Well yesterday I developed mastitis for the second time in less than a month. I felt some pain then had a fever of 101 *after* taking ibuprofen 2 hrs prior. The first time my supply tanked and took about 2 weeks to come back to normal. Today I was just pumping and wasn't getting anything from the infected side so I tried to manually express and pure pus came out. It hurts like hell so I'm starting antibiotics (which I do NOT do well on).
I EP due to many issues relating to
my boys being preemie. The first time it happened I wanted to give up
but I kicked myself in the @ss and stuck to EPing... now? I need someone
else to kick me in the @ss because I'm so so done with this. I don't want
to quit but seriously? This is miserable. I've also had to deal with
thrush, milk blisters, and cracked and bleeding nipples for over 6
weeks. I'm already supplementing because I cannot keep up with the boys
70oz a day requirements but I want them to have as much BM as they can
but this has just become a nightmare.
Re: XP: Mastitis twice in 1 month - need encouragement
I've been pumping every two hours today but have had to switch to manually doing the left into a dishtowel
I'll be disappointed in myself for quitting but i feel as though I would be a much happier mother/wife. Its such a hard decision.
Me: PCOS, DH: normal
Started seeing RE 11/10/2011
8/31/2012 = BFP!!
First Ultrasound... TRIPLETS! EDD 5/11/13
Baby w/ no HB @ 10w4d - We love you angel baby.
Baby A & B doing great. A/S 12/10/12 - Healthy BOYS!
Sawyer & Silas born at 33+6 on 3/29/13
BFP#2 ~ 8/2/11, EDD 4/11/12, D&C 9/12/11 at 9w5d
BFP#3 ~ 4/15/12, EDD 12/21/12 ~ DD born 12/22/12
BFP#1 "Watermelon" born 3/2011
BFP#2 "Pumpkin" 7/14/12 ~ EDD 3/23/13 ~ Natural M/C 8/3/12 @ 7 weeks
BFP#3 "Pineapple" born 4/2013
BFP#4 "Grapefruit" EDD 3/29/16
Oh, Rachel! That is awful. I am so sorry.
BF is HARD already without the extra roadblocks being thrown your way. I agree with PPs about not quitting on a bad day. If you really want to continue BFing, take it one day at a time. Maybe reevaluate once this latest round of mastitis clears up. No matter what you decide, your boys will be just fine. You need to make whatever decision is right for you and your family. Do not let guilt figure into your decision.
BFP#1 11/12/11 ~ No heartbeat 12/12/11 ~ D&C 12/19/11
BFP#2 3/25/12 ~ Heartbeat 141 4/16/12 ~ No heartbeat 4/25/12 ~ D&C 04/30/12
BFP#3 7/16/12 ~ EDD 3/26/13 ~ It's a BOY ~ DOB 2/26/13
That's so much to go through in addition to the fact that BF'ing is a lot of work to begin with! You are doing great to have persevered! I agree with PP's that now is probably not the best time to give it up, just because it will help get rid of the infection. I had mastitis 3x in the 16 months I nursed DD. I know how much it SUUUUCCCCKKKKSSS...!
If you do decide to give it up ultimately, it's your choice, and not one you should feel horrible about because obviously you are trying so hard to continue. One thing to consider is asking your dr/hospital about breast milk banking. My neighbor does it. She has such an oversupply that she donates her surplus milk. If you are adamant about the benefits of BM but are having too many difficulties to nurse, it might be an alternative for you.
Good luck mama, and hang in there!!!!
I'm an EPer, and it is very tough. You have to do what's right for your family and not listen to anyone else. That said, I'm really only doing the EP thing because my husband is home a lot (he's a full time student). He always offers to feed the baby while I pump and that really helps. If I didn't have his help, I might not last as long as I have.
As for your infection, I can only really recommend what has worked for me. Hot showers with massage, then immediately pumping afterward. Then I would continue to massage during the pump.
I'm so sorry you're dealing with all of this, but I believe you're strong enough to keep going. I also believe if you decide to quit, it's because it will be the best decision for your family. There is nothing wrong with formula feeding. Good luck and I hope you get some relief soon. ((HUGS))
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I'm going to suck it up and reeval in a week or so after I'm purged of this demon boob juice. Quitting on a bad day is absolutely the worst idea ever I just needed to vent my frustrations with having BF being taken away and then EP being so so difficult with two.
Much love to you all!
Me: PCOS, DH: normal
Started seeing RE 11/10/2011
8/31/2012 = BFP!!
First Ultrasound... TRIPLETS! EDD 5/11/13
Baby w/ no HB @ 10w4d - We love you angel baby.
Baby A & B doing great. A/S 12/10/12 - Healthy BOYS!
Sawyer & Silas born at 33+6 on 3/29/13
BFP # 1 - 12/19/09 EDD 08/27/10 - D&C 1/26/10 @ 9w5d
BFP # 2 - 06/05/10 EDD 02/17/11, DS1 born on 2/14/11
BFP # 3 - 04/10/13 EDD 12/21/13 - D&C 05/15/13 @ 8w4d
BFP # 4 - 07/27/13 EDD 04/08/14 - CP 07/29/13
BFP # 5 - 09/14/13 EDD 05/28/14, DS2 born on 5/22/14
Positive for HLA-B27, I'm a mutant
Testing - Me ok, gluten issue? DH - borderline count, low motility
4/28/11 IUI#1 = BFP!(5/25), EDD 2/2/12 - m/c 5w3d
7/3, 7/31, 9/25 - IUI#2-4=BFN
IVF#1 - 1 blast = BFP!! (12/30), EDD 9/9/12, confirmed c/p 4w2d
FET#1 3/2/12 - 2 blasts =BFP!! EDD 11/18/12, us#1 = twins! Confirmed m/c 5w6d
4/20-surprise BFP and another c/p 4w2d
FET#2 7/16/12 - 2 blasts = BFN
FET#3 8/20/12 - 1 blast - BFP!! Beta #1-2=177, 354
1st u/s 5w6d, one beautiful little HB
baby girl born 5/10/13
TTC#2 since 12/17/2014, Cycle 8
Repeat Testing...FSH=12, AMH=3.8, AFC=28.
IUI#5 5/10/15- c/p?
IVF#2 8/19/15 - cancelled due to cysts
IVF#2 take two 10/2015 - 5 blasts frozen
FET#4 12/11/2015 - BFN - 4 blasts remaining
FET#5 2/18/16 - BFP!!! Beta1-3, 126, 250, 745!!
Tons of love and ((hugs)) to my IF sister NMscubagirl