Bi-Weekly Beer, Brats, and Cheese Party Time

sammer818 · June 2013

Ladies - I apologize this is so late. I can no longer bump at work Crying and that is where I have my reminder set to post this. Better late than never, right?

This is our bi-weekly check in, condensed version. Feel free to let us know how life is, you can b!tch, you can moan, you can complain, you can brag, you can cry, whatever you want. This check-in, we are enjoying beer, brats, and cheese. Beers and brats because the Brewers actually managed to win last night (they kind of stink this year) and cheese because I'm from WI. We don't do anything without cheese!

sammer818 · June 2013

As always, I will get this party started. We are nowhere in regards to surrogacy. Things kind of fell apart with the agency and two weeks ago we applied to work with the only other agency in the state. I called them last Friday because we hadn't even heard if they got our application. It took some digging, but it turns out someone had started looking at it then went on vacation. They were supposed to call yesterday to set up a time/date to meet us and we never heard from them. I'm really unimpressed and am going to have a really hard time paying them SO much money if they can't even call me back. It's hard to form a good opinion of them and have confidence that they can take us successfully through a surrogacy when they can't even make a simple phone call. Tongue Tied

Non-TTCAL....not too much. I got the WORST sunburn of my life this past weekend. It hurts to wear clothes. My front side looks like a lobster! We also had our annual girls' trip (where I got so burned) and it was odd. We had a baby shower while we were there for one of the girls, and I'm pretty sure I make everyone else uncomfortable because they know I've had losses. I made a comment about one of my losses (it was pertinent to a story I was telling) and three people looked away and one actually walked away and didn't listen to the end of the story. It was kind of awkward, which makes me incredibly sad because this used to be my closest group of girlfriends I don't really have too many other friends than them.

jenn0021 · June 2013

Sammer - I'm so sorry that the new agency can't get their act together enough to call you back. I can't imagine how frustrated you are with the whole thing. And ((hugs)) on the girls weekend. I'm sorry it was awkward and people are treating you differently now. That sucks. And even more ((Hugs)) on the sunburn. I hope you heal fast!

As for me, nothing really new in TTCAL news. We're still not pregnant and I'm losing hope quickly that we will be any time soon. I've been in a slump mood wise the last 2 weeks, ever since my sister announced she was pg. I guess I'm taking it harder than I thought.

Non-TTCAL, life is pretty good. I'm in the final countdown at work and today is my last day this week, then only 3 more weeks to go! Our garden is growing well and I'm getting excited about our summer. It will be good.

I'm also excited to keep running. I ran my first 5K last Saturday and it has inspired me to keep at this. I'm now looking at a Color Me Rad run in September and I think I've convinced my sister to do it with me.

Roxycc55 · June 2013

Sammer: I am so sorry that it has come to such a halt with the surrogacy. That has to be insanely frustrating. Also I'm sorry people are being weird surrounding you because of you're loss. I hate when people act like that. Side note: I had no clue you lived in Wisconsin!
Jenn: I am so sorry that you are dealing with your pg sister on top of TTCAL being such a frustrating process. It must be very difficult. [[[[[Hugs]]]]]

As for me, if you see my post on the regular board it has been a rough time at work. Just trying to not completely deflate over there.

The wedding is one month from Friday. So I'm going crazy in multiple ways right now. I'm super excited though!!

creativesoul83 · June 2013

hello newbie here joining in. Glad to be here with some great ladies.
Sammers so sorry all you got going on and feeling alienated, especially when they have been so close before. They may just not know what to say or how to respond or console you.
Roxy again hugs Hope your clients are doing better. I remember reading how your week was going.

My ttcal is a struggle. Af reared her head two days ago and going to start temping. Hope I can figure it out. Ha

Non ttcal I am getting ready to take pctb test for work. I am full time pharmacy tech. So nervous but gotta do it. Ready for the weekend for pool side time get my tan on.

Hope everyone had a great rest of the week.

mayonegg · June 2013

sammer - (((hugs))) I'm sorry that you are dealing with this. TP that agency. Sunburn's stink! I'm also sorry about your girlfriends. It still amazes me that people really have no idea how to act.

jenn - ((hugs)) I can't imagine the SIL thing. Yay for 3 weeks to go! And congrats again on your run! That is so awesome!

roxycc55 - I hope your work situation is getting better Sad FWIW you do an important job and those people are so lucky to have you! GL with the wedding stuff! Try not to stress out about it!

JnJ - I'm with you on the 2ww FX!

wicked - We miss you too!!!!

I have no updates, really, so just HI!

buggirl72 · June 2013

sammer - (((hugs))) I'm really hoping that the agency turns out to be good and the lack of a call back has to do with the person being on vacation. I'm sorry about how your girlfriends reacted but good for you from not shying aware from talking about your miscarriage.

jenn - yay for only 3 more weeks! (((hugs))) for everything else.

roxy - I really, really hope your week got better and how excited are you that you are only one month away from your wedding!

JnJ - I'm glad you like the rotation you are on! I imagine the ER has to be really interesting.

wicked - (((hugs))) and I hope you are doing well

mayonegg - Hi! If I was going to change my screen name it would be to "BobLobLaw"

Update on me - I really have had a round of sucky doctor's appointments! I went in for a sonoHSG on Monday (CD11) and let the doctor know that I had an LH surge the day before. He checked my ovary to see if it looked like I had already O'd -nope. No sign of any mature follicles, or really, any follicles even attempting to do anything.

This led to a bunch of blood work that I just got back today. Not good. The doctor wanted to know if I was having hot flashes and sleep disturbances. No to the hot flashes, yes to crappy sleep but I think that is related to the stress of what I'm doing now (studying for the Bar).

Estrogen came back low - 37

FSH and LH came back high - 33.5 and 31 (this is a CD11 instead of CD3 level but I could not find a really good number for what the highest normal FSH should get in your cycle)

Thyroid was also slightly elevated at 3.18 and Prolactin was 26.

Can we all say fluck? I'm to call when CD1 hits and if it does not happen by July 1, I'm to call so we can see what is going on and force a cycle if I have not O'd by then. The doctor mentioned a medicated cycle next, partly to see if I I respond to hormones - because there is a good chance I won't.

I know that stress can be wacking out my hormones but Dr. Google likes to tell me all these numbers are nice indicators of menopause. I feel really, really discouraged.

I would never give up any of the moments I had with Zachary but I can't help but ask why? Especially if one year later I'm going to find out there is zero possibility of ever getting pregnant again.

EKGibs · June 2013

I don't have any new updates as far as TTC. ***Baby mentioned***

Last week my SIL had her second baby. As we were leaving the hospital the first time, I didn't even make it out to the car before the meltdown started. I was crying uncontrollably & missing my baby so bad it literally hurt. Poor DH was blindsided but I think he's getting used to it by now. He told me that whenever I'm ready to make a decision on either IVF or adoption, he's ready.

As usual, I'm putting off any major decisions until after I pass my registry exam & get a job. That's normally what I do, put off major decisions hoping the problem will correct itself. I really need to stop doing that.

Sammer: I hate that this new agency is not cutting it. I would feel the same way about the reliability of them if they can't even return a phone call. Sorry about the sunburn! Those hurt so bad.

Jenn: Hugs for being in a slump. I understand how bad it sucks. Yay for only having a few more weeks of work!

Roxycc; Congrats of the wedding!

J&J09: Fx for you!

mayonegg: Hi!

buggirl: I'm so sorry for the bad test results.((((hugs)))

lsuhoneybadger · June 2013

Sammer-I'm so sorry the agency is being a PITA. ((((hugs)))) and I hope they are able to get their act together soon.

Jenn-(((Hugs))) to you and I'm sorry you are having to deal with PG relatives on top of this whole TTCAL process. Congrats on the running though! A color run sounds awesome-I've been trying to get DH to do one with me for awhile now. Can't wait to see pics

Roxy-I must have missed your post about work so wanted to send some (((hugs))). Yea for the upcoming wedding!

J&J-So glad you are enjoying your ER rotation!

Wicked-(((Hugs))) to you

Mayo- Hi hon!

Bug-I'm so, so sorry about the craptastic appointments. I will be sending T&P's that the medicated cycle *does* work for ya'll.

EK-Big huge (((hugs))) to you hon. I hope you are able to come to a decision on the IVF whenever you are ready.

Jenek-(((Hugs))) for you love

As for me, I'm still waiting for my HCG to get to zero (was 27 on Thursday) so hopefully by next week I can get a break from all the blood draws. RE wants to wait until I have one full cycle and then we can pursue some additional testing (which we want to do). Up until this last loss, I've let myself think that we've just had bad luck twice and our next chance would work. But I have to say that now, the real possibility that this may not work out for us the way we want is starting to creep into my everyday thoughts.

Mrs.E.07 · June 2013

I'm late to the party, sorry about that!

Sammer - I'm so sorry about all the trouble with the agency. That's so frustrating, I hope you can work something out with them soon. And I'm sorry to hear about your friends treating you differently, I understand that must make you sad. ((hugs))

Jenn - Congrats again on your first 5k, that's so awesome! I'm sorry you're feeling frustrated with TTC. We've all been there. I hope you are doing ok (as well as you can be) with your sister's news. You've been in my T&Ps.

Roxy - 1 MONTH!! Holy crap that's exciting. Can't wait to see lots of pics! Sorry you're having a rough time at work. I hope things get better soon.

J&J - Ah the ER is so fun, is that where you want to work in the future? I hope the 2WW goes by quickly for you and that it ends with good news, obviously. Try to stay sane!

mayonegg - hi!! :-P

buggirl - I'm sorry about those test results. FX those symptoms are just due to bar craziness. That kind of stress can certainly affect your body, so I hope things level out soon. lots of ((hugs))

EKGibs - I know what you mean about putting off major decisions. Sometimes you just can't deal with it when so much else is going on. I hope you can eventually come to a decision that you and your DH are both happy with. When is your registry exam?

lsu - I hope you get to 0 soon. With my first loss, it took almost 3 months to reach 0 and it was pure hell. I'm so sorry you've had to deal with another loss, and then all that on top of it. ((hugs))

Update: AF reared her ugly head today, which was not ideal since it was my first day of my summer job and I had killer cramps, but I'm still super happy because that means my surgery should be ON for June 19th. I'm really scared, as I've mentioned here before, but hopefully it'll all be ok.

I had a really rough weekend with 2 baby showers. It really sucked all the energy out of me and I was a total mess. I was able to keep it together during the showers, but I came home and just cried in DH's arms. He has been nothing short of amazing though all of it though. After our first loss, I don't think he really "got it", but now he does. He hurts like I do, and although it's terrible to see him feel that way, it does help that he understands, and we can try to help each other. Not sure if that makes sense...

So I've had a rough week but I'm hoping this week will be better. My first day of work was overwhelming but fun, and it looks like I won't have to postpone my surgery, so we're off to a good start!

Have a good week, everyone! xoxo

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