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Just wanted to update everyone on my situation.

So after being in limbo for over a week, I finally have my answer. I guess I knew all along that it would end this way again, I just didn't want to believe it. Unfortunately I've suffered another MC at about 6 weeks. I started bleeding on the 22nd and was told there was still hope, that my levels were low, that they were rising. Well, as of this tuesday my levels have dropped.This makes my 4th MC in just a year. This loss date fell just a few days away from my very first loss a year ago.  

With all of the stress from my losses and TTC and marital issues, I have decided to take a break. I will be going back on BC as soon as my levels have reached zero. I don't know if I will ever try again. Right now I know that I cannot handle any more heartbreak. 

Thank you all so much for allowing me to be here, and for offering your support and advice. I hope that you know how much i appreciate each and every one of you. I hope that I have meant as much to you as you have to me. You've all truly touched my life, and I consider you my friends. I've never met people as loving as the ladies I've met on this board. I've said it before and I will say  it again, I am blessed to found this place.

I will probably lurk for a while, and I may come back in a few months. I just need to take some time for myself and to work on my marriage. As of right now, things with DH seem to be fine, but we still have some things to sort out. I love him and we both want things to work out, so I'm sure it'll be alright eventually. I think this past year has just stressed us both out to the max. 

I love you all and wish you the best in your TTC journeys, and in everything you do.

HUGS to you all!! 

Crunkal 

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    EKGibsEKGibs member
    I'm so sorry you are going through this again, Crunkal. Take care of yourself & know that you will be missed. You are welcome to come back anytime you get ready, even if it's just to say hi. (((((((hugs))))))))
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    Dec '12 HSG & ultrasound showed abnormalities & more endo. Laproscopic surgery in January '13 showed significant damage & scar tissue from Endo. IVF is our best shot to concieve our rainbow.

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    Crunkal, so sorry to hear of your loss! I hope the break is everything that you need for it to be. :::Hugs:::

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    mmc Angel 2/7/13 @ 15w3d, mmc Aubrey 2/13/13 @ 16w2d, D&E 2/16/13

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    I'm so sorry you've dealt with so much heartbreak in just a year, it's just not fair. Many hugs and prayers coming your way. Take care of yourself and I truly wish you and your husband the absolute best! 
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    I'm so sorry you are going through this again, Crunkal. Take care of yourself & know that you will be missed. You are welcome to come back anytime you get ready, even if it's just to say hi. (((((((hugs))))))))

    This exactly. I'm so sorry for all of your losses

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    BFP #2, 04/06/2013 - EDD 12/17/2013 - MC 04/19/2013

    6/12/2013 Diagnosed with Balanced Translocation (12 & 16)

    IVF #1 with PGS: 10/2013: Canceled 9/27/2013 for issues with genetic lab

    IVF #1.5 with PGS: 11/16/2013: Canceled. 11 eggs retrieved, 9 mature & 9 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos

    IVF #2: 1/22/14: Canceled. 16 eggs retrieved, 14 mature, 7 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos

    IVF #3 with PGS: 5/10/2014: Switched to FET in July. 10 eggs retrieved, 9 mature, 8 fertilized, 2 healthy embryos!

    FET #1: 7/31/2014: Transferred 2 nearly perfect (6AA, 6BA) healthy embryos- BFFN

    Laproscopy: 10/2014: Healthy uterus

    IVF #4: 12/8/2014: Canceled. 17 eggs retrieved, 15 mature, 10 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos



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    So sorry for all of this. Big ((hugs)) to you. I hope that the break does what you need it to do. Lots of you love to you.
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    BFP #2 9/17/13 -- EDD 5/25/14-- CP confirmed 9/21/13
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    I'm so sorry to hear about your losses. Hope to see you back soon. And that things get better with your DH. Lots of TPs and ::::hugs::::

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    I'm sorry crunk big ::hugs::. Take time to heal and please take care of yourself.



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    CrunkalCrunkal member

    Thank you guys so much. 

    I will miss you all.

    I promise to come back, even if it is just to check in on my girls and look at awesome gifs.

     

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    I am so so sorry crunkal. I had been lurking on PGAL and was thinking about you since you posted you were spotting. I hope the break gives you the clarity you need and answers any questions you may have with your husband. So many hugs sent you way. No one should have Togo through one loss much less four in a year.
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    So so sorry Crunkal! ((hugs)) I hope you guys heal and you and YH work things out. Will be T&P for you!
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    I am so sorry but I wish you the best.
                               
                  
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                D&C 12/12/12
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    HUGS :(  I'm so so so sorry for this loss & all of your previous.  Take care of yourself.  T&P with you <3
    Married the love of my life June 18, 2011 -- Me (28) DH (29)
    TTC #1 since June 2012
    BFP #1 6.29.12 EDD 3.12.13 MMC discovered 8.11.12 9w5d D&C 8.15.12
    BFP #2 11.2.12 EDD 7.14.13 MMC 6w5d discovered 8w6d 2 failed rounds miso D&C 12.27.12
    BFP #3 8.5.13 EDD 4.18.14 MMC 7w4d discovered 9.25.13 at 10w6d -Trisomy 13- 1 round miso & emergency D&C 10.2.13
    RPL Testing. DX Asherman's November 2013. Low AMH (0.44) January 2014. 
    Operative Hysteroscopy January 2014 to remove scar tissue.
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    Popping in from my lurking bump break to say I am so genuinely sorry to hear about all of this, Crunkal. Sending you the best of wishes. *hug*
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    I am so, so sorry for all of this. It just sucks. I hope the break helps you. :::big mobile hugs:::
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    I'm so, so sorry for all you're going through. My heart is breaking for you and I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

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    4.6.13 : 4 weeks, 4 days


    10.27.13 : 5 weeks, 6 days


    4.2.14 (IVF #1) : 4 weeks, 1 day


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    I'm so very sorry for what you are facing now. My heart goes out to you and your DH. You are always welcome to lurk or check back in. You'll be in my thoughts in these weeks to come.
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    BFP #2: 12/20/2013  EDD 9/1/14, missed m/c @ 7weeks, D&E
    BFP #3: 5/26/2014 EDD 2/7/15, missed m/c @ 9 weeks, D&E- DX Trisomy22
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    I'm so very sorry Crunkal, and I'm sending you all the (((hugs))) you can take!


         

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    I'm so sorry you are going through this but I admire you for acknowledging that this break is what you need. I hope it gives you some clarity and you and DH are able to mend your relationship. This process puts such a strain on us that sometimes you just need to step back. Sooooo many hugs to you.
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    7/12/13 Hysteroscopy & Lap Lysis of Adhesions
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    Oh Hun, I am so sorry.  It's just not fair.  I hope that time away brings you nothing but peace and happiness, but know that you will be missed.  We are here if you decide at some point to come back.  So many ((Hugs))

     


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    DH:  100% Abnormal Sperm Morphology
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    BFP #2  "Quinn" EDD 06/21/13- MMC @ 8 weeks - Disc. 12/12/12 @ 13w0d 
    BFP #3  "Luna" EDD 03/31/14- MC 07/29/13 @ 5 w0d 
    BFP #4  "Star" EDD 07/06/14- MC 11/28/13 @ 8 weeks
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    I'm so sorry for everything you're going through.  So many ((((hugs))))

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    I"m so sorry, Crunkal. Take care of yourself. T&Ps and we will be here if you need us hon! (((((((hugs))))))))
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    I'm so sorry for all you are going through Crunkal. Many [[[hugs]]]] to you hon.
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    BFP #2: 8/31/12 EDD: 5/18/13 Chemical pregnancy: 9/4/12
    BFP #3:  5/17/13  EDD: 1/24/14 Loss at 5 weeks: 5/29/13

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    Cycle 2: Cancelled due to two cysts =(
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    Crunkal, I'm so sorry you've had to deal with so much heartbreak in the past year. I will be hoping for the best for you, whatever you decide to do. (((Hugs)))
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    I am so sorry, Crunkal.  I hope that you are able to work things out with DH and get everything back to normal and find some peace within yourself.  I'll be thinking of you! Big ((hugs)).  Good luck in all you do!


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    BFP#2 Nov 2005. Baby's heart stopped @ 8w3d. D&C Jan 2006. Trisomy 18
    BFP#3 Nov 2006. My "miracle baby" DD born 7/25/07
    BFP #4 11/6/12. EDD 7/16/13~my birthday! No sac found @ 5w1d, betas not increasing. Natural m/c started 11/20/12.

    BFP#5 11/9/13.  EDD 7/21/14  Our beautiful rainbow born on his due date!!

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