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Fear

EsthiEsthi member
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About 3 1/2 month ago I had an early miscarriage but got preg. Again after 4 weeks ! Today I am exactly 11 weeks . So far I had 3 scans and all seems amazing !! My problem is , that I can't let go of this extreme intense fear to see blood again .... Will it ever leave me ? And even though a lot of you say spotting and all that is normal . With myself I knew, that odd coloured discharge means no good. And it was no good last time. All looks really good this time and I want to relax already . But it's not happening ... Yet! Anyone in the same boat ??
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  • rackey9rackey9 member
    First pregnancy I had a miscarriage at 12 weeks.  Then second pregnancy was just fine.  Now I am on my third, 5 weeks and freaking!  :-)  I understand completely!
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  • JennJenn214JennJenn214 member

    I understand. Though I've never had a miscarriage, my mother, aunts, and grandma did frequently and I guess I've lived most of my life assuming I would have one too. I'm 7 weeks into my first pregnancy and it's all I can do to not think about it. Last night I dreamed that I miscarried and woke up terrified. I talk with my husband some about it, but praying is the only thing that really seems to help.

    You're almost to the second trimester! You can make it over the hill!

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  • mlebatesmlebates member
    I am most definitely in that same boat.  And to be quite honest, I am not going to "feel good" about this pregnancy until that baby is in my arms.
    BFP - March 31st 2013 - MC on April 6th 2013<br>
    BFP - May 11th 2013 - MC on May 15th 2013<br>
    BFP - June 22nd 2013 - MC on June 30th 2013<br>
    BFP - September 2013 - MC September 2013<br>
    BFP - October 31, 2013 - December 17th - found out baby stopped growing at 7wks - natural MC December 20th 2013

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  • Mamanajera2Mamanajera2 member
    I understand to i had a MC in march and every time I use the restroom I have bad panic attacks i'm going to see blood. Its stressful and sad . I don't think i'll be able to enjoy this pregnancy cause i'll be scared of what if's ! 
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  • LeannFranLeannFran member
    We had a MC between weeks 9 and 10 with our first pregnancy. I completely understand the worry and nervousness. I am constantly second guessing our pregnancy and fret when I start feeling better (( even thought his is the time I should be feeling better)) it's hard to get over the heartbreak and right when you think you're beginning to heal it hits you again. I think it's normal and I glad you've shared with us :) hope all continues to go well!
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  • dairygirl19dairygirl19 member

    Ditto pps. It never really goes away until that baby is out and in your arms.

    My first ended in a stillbirth after a long diagnosis of chromosomal issues. It was day after day week after week of dr.'s appts. It was sad, heartbreaking, draining, anger inducing, bittersweet, stressful and all sorts of things.

    Then I went on to have a happy healthy 2nd, who will be 2 next month. I'm the most laid back, easy going person on here probably but the dr. and being pregnant stressed me the hell out. I made H come to appts. with me just to keep me calm because I'd freak I'd hear something bad everytime I went.

    Now I'm pregnant with a 3rd and all those feelings are coming back. It helps I'm busy with Toddler but still isn't easy. I told H we were done after this..I can't handle the stress.

    I do just repeat often, "This is all beyond my control. It is what it is. It's all meant to be. It worked as it should with the first, for the best with the second and it will with the 3rd too."

    And I pray. A lot. And I'm not that religious. ;)

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