Still no embryos.....

shewolf576 · June 2013

I am getting discouraged...... I tried miracle's waiting and they don't play with other clinics, California Conceptions is just too far, Embryo donation International wants you to be there for 2 weeks. My clinic is out of donor embryos and I can't seem to find any donor program that ships them. Why is it when it is my turn things just disappear. Everyone else here seems to be moving forward and I am stuck standing still. Most of the places I contact have donor eggs no donor embryos.

Anyone know of any embryo donation places that will send them to your clinic?

liz4paws · June 2013

I'm so sorry you aren't having any luck.

As far as Miracles Waiting goes, it's only a classified's ad type of site so depending on the donor situation, you likely will be able to have the embryos shipped to you. It's just a matter of getting matched which can take a while and can be frustrating. Many couples who are matched have their donor embryos shipped to their clinic and I'm confident you can too if you hang in there for the right donor.

Most clinics with actual embryo programs won't ship, but I think Snowflakes might. You may want to research them. However, they require a home study which is a deterrent to many.

Good luck, let me know if I can be of any help!

shewolf576 · June 2013

You know its funny for years and years and years it was all about the day when we would have the money for donor egg. That was the biggie. Yeah I did need to do the college thing, and foster care (even when having the kids go back home I will never say I wouldn't do it if I had the choice.to go back in time). It was always the goal at the end of the dream. I finally find the road that we can do and have the funds to do it and we run into this. It is like crossing a finish line and there is no one there. I said I was going to do it only once but I lied. I just keep thinking if I had gotten a larger batch, maybe if they had not been so old...... So many what ifs........I keep playing the choices over and over in my head, trying to figure out how I could have not thought about what if it didn't work. I didn't have a backup. I always think things through, When the RE said maybe you should have gotten a batch that was bigger then, we would already be on try number two, I want to just kick myself. This situation is all my fault.... I made a snap decision and didn't think. The most important decision and I didn't read the fine print.......... I just want a baby I can keep, one I don't have to give back, Its NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've been a good mama to my foster kids but I don't get to keep them, I don't wanna be "like a mom anymore" I just want to be a mom. Yeah I guess Ive been around toddlers too long cause now I am crying and throwing a fit like they do..... Venting, frustrated, I just don't know anymore....

shewolf576 · June 2013

I apologize, my newest baby goes home on dec. 24th. I guess I am just having a bad night. I cant take the rant back already hit post. 4 years of foster care and the stress of IF is getting to me

ArgyleBride · June 2013

I am so, so sorry. Fostering can be incredibly rough. A breakdown is so totally reasonable in this spot, and I am so sorry your planning and perseverance haven't paid off, yet. You are travelling a very tough road but I have faith that beautiful things are in store for you. You will be an even stronger woman and an even better mom for all that you have done and endured, though it may be little consolation for all the pain. Hugs to you.

BeckyP005 · June 2013

Just want to give you some big hugs. FX that something comes along quickly. I know it's hard to wait. Hang in there.

jcath · June 2013

(((hugs))) I'm so sorry. Sounds like you have alot going on. I hope an embryo finds its way to you.

stinkerbell6879 · June 2013

Oh honey!! This is all so unfair, NONE OF THIS IS YOUR FAULT! You did what you thought is best! Sending biggg (((HUGGSS))) and I know how hard the fostering can be, my mother fosters and stopped taking some of the younger ones because of how hard it was on her.

I am again going to remind you THIS IS NOT YOUR FAULT, this is something I struggled with as well because the "What if..." I had spent more money to have more eggs..etc. this will drive you insane! So please, remember just like I had to remind myself this is not the end, and your DE will find there way to you.

LittleLady77 · June 2013

((hugs)) sorry lady. Some days are harder than others.

liz4paws · June 2013

shewolf576:
You know its funny for years and years and years it was all about the day when we would have the money for donor egg. That was the biggie. Yeah I did need to do the college thing, and foster care (even when having the kids go back home I will never say I wouldn't do it if I had the choice.to go back in time). It was always the goal at the end of the dream. I finally find the road that we can do and have the funds to do it and we run into this. It is like crossing a finish line and there is no one there. I said I was going to do it only once but I lied. I just keep thinking if I had gotten a larger batch, maybe if they had not been so old...... So many what ifs........I keep playing the choices over and over in my head, trying to figure out how I could have not thought about what if it didn't work. I didn't have a backup. I always think things through, When the RE said maybe you should have gotten a batch that was bigger then, we would already be on try number two, I want to just kick myself. This situation is all my fault.... I made a snap decision and didn't think. The most important decision and I didn't read the fine print.......... I just want a baby I can keep, one I don't have to give back, Its NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've been a good mama to my foster kids but I don't get to keep them, I don't wanna be "like a mom anymore" I just want to be a mom. Yeah I guess Ive been around toddlers too long cause now I am crying and throwing a fit like they do..... Venting, frustrated, I just don't know anymore....

Giant hugs. I am so sorry....None of this is your fault. You made the best decisions you could with the information you had. I wish I could jump through this screen and squeeze you....I am so sorry.

happywifemomofone · June 2013

Big (((hugs))). IF is so unfair!! None of this is your fault, you made the best decisions that you could at the time. Hope that your embries are waiting....but just haven't yet found their way home.

Km672 · June 2013

Oh no, not at all your fault. You made the best decision you could with the information you had at the time. This process is long and difficult and there are no guarantees. Pls don't beat yourself up over this!!
I hope something breaks for you ASAP... The waiting is so very hard. Take care of yourself

ladyrader0227 · June 2013

I am so sorry that you are having a hard time. BIG BIG HUGS!

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