IS GONE.

This is so painful.

BR · July 2013

I am so very sorry. I have felt everything you are feeling. It is horrible pain to lose a child. I don't know how long it's been since you lost your baby, but I did find the pain wasn't always as intense as it was in the beginning. I will never forget and constantly have a dull ache in my heart, but I have started to feel a little better lately. I wish the same for you.

INJSrb · July 2013

It has only been a week. It is helpful to hear that this gets easier with time. I remember someone posted recently that they just wanted to shout out loud about their loss. I can relate, I think this post is my shout.

I am so glad to hear that you are feeling better. Thank you again for your kind words.

Ewych82 · July 2013

I'm so very sorry. My heart is breaking for you because I know exactly how you feel. My thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time.

thefuturekpsmith · July 2013

My heart breaks for you, for all of us going through this terrible pain.

theth · July 2013

You just put into words exactly what I'm feeling tonight.

I'm sorry we are going through this!

+SouthernMomma+ · July 2013

I am so sorry that you are going through this, I hope you are able to find and embrace the comfort and support from this board and these incredible woman as I have. No one deserves this pain, sending thoughts and prayers your way... Hugs

Kelsey213 · July 2013

As I sat and read your post, I felt that you really entwined the feelings of so many of us. It is an awful feeing a defeating one. Have you ever read Heaven Is For Real? If you haven't, try and find an opportunity, it may give you something to focus on like you mentioned. I read it because of my father dying, and while that's very different, there is a specific piece in the book about losing a child. It's very uplifting. Right now, please know we are all here for you, and you are definitely not alone in this. Prayers for you!

Pintobean39 · July 2013

I totally understand. I'm 1 week also. I'm really trying to stay positive but am still struggling. The other day my DH And I went to SAMs I felt like a zombie, to the point he said let's just get you home. I feel like something is missing. The past two days have been better my neighbors have been coming to visit and we have been hanging by the pool it's keeping me occupied. I've been through this before it does get better.

saraschilling88 · July 2013

This is how I felt within the first couple weeks even up to a month after I had my loss. It does get easier with time, although there will always be triggers.

adsprinkle89 · July 2013

It will be a week tomorrow for us... This post is the exact words I have not been able to put together. I am sorry for your loss. I am glad to hear that it gets better. Thoughts and prayers to all of you

Kristalina · July 2013

I can definitely relate to the
"I want connection, but can hardly stand the company of others."

When people are around I feel like I want to crawl out of my skin!! But then I miss my family so much when they aren't there. The only one I truly can just be around is my husband.

I hope that you start feeling better soon. Which sounds kind of terrible. But I know we will all never forget, but it will get easier over time. There's such a great community here and we are all here for you anytime. Hugs and love to you.

INJSrb · July 2013

Thank you all for your replies. Although I wish that none of us felt this way, it is very comforting to know I'm not alone in this. I am amazed at the kindness and support you've all offered on this board; thank you.

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