I buried my sweet Lily today, it was the hardest thing I hope I ever have to do. I can't stand the fact that she's now at the cemetery it's now raining. I know she's with God, but I hope she's not wet or cold. : I also hate the fact that my breasts are full I can't feed her, I was so looking forward to that binding time.
I will say this experience has made my boyfriend I so much closer. It's almost painful to be away from him sometimes. I know that we have to to wait for me to heal, but it's so hard not to share intimacy right now, when we seem to need it most. I'm just so thankful for him. I have a wonderful support system, for which Im grateful. On a bright note, I saw a rainbow tonight, I like to think that was Lily, once again showing us her love beauty.
Re: Buried my baby today
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