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BFN...moving on to IUI

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Hi ladies. Well, I tested this morning (I'm on CD2611DPO) because I am leaving for Florida tomorrow morning and wanted to be prepared of the result before I left. Well, as I expected from my symptoms in the past 3 days it was a BFFN. My RE said if this cycle was a bust then he would switch me from Clomid to Femera and we would also incorporate IUI. So, looks like that will be our plan from here on out. I'm happy we have a plan and I'm glad that I found a dr who I feel cares more, but I still can't help but feel broken, like quality control should have rejected me when I came off the assembly line.  How do you ladies get past this feeling? I'm hoping I can enjoy some time poolside while I'm in Florida and AF doesn't bring too much luggage with her to make that time uncomfortable. 

Thanks for listening.  



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TTC since March 2012 (2nd attempt), 3/26/13 Dx: Unexplained Infertility; 4/8/13 HSG, tubes open; DH SA good
4/2013 1st cycle of Clomid (50mg)=BFN
5/2013 2nd cycle of Clomid (50mg)=BFN
6/2013 3rd cycle of Clomid + TI(100mg)=BFFN
7/2013 1st cycle of Femara, IUI #1 cancelled, No sperm mobility (huge surprise)
8/2013 2nd cycle of Femara, IUI #1 attempt #2 complete, BFN 
9/2013 3rd cycle of Femara, Ovidrel, IUI #2, BFP!!!!! 
Beta #1: (14DPIUI) 185!!
Beta #2: (16DPIUI) 358, progesterone 40.3
Beta #3: (20DPIUI) 2600.2!!!!
U/S #1 (24DPIUI) TWO poppyseeds!!!! 
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Re: BFN...moving on to IUI

  • sueann911sueann911 member

    I'm sorry about the BFN. That sucks. I'm glad you have a plan for next cycle.

    I know that feeling all to well and the thing that always helps me is time and alcohol. :)

    I always feel a little better a few days after AF leaves. I try to do something for myself during those tough days to take my mind off of it, whether it be running, going out somewhere with DH, etc.

    I hope your day gets better and you have fun in Florida!



    Me: 32 DH: 31.
    B/W: good. SA: good.
    November 2012: Paratubal cyst found during U/S.
    January 10, 2013: Lap removed paratubal cyst and Stage 2 Endometriosis. 
    3 cycles of Femara + TI = BFNs

    June 2013: Femara 2.5 mg, Gonal F Injects 37.5 IU, Menopur, trigger + IUI = BFN

    July 2013: Femara 2.5 mg, Gonal F Injects 75 IU, Menopur, trigger + IUI = BFP!!!!

    Beta 1 @ 11 DPIUI = 76. Progesterone = 27.3

    BFP 8/16/2013 // EDD 4/28/2014

    Jordan Samuel born April 19, 2014. 6 lb, 12 oz and 18 inches long.

     

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  • Bhale88Bhale88
    I'm so sorry! I know the disappointment. I've been feeling the same way. Last night I kept saying what should we do to help ourselves feel better. So my DH kept telling me jokes and playing old songs that were fun and we just sort of goofed off last night. But as she was saying above, anything you can do to take your mind off of it. A coping skill is something that's good for you, good for others, and helps you feel better. I think sitting poolside will be a good way to relax. Maybe you want to take some Tylenol or Midol with you so your trip isn't ruined by AF. Hang in there and safe travels!
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  • RunCC37RunCC37 member
    I'm so sorry about the BFN. They are the worst. I usually take the time I need to sulk and feel sad. After I feel ready to move on, I'll go for a run, eat some chocolate, drink some wine, anything I can do to make myself feel better. The one good thing about cycling is that by the time my pity party is ending I'm already back for monitoring for the new cycle.

    I hope your time in sunny Florida provides a welcomed distraction. Hang in there, friend!
    **SIGGY WARNING**

    Me: 32 DH: 35  TTC#1 since March 2012
    Dx: Poor Embryo Quality, Arcuate Uterus, Poor Uterine Blood Flow, Mild Endo, 
           Protein S Deficiency, Sjorgen's Syndrome 

    IUI #1-5: BFN
    Laparoscopy & Hysteroscopy: minimal endo, partial septoplasty
    IVF #1: 10R/6M/6F ~ Day 3 ET = BFN
    IVF #2: 14R/9M/5F ~ transfer canceled ~ all embryos arrested at 1-2 cell stage
    IVF #3: 9R/5M/5F ~ 1 frosty!
    IVF #4 (FET #1): BFN

    IVF #5 (DE IVF #1 with Dr. KK protocol): Currently PREGNANT!!!!!!
    Synthroid + Prednisone + Metformin + Baby Aspirin + Supplements Galore = 15+ pills a day
    Lupron + Lovenox + Delestrogen + IVIG + B/W = 2-5 pokes a day
    19R, 17M, 17F - transferred two Grade A blasts 11/16, four frosties!!!
    Beta #1 11/24 (13dpo/8dp5dt) = 367 ~ Beta #2 11/26 (15dpo/10dp5dt) = 709
    Beta #3 11/29 (18dpo/13dp5dt) = 1,997 ~ Beta #4 12/1 (20dpo/15dp5dt) = 3,403

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  • mmb248mmb248 member

    I'm sorry about your BFN.  Every cycle I think I'm expecting the BFN and then when I see it, I feel crushed.  Silver lining - it means you've still got hope!  Also, congratulations on finding a new doctor and having a plan! 

    I ditto the PP - alcohol.  Plus, I get drunk quicker during AF.  On really rough cycles, DH and I take a quick weekend trip somewhere and that totally takes my mind off of it because I think it's good that we're doing that while we still can.  I hope going to FL helps take your mind off things and you have a great trip!

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    Me: 33     DH: 38
    TTC since August 2011
    DX:  PCOS and subseptate uterus
    August 2013:  Clomid + Trigger + IUI TI = BFN
    September 2013:  Clomid + Trigger + TI = BFN
    October 2013:  Clomid + Trigger + IUI canceled
    November 2013:  NTNP
    April 2013:  Femara + Trigger + IUI = ???
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  • BabyDustWishBabyDustWish member
    So sorry Big Hugs
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    Me: 36, DH: 41 TTC: Feb 2011
    Dx uterine fibroids & MFI = Varicocele causing decreased SA
    *** 12/2011: IUI #1 50mg Clomid = BFN ***
    *** 8/2012: IUI #2 100mg Clomid = BFN ***
    *** 11/2012: IUI #3 150mg Clomid & Metmorphin 150mg = BFN ***
    *** 1/2013: Changed RE's & Urologists for more focus on MFI ***
    *** 4/2013: IUI#4 Femara & Follistim = BFFN ***
    *** 5/2013: IUI#5 Femara, Follistim & Bravella = BFFN ***
    ***6/2013: Taking a much needed break***
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  • ErinSaysErinSays member
    You are not broken! But I totally get how you feel because nothing has ever made me hate my body more than dealing with infertility has. It's a daily struggle - I just keep telling myself that I am more than just my lame reproductive system.
    Me (34) & DH (45) - NTNP since June 2011
    RE: 12/1/12 - Me: PCOS; DH: Low T
    2/13: DH's T went from 190 to 777!
    Cycle 1 1/25/13: Clomid 100mg + Trigger + TI + Progesterone = Ectopic pregnancy
    3/7/13: MTX injections put me on the bench.
    Cycle 2 6/7/13: Clomid 100mg CD3-7 = No response
    Cycle 2.1 Clomid 150mg CD 19-23 + Trigger + TI + Progesterone = BFN
    Cycle 3 7/21/13: Clomid 150mg + Trigger + IUI #1 + Progesterone = BFN
    Cycle 4 8/25/13: Bravelle 75-112iu + Trigger + IUI #2 + Progesterone = BFN
    Cycle 5 9/23/13: Bravelle 75-225iu + Trigger + IUI #3 + Progesterone = BFFN
    Onto IVF - starting injects on Christmas Day

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  • Olive925Olive925 member
    I'm so sorry!  Hopefully, your vacation will help keep your mind off IF for awhile.  For me, I have to have my initial cry session, but then there is nothing better than thinking and doing anything else!  I find myself trying to fill every minute with something fun following each month's disappointment.  I hope this vacation is just what you need!
    TTC since March 2012 Me: 31 H: 37 SA: normal HSG (3/7/13): suggested bicornuate uterus MRI (3/15/13): confirmed complete bicornuate uterus 7DPO results: normal CD3 results: FSH = 11.7, AMH = normal July 2013 - 1st round Clomid +TI
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  • CindalCindal member
    Sorry for the BFN. Hopefully a little vacay time is just what you need. It's important to remember, I think, that we are more than just the sum of our parts.

    TTC since March of 2012
    Me: 27 Dh: 35 Testing Begins 3/5/13
    Six SA's show DH has low numbers across the board = severe MFI
    Genetic testing for me = MTHFR+, also carrier for blood clotting disorder Otherwise all else normal
    Dh's karotype= Normal!!
     Mini-IVF/ICSI - July -August 2014 - 1R,M,&F Transferred 1 Grade 1 Morula-5dt - BFFN


     
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  • shelbeans82shelbeans82 member
    I'm so sorry about the BFN ((Hugs))  Glad you have a plan moving forward.
    Hope you enjoy your vacation!
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    TTC #1 since November 2011
    Dx: Unexplained Infertility, probable endometriosis
    Feb-April 2013: Femara + TI: BFN
    May - September 2013:  Follistim + Ovidrel + IUI#1-4 = BFN
    IVF # 1 November 2013: transferred 1 perfect blast = BFN
    IVF # 2 April 2014: Endo scrape, transferred 2 blasts = BFP!! (first ever!), CP
    FET #1 June 2014: transferred 2 blasts = BFFN
    New Dx: Repeat Implantation Failure
     IVF # 3 November 2014 = BFP!!  Beta #1 9dp5t 272  Beta # 2 11dp5dt 626
    It's Twins! 
    *everyone welcome*
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  • Twinkie0612Twinkie0612 member

    I'm sorry about the BFN, but I hope IUI does the trick for you.  

    I've had those moments where I've felt like I must be broken (I mean people get KTFU without even trying, WTF is wrong with me!), but I try not to dwell on those feelings.  IF sucks, but I have come to terms with the fact that it is part of me and my life.

     Have fun in Florida!

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    TTC #1 since August 2011

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    September 2012: Start IF testing

    DH (32): SA is ok, slightly low morph, normal SCSA  Me (32): Slightly low progesterone, hostile CM, carrier for CF, Moderately high NKC, High TNFa, heterozyogous mutated Factor XIII, and +APA

    October 2012-May 2014: 4 failed IUIs, 3 failed IVFs, and 1 failed FETw/donor embryos

    November 2014: IVF w/ICSI #4 Agonist/Antagonist with EPP and Prednisone, Baby Aspirin, Lovenox, and IVIG for immune issues.  Converted to freeze all due to lining issues.  2 blasts frozen on day 6!

    January 2015: FET #2 Cancelled due to lining issues

    April 2015: FET #2.1


    PAIF/SAIF Welcome!

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