Introducing my (frustrated) self

kzaffuto · July 2013

Hi Ladies

I wanted to write and tell my story (briefly) and get some support. I got pregnant on my first try in January 2011 and my princess was born in October 2011. She had a genetic disorder and although we overcame a lot of hurdles and seemed in the clear, she passed away in March from pulmonary hypertension. I am heartbroken but having known what it was like to be a mom, I know it's my destiny. So we've been trying for the past three months again (I don't care if some people think it's too soon, I know us) with no luck. I know it's not that long, but we were spoiled before. I am temping, OPK, everything. UGGGGHHHHH. I am just so low today.

alleycat39 · July 2013

I am so very sorry the loss of your DD. This TTCAL process can be emotionally draining, but I hope you find some comfort in the meantime.

Serenla · July 2013

I am so sorry fir your loss, ::hugs::.

EKGibs · July 2013

I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby girl. Welcome to the board!

Also, I know TB is being weird & making it hard to remove tickers. Any pregnancy ticker is hard for some ladies to see so if you could remove yours it would be much appreciated. You just have to hit save 10-15 times for it to work. Thanks! Smile

EKGibs · July 2013

EKGibs:
I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby girl. Welcome to the board!
Also, I know TB is being weird & making it hard to remove tickers. Any pregnancy ticker is hard for some ladies to see so if you could remove yours it would be much appreciated. You just have to hit save 10-15 times for it to work. Thanks!

Never mind! I guess you were taking it down as I was typing. Big Smile

Poppy715 · July 2013

I'm so sorry for the loss of you sweet baby.
Just keep in mind this is no longer the same body you are using. Losses change everything including your body. Don't give up and keep trying. Are you using Fertility Friend to chart? They have an awesome tutorial. I know Itami seem like it but its really been very little time trying again. Just keep at it.
Edit: spelling

samjen2010 · July 2013

Welcome and hugs to you. I'm so sorry for your loss. It only took me 2 cyles initially to get KU. I'm now on my 6th cycle post loss. Good luck to you and I hope this is a place where you can find the comfort and support that I have.

thomas930 · July 2013

Welcome and I'm so sorry for the loss of your little girl. TTC can be a frustrating process, especially when you want it so bad.

SuperKim13 · July 2013

I am so sorry for the loss of your baby girl. (((HUG))) Welcome to the board. I know that it can be frustrating, but just keep trying. I'm sure you aren't doing anything wrong, it just takes time sometimes.

QuigleyCat1 · July 2013

I'm so very sorry for the loss of your sweet baby girl. You're in my thoughts and prayers for continued healing and brighter days ahead. Glad you've found this board and hope you'll find exactly what you need. (((kzaffuto)))

kzaffuto · July 2013

Thanks to all for your support! I hope my ticker is fixed- I changed it for myself actually. I never know what to do- some days I like seeing the reminder of how old she would be, etc but some days (like today) I just CAN'T handle it. Then I feel as though I am forgetting her. Ugh. This road is so bumpy...

L&C2010 · July 2013

kzaffuto:
Thanks to all for your support! I hope my ticker is fixed- I changed it for myself actually. I never know what to do- some days I like seeing the reminder of how old she would be, etc but some days (like today) I just CAN'T handle it. Then I feel as though I am forgetting her. Ugh. This road is so bumpy...

Welcome. I'm so sorry for your loss. As others have said, each time trying it can be different. My first 2 pregnancies were after trying for 1 or 2 cycles. I'm on cycle 6 now. I understand your feelings. Just know, you will never forget your baby girl and you are not trying to replace her. (((HUGS)))

LaRomana09 · July 2013

I'm so sorry for your loss, but welcome. (((HUGS)))

shandorfml2 · July 2013

I'm so sorry for your loss. If you feel you need extra support concerning your loss, check out the loss board. It's for pregnancy, stillbirth and infant, child loss. ((((hugs)))

HeyMrsPotter · July 2013

Welcome. I'm so sorry for the loss of your little girl. Before my miscarriage, I too got pregnant on the first try. It's not working out that way for me this time either. I hope you find this board to be a source of support.

princezjk · July 2013

I am so sorry for the loss of of you dear daughter. I hope you find this board as helpful as I have and that your stay here is short and sweet.

KP0908 · July 2013

I'm so sorry for your loss!

I don't think anyone can tell you when is the right time for you. Only you can. If you feel ready, then you are ready!

Good luck! I'll be thinking of you!

kzaffuto · July 2013

Thanks again all. The amount of support already is overwhelming and cheering me up.

lindsebert · July 2013

Welcome to the board, though I'm sorry you have to be here. Big ((hugs)) and I hope you don't have to stay long.

kateitho · July 2013

Welcome to the board. Think of trying this time as starting out with a new body, because you are. Everything changes post loss. I hope you can find some support and healing here with us. These ladies are wonderful! Please take some time to explore the blog for our board. IT will help with all the abbreviations and such. ((hugs))

tubby106 · July 2013

HeyMrsPotter:
Welcome. I'm so sorry for the loss of your little girl. Before my miscarriage, I too got pregnant on the first try. It's not working out that way for me this time either. I hope you find this board to be a source of support.

Same goes for me, I got pregnant on my first try before my miscarriage, but it's not happening as fast this time around. I'm so sorry for your loss. (hugs) I hope you find support here.

docamy2011 · July 2013

I'm so very sorry for your loss! Welcome to the board! You have come to the right place in searching for love and support! This is an amazing group of women. Jump on in and start offering support to others as well......I promise it helps you when realizing you are not alone!! *HUGS*

LunaBug924 · July 2013

I am so very sorry for your loss. Like pp have said, your probably now has a "new normal", so don't get discouraged just yet. I wish you lots of luck, and welcome to the board.

jap618 · July 2013

I'm so sorry for the loss of your DD. HUGS! I know what you mean by it seeming to take a while. I got pg both times the first cycle we tried. I'm now on cycle 8... TTCAL s*cks donkey balls. I hope your stay is short, hugs!